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Monday, August 1, 2016

DOUBLE-PLUS UNGOOD



RATIONAL WIKI:
http://rationalwiki.org/wiki/Roko%27s_basilisk#Acausal_trade
Yudkowsky considers the many worlds interpretation of quantum mechanics to be trivially obviously
true,[31] and anything that could happen does happen in some quantum Everett branch[32]
(modal realism[wp] is true[33]).Per Yudkowsky's conception of continuity of identity, copies of you in
these branches should be considered to exist (and be you) — even though you cannot interact with them.[34]

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Václav_Havel Not to change the subject but a New Yorker Václav Havel article struck a chord with me. 

Mr. H, Czech President, Vaclav Havel in 1990 accepting an honorary degree at Hebrew 
University and comparing his experiences to Mr. K, Franz Kafka. 
http://www.nybooks.com/articles/archives/1990/sep/27/on-kafka/

"One of them is a profound, banal, and therefore utterly vague sensation of culpability, as though my very existence were a kind of sin.  Then there is a powerful feeling of general alienation, both my own and relating to everything around me, that helps to create such feelings; an experience of unbearable oppressiveness, a need constantly to explain myself to someone, to defend myself, a longing for an unattainable order of things, a longing that increases as the terrain I walk through becomes more muddled and confusing."

About the only thing I have in common with Vaclav Havel is that my
last name also begins with H and otherwise nothing in this blog compares
to what what he experienced in prison before the Prague Spring in the
freeing of Czechoslovakia from the Warsaw Pact USSR.

I can easily go from Havel, Kafka and the Prague Spring to Orwell.

I used to be very smug and very sure that my version of things was "right".
There have always been mentally ill people who believe they are victimized by
whoever he or she believes the enemy or "They" happen to be.  Everything in this blog
can be interpreted in that light.  Understandable but incorrect.  I was completely wrong
in my assumptions and no one could tell me otherwise.

DIRECT EXPERIENCE ON THE RECEIVING END beginning in 1994 and becoming
much more aggressive after 2001which many might contrive to say is some kind of
911 PTSD or some such nonsense.  The following will include the cringeworthy but
accurate explanation as to the source of all that I'm describing.  And no, it has nothing
to do with government or contractor conspiracies.  Any references to same are done for
the sake of context if not clarity.

1) E-distorted scream sound effect from outside my apartment followed by
verbal and multiple pulsed frequency sound combinations inducing nausea,
skin heating, racing heart, an adrenal rush felt in the kidney adrenals, in the heart
as angina and total sleep deprivation for 3/4 of a year and resulting temporary arthritis,
painful upper back and neck side effects.  (The sound frequencies I heard were seemingly
meant to mimic the previously mentioned commercially available sound weaponry)
Sleep deprivation for this amount of time, normally impossible, is made to be very
routine which means keeping a person alive and totally sleepless for 3/4 of a year doesn't
seem to present much of a problem for those hiding behind the decisive asset, as
Martin Ames would say, of being beyond belief.

New methods are likely added in pursuit of absolute overwhelming
intimidation, domination and control as if always in a constant
state of war implementing learned helplessness with and w/o physical
contact.  No evidence is apparent, all complaints must be dismissed.

Pulsed multi-frequency combinations are invasive, invisible, leave no
incriminating marks and yet are capable of "touching" and causing
extreme physical pain, nausea, heating of the skin or racing heart chest
pain causing the person to keel over.  The latter are all consigned to tactile
hallucinations or "anxiety attacks."  Nothing was wrong with my heart
but neither were these imagined.  Also no government plot, no technology
or invisible microwave DEW beams.  (The angina pain was a heart jump-
start during prolonged sleep deprivation and disruption)

2) People on the receiving end of sleep deprivation are kept alive and relatively
healthy in a kind of functional half-life fog.  Involuntary sleep deprivation and
disruption via verbiage, sound effects (the old base sound ceiling rapping of 
horror movies, slamming doors and scrapping chairs) sound frequencies 
stimulating or depressing major organs, modulating blood flow, sex drive 
and those famous Strangelovian "precious bodily fluids."  

3) During that 3/4 of a year sleepless marathon the only external obvious
differences in the immediate home environment besides those mentioned
were a mild aerosol chemical smell in the apartment that probably had stimulant
effects and also an almost constant hissing white-noise-like sound both
in the ears (blood flow due to contracted blood vesicles?) and, at times,
projected into the surrounding apartment space reaching a crescendo
effect around the sleepless endpoint after approximately nine months
and the start of another round of sleep disruption.
This occurred in my living space which was and still is more of an
virtual (v)-prison than a place to live.

4) No third party or doctor can distinguish any of this from classic delusion.
At the mere mention of "hearing voices" doctors can't blame themselves for
prescribing useless (in this case) anti-psychotic drugs because even the individual
on the receiving end has no conception, reason or experience to know what's behind
any of this.  The person will believe what they are told, that they are psychotic and
proceed to be compliant in taking useless prescriptions.  Lately the mental health
profession see's psychosis on a functional to dysfunctional spectrum.  This is considered
something of a breakthrough in the mental health field.  Breakthrough's are rare
but millions of research papers keep pouring forth.

Most people who experience intractable delusion and hallucinations also experience
sleep deprivation and believe, usually wrongfully, that they are the victims of externally
sourced plots.  Everything described here can be met with looks of fake concern
combined with the usual slow shaking of the head, as in, "whoops, there's always
room for one more comedian on the funny farm."

After the months of sleeplessness I assumed, wrongly, that I had a psychotic
break leading to auditory hallucinations and sleeplessness.  It took me years,
and increased sleep, to see things differently.  This can be seen as a typical
attempt at talking myself out of inconvenient reality except for the fact that
I will mention details that are difficult to imagine, copy, contrive or make up.

I can't prove I was completely awake for 3/4 of a year.  A typical response,
"I guess not, staying awake that long is impossible anyway?"  Or "you had to
have been on drugs and forgotten that you slept for brief periods."  Or ,"What's
that? You were being hit by invisible rays by invisible men?  Golly, that's too bad.
Check out some of Schreber's Thorazine flavored Kool-Aid for speedy relief."

(In Schreber's day it was opium and fresh air physical fitness for upper class
overworked judges claiming to be mystics)

All kinds of scenarios can be implied or imagined: Street or prescription stimulants?
Persecution complexes along with a desperate need for attention?  Making the whole
thing up or mixing select truth and fantasy, or, or, or anything but what I'm saying.
Convenient understandable automatic default settings that people always fall back
on because what is being said is inconvenient, repellent, or hilariously dumb sounding.

Total sleeplessness conveniently hinders awareness of what should be obvious.
What proves eventually to be so obvious is an insidious non-imagined 24/7 remote
metaphysical neural hack interference in every aspect of waking and sleeping life.

"What's that you say, metaphysical what?  From victim to mystic.  Where have
we heard that before?"  (Metaphysical is my word for it beyond the usual meaning
of the word.  Better than supernatural or spiritual.  It is anything but spiritual.)

The above manifested more aggressively in my case around 2002 some months after 911,
while in my fifties.  But was also a continuation of a slightly more subdued series of
personal events starting in 1993-4 coincidentally after the first WTC attack.  There is
no apparent connection and if any exists it is, again, way past my pay grade.

The more accurate my description of all this the less credible it sounds.  So I should
stop digging the hole deeper, right?  Nope, I'm in over my head and no matter how hard
I dig the hole stays at the same depth.  The level of experience stays the same.  Terrible.




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