Thursday, January 12, 2017


"Columnists and magazines that a month ago were saying #NeverTrump are now vibrating with the frisson of his audacity." May 20, 2016

"The three-part process by which the gross becomes taken for granted 
has been on matchlessly grim view this past week in the ascent of 
Donald Trump."

"If Trump came to power, there is a decent chance that the 
American experiment would be over. This is not a hyperbolic 
prediction; it is not a hysterical prediction; it is simply a candid 
reading of what history tells us happens in countries with leaders 
like Trump. Countries don’t really recover from being taken over 
by unstable authoritarian nationalists of any political bent, left or 
right—not by Peróns or Castros or Putins or Francos or Lenins or 
fill in the blanks. The nation may survive, but the wound to hope 
and order will never fully heal. Ask Argentinians or Chileans or Venezuelans or Russians or Italians—or Germans. The national 
psyche never gets over learning that its institutions are that fragile 
and their ability to resist a dictator that weak. If he can rout the Republican Party in a week by having effectively secured the 
nomination, ask yourself what Trump could do with the American government if he had a mandate." ...Adam Gopnik, New Yorker

As authoritarians both Trump and Putin get to say what's true.  They both
manufacture doubt and distrust in facts, logic, nuance, governments and
reality itself.  The aim of the Republican Party long before Trump was
to make sure erosion seeps into U.S. mainstream news, politics and culture.
Just look at what passes for populist right wing politics...

Speaking of which, never thought I'd be quoting veteran 
neoconservative reporter, James Kirchick: "I should not 
have been surprised. I’ve been following Russia’s cultivation 
of the American right for years, long before it became a 
popular subject, and I have been amazed at just how deep 
and effective the campaign to shift conservative views on 
Russia has been. Four years ago, I began writing a series 
of articles about the growing sympathy for Russia among 
some American conservatives."  (He voted HRC. Will 
return to his work further on) 

After land, sea, air, the internet and space, there 
is another final frontier, another domain of 
contention and warfare.  The sixth domain, the 
human brain and the control of same.  

I believe maybe half of what Andrei Soldatov has to say about the lead up
to 2016.   IMO, Putin, key I.C. people like Gen. Flynn, unelected Republican
proxies, a few Republicans in Congress, team Trump along with his campaign
manager Paul Manafort were moving together long before mid 2016 or 2015.


"The 1st rule of Fight Club paid trolling...never talk about Fight Club...
unless wearing ski masks and floral shirt on this excellent funny 
Samantha Bee Full Frontal segment... 

On YT are thousands of bogus fear and doom disinformation videos 
and websites that pretend to expose (U.S. never Russkie) government 
sponsored mind control.  All but telling viewers that sausage fact-ory 
You Tube "alternative" "news" videos by the thousand along with 
most supportive commentsthousands of internet sites, blogs, forums, 
Facebook pages, fake news ad sites supported by paid or volunteer 
Psy-War contractors imitating paranoid style fear, doom, confusion 
and delusion.  

Then again, the above video is comedian Samantha Bee doing a 
comedy interview from Moscow.  What serious news person can 
take this seriously?  Everything said is totally accurate but that 
simple fact is offset by the comedy format which can be said to 
be easily rigged by using English speaking Russian students or 
comedians claiming to be paid troll disinformants.  

The comedy format seems acceptable to troll networks 
themselves because they can then get creatively Orwellian 
by attacking one of their main targets, the US media.  
Under the Sam Bee YT video were comments giving false 
praise to the comedian as doing better job of reporting 
on troll purveyors of alternative news" (likely the 
comment writerthan serious MSM reporters.  Creating 
manufactured Kafka hall of mirrors.

Psy-war contractors compensate for insane content with shear 
numbers of videos and sites.   They exist to provide a context 
for outright lying that undermines the idea of accuracy, facts, 
news and any rational informed bias. 

In my view of things, few of the perfectly scripted videos in the
You Tube "alternative" fear and doom video categories are made
by the mentally ill which is counter to prevailing informed
narratives typified by Doctor Vaughan Bell quoted in the NY
Times 2008 link below.

This is the psychiatrist who runs the popular appropriately
named "Mind Hacks" psychology blog.  Dr. Bell and Yale
Professor Dr. William Hoffman say these sites and videos
are by and for the mentally ill.  Even considering video
editing few of these novelty video narrators claiming
persecution as "targeted individuals" stumble over words
or thoughts regardless of how willfully ridiculous those
words and thoughts are.  Which means they are scripted.
Can anyone rehearse or edit a flawless video?  Yes.  Can
it be done that way thousands of times over thousands of
videos all claiming to be mind controlled and stalked by
the US Govn’t using the same two or three formulas over and
over to perfection?  Yes, by competent pros, not by the
assumed legions of paranoids.  Which in itself is an
assumption on my part.  How can it be proved unless a Russian
reporter infiltrates the Internet Research Agency.  Which they did.

In my view, the internet might not have nearly as many actual 
zoolander lunatics as is now believed or reported.  But that's 
another complicated assumption. 

It's a good idea for media friendly professionals like Dr. Bell to
come to easy conclusions that all these videos are to be dismissed
as made by the ill informed or mentally ill and nothing more.  For
a credible person to say otherwise would be professional suicide
and public humiliation.  It's left to comedians like Samantha Bee
and, well, shitty writers like me to say otherwise.

And now the post election media finally piles on with "revelations"
about "fake news" as if it's anything new.  Serious "news" headlines
ask the question, "Did Russian's Hack The U.S. Election?"  This
leaves "alternative" right wing media and so-called gateway
journalists like Glenn Greenwald to deny the story and play serious
journalistic voices of reason to perfection.

When convenient.  Greenwald walks a necessarily fine line because
of Ed Snowden and Snowden’s precarious status between Russia and
his home country, America.  The pro-Russian positions in this regard
by Glenn Greenwald are melting away by the day.  Breitbart Editor-in-
Chief, Alex Marlow admitted to Bill Maher that Russia hacked,
interfered with the US election.  An ex-Breitbart reporter now working
for Sputnik News (where else) complained to the RNC that Marlow
was veering from acceptable Party narratives.

Dr. Bell, in his best most con-vincing professional Brit accented voice
might pull a Greenwald and say that my claims are nothing more than
"Russians Are Coming" Cold War Joe McCarthy Russophobic paranoia
without proof.  Or that speculative blogs like this are guilty of the very
thing they accuse others of.  A mere lefty meta conspiracy theory of
conspiracy theories.

I would naturally claim that inference, common sense as well as the
CIA and FBI say otherwise.  When I categorize thousands of channels
as sausage fact-ories with similar themes, lingo and paranoid fantasies
I imply they are all operating in concert.  Which can put me in categories
Dr. Bell talks about along with patients in P-Doc waiting rooms talking
to themselves about Russian trolls hacking their underwear.  Bell might
be diplomatic and say I'm merely misinformed and victim of common
errors of reasoning.

How can most of these sites have similar themes and points of view?  
Neurotics and delusionals have a tendency to imitate each other, right?  
Yes they do in an effort to share their particular view of the world.  
Sounds great doesn't it?  Except some people have a tendency to 
overplay that particular hand.  Like those who live and die by the 
DSM and those who use it to gaslight any and all opposition.  Like 
Glenn Greenwald for instance.  Regardless of whether Special 
Prosecutor, Bobby “Three Sticks” Mueller III finds sufficient 
proof of Trump illegalities and regardless of whether Mueller 
remains in any position to reveal said proof even if found.  IOW, 
45 fires Mueller who might be forced to remain silent. 

Psychiatrists might be familiar with the inconvenient term "Troll Farm"
or network whether it's Russian, Israeli hasbara or U.S. Religious Right
in origin.  In light of the preceding paragraph they might also be quick to
diagnose delusion and paranoia and just as quickly whip out prescription pads.
I would plead, but Dr. Bell, sir, before you diagnose and section me please
believe that this blog is far from a lefty DSM conspiracy cliché.  "Famous
last words", he would reply, "they all say that."  Unfortunately these are
not my last words on the subject and Bell would likely say no such thing.

Of course the videos in question promote the very thing they pretend to
be against.  And like all good lies these videos, websites, contain a
modicum of honey-trap truth.

IOW, videos and blogs pretending to be fighting mind control are in
themselves the purest form of mind control via repetition and shear
numbers of videos, comments, sites, blogs, forums. Why?
Superficially to degrade the internet which in itself poses a threat
mainly to closed autocratic societies and fundamentalist authoritarian
orthodox ideologies.  Russian troll farm networks and fake news
accounts degrade credible news and in the process reverse the
onslaught of pervasive Western news and culture which tends to
put closed autocratic societies like Russia, China, N. Korea, and
Islamist societies like Saudi Arabia and Iran in a bad light.

Then again, in the act of waking up from history, degrading the
internet and reality itself hardly makes a difference especially
when a Soprano level thug/ reality show host assumes the Presidency.

These mind control, chemtrail, FEMA coffin videos and comments
aren't the mentally ill imitating each other.  These pretenders are
opposite of insane.  They use the same fear and doom style as the
very sane westerners mentioned in the paragraph below who act in
the name of the American and European fringe radical right wing
pretending to be persecuted and beyond political or ideological
binary constructs of right and left.

Blaming reptilian aliens, "globalist elites" or Illuminati allows
them room to make outrageous National Enquirer claims without
it reflecting on the right wing worldwide or Republican libertarian
establishments in the U.S.  Of course "the Masons", "NWO", and
Illuminati are bogus dogwhistle terms used by the delusional
AND also disinformation peddlers who do everything they can to
put themselves in the outlier "alternative" unaligned category.

Apart from Alex Jones and David Icke this is especially true when
you are part of a propaganda network funded by an entire Russian
Petrostate with enough money to launch thousands of videos
(1/2 dozen a week) and websites, an army of trolls, the best hackers
and WikiLeaks to degrade and undermine politicians, the internet,
institutions, news and objective reality.  But how do I know that?

What I am saying goes beyond the impossible to the unpossible.
IOW, superficially this blog can be seen as cognitively dissonant
as the videos in question which could just be the opinions of
people who might look at the world differently and hold different
views and opinions from my own?  Certain assumptions are valid
in the absence of definitive proof.

We don't live in a post truth world no matter what headlines say.
Russian dissidents and expatriots have seen the above coming for years.
The world assumes a role of willful blindness.  Until a seemingly magic
switch is thrown or signal is given.  At that moment everything on this
page might then be considered part of legitimate debate.

Never underestimate the power of political PR even from strident
pretend fools like El Presidenté, Donald Trump, his Religious Right
supporters, the Jim Bakker's and Franklin Graham's of the world.
Small "l" libertarians like Alex "Skull and Bones" Jones and
European counterpart, David Icke, along with thousands of imitators,
fake You Tube internet radio troll farm salesmen all claiming to deliver
"alternative" right wing "news" "the government (or liberal academic
PC elite) don't want you to know."

Jones and Icke all but admit to being on the same level as bizarre
tabloids Globe and National Enquirer run by Trump buddy
David Pecker (great name).  One step "up" would be those previously
mentioned along with Glenn Beck, WorldNetDaily, Breitbart, Sinclair,
Drudge, talk radio, Fox News and too many others to count.

The Republican Party is rich enough to pacify and cater to 
extreme outliers for the purpose of propping up mainstream 
Republicans like Ron and Rand Paul who were frequent guests 
on Alex Jones’ radio show.  Pretty soon the outliers through 
shear numbers and manic fanatic demagogic energy become 
normalized into a new mainstream.  How many of them 
believe their own nonsense?  Few.  And it doesn’t matter.  
Issues don't matter.  Lying doesn't matter.  

Power is what matters.  And federal contractor trickle-down on
the supply side dollars.  All they have to do is keep repeating
and shoveling the propaganda which for many people makes
anything true as long as it feels familiar.  Familiarity is accomplished
by repetition that pushes the message causing it to resonate with core
identity programming.  Or should I say "values."

Trump never believed his own birther claims and I'm not the only
one who "knew"/ assumed that.  There's that "assumed" word again.
Is it such a big assumption to say that Alex Jones and David Icke
are on the sanity spectrum and don't for a minute believe half the
paranoid style gibberish that comes out of their mouths despite all
claims to the contrary?  Not at all.  They are hyperbolic high energy
liars who promote their brand of resentment and stay on message
following a seemingly nasty cognitive dictatorship.  Which is to say,
many of those mentioned are on the malignant side of psychopathic/
narcissistic.  Those last two words are taken as joking compliments
in Republican, Trump, CEO circles except when the "m" word is added.
Feral eyes grow wide.  Malignant!

Wednesday, January 11, 2017


"Trump’s 1987 trip represented his first public exploration of business prospects in Moscow. He went with his then-wife, ­Ivana, to scope out sites for luxury hotels he hoped to build in a joint venture with the Kremlin’s hotel and tourism agency, according to Trump’s memoir, “The Art of the Deal,” which was published the same year."

"But the Russia quest continued. In his 2008 speech, Donald Jr. announced that he had traveled to Russia six times in the previous 18 months. But, he said, Russia presented enormous challenges."

“As much as we want to take our business over there, Russia is just a different world,” the younger Trump said. “It is a question of who knows who, whose brother is paying off who. . . . It really is a scary place.”...Washington Post 6/2016

Tuesday, January 10, 2017






More extremely tall people of both sexes does not usually qualify for mention.
I'm six foot and not considered short or tall.  In the middle as usual.  Each
generation gets taller.  Much taller.

I briefly spoke to a woman at the Chelsea Market in NYC probably in her 70's,
easily over 6' 4" who looked to be related to another woman of average height
I worked with.  The older version was the only one I can remember in that
age group and of that height which means it happens and who cares?  Except that...

...extreme height is but one example of what happens when extremes of 
every kind are normalized across age groups, genders, races,  nations, 
geography, weather, US Presidents.  

And it will be said, "well, of course, exteme people stand out and are
noticed and so what?"

I spoke about the large number of tall women to my sister.  First day of
her 2015 arrival in NYC we met in an Irish bar that used to be near 34th
Street on 8th Ave.  A tall transvestite drew fake whistles from the crowded bar.
On her last day in town a 6' 11" woman entered a restaurant in a three piece
male suit and tie.  I didn't think to take out my ipad for a picture.  The two
non-events just happened to sandwich her visit.  6' 11" females are very rare.
6' 5" females are not common but I see them in flats and sneakers everyday.

The "whatever you do don't stare" Han Solo warning showed up in several
separate Star Wars movies before Solo and company entered the Star Wars
Intergalactic Cantina.  This was the zeitgeist hinting of what was to come,
not to a galaxy far far away, but as normalized extremes of our everyday.

*Like the fictional Newt Scamander from the movie Fantastic Beasts,
those I am trying to describe seem to eat little, sleep little (machine
shut-down when they do), take on outrageous or sexually ambiguous
appearance.  One extreme to another.  Contrived appearances and
contrived gender ambiguity straight out of Room 101.

*The distressed holes in the jeans effect is like the beginning of
Salman Rushdie's novel, Midnight's Children where a female
wears a sheet with all the main areas covered but with holes
everywhere else.

* Street people with over-amped musculature or the opposite,
drugged out sedated, covered with tattoos (physical graffiti),
with red or orange sneakers and backwards ball-caps

* Beards, man-buns growing in opposite directions, soggy
bottomed on-the-down-low sweatpants over and beyond
any post recession unemployment, opioid epidemic or
immigrant displacement.

* If I sit in one place too long in public the scene in my
field of vision seems to degrade into a slow motion visual
waterboarding as people passing by seem to slowly degrade
in the way they look or act.  Taking on a freakish repellency
like assembled leftover parts from a factory floor.  Followed
in quick succession by their opposites, attractive irresistible
females.  I wish it was nothing more than yin yang subjective

(The park where I'm sitting in the shadow of the Flatiron Bldg
is the appropriately named Mad. Sq. Park as in Madison Square
Park just off 23rd Street)

IOW, these are mostly males of all ages mimicking what used
to be associated with teenage rebellion.

* In the coop building next door to mine is a kind of “August Rush"
skateboarder group home.

A few years ago they wore dyed black hair standing straight up
with yellow dyed tips like Christmas tree lights.  They could
have been 15, 25, 45 or 55 years old.  August Rush was probably
the only bad movie Robin Williams ever made.  The movie
continues in real life with skateboarding at all hours with
different bleeding colors on potted plant heads always ready to
act against type with big smiles and exaggerated polite gestures
compensating for_____?

(Comes the rejoined: “Well gosh, maybe they just want to be nice that so bad?”  I wish it were so)

* A contrived overly polite manner is used to counter any gross
weirdness such as obscurant hair braids, metal under the nose or
in eyebrows, bleached Milo white hair etc.

* Behavioral opposite extremes: deliberate blindside bumping in
stores or on empty sidewalks to the point of grappling in the
street with innocent bystanders coming out of nowhere to break
it up.  Like with the guy looking strangely like black actor David
Keith from the movie, "They Live."

He bumps me on an empty sidewalk.  I reflexively return the contact.
He apologizes, I do not.  The sidewalk had only one or two people
besides me.  He was walking behind me.  I knew exactly what was
going on.  He looks me in the eyes and asks if I want to be punched.
He doesn’t but I am carrying glass bottles from Columbus Circle
Whole Foods.  He knocks the bottles out of my hands smashing them
to the pavement.  He is amazingly strong.  He gets me in a headlock,
I break it and push him against a car where the fight gets broken up
by a guy straight out of central casting who says, “wow, that’s NYC
for ya.”  Like a bogus Jimmy Breslin imitation.

I see the David Keith look alike again in the Lincoln Center
Bernstein Atrium.  He’s wearing a security uniform with many
patches and stars.  All he needed was a cowboy hat and he would have
passed for Trump buddy, Sheriff David Clarke.  He pretends not to notice me.

* Other times the exact opposite occurs.  Holding doors and smiling
excessively like Jim Carrey of the The Truman Show" with famous
wave and "have a good day, and if I don't see ya, have a good afternoon,
evening and night."  In fact, that and other scenes (including outtakes)
were examples of the zeitgeist hinting and depicting what I’m describing
on this page.  All deniable as Truman Delusion Syndrome which was
actually made into a book but which, like me, will never make it into the DSM.

* IOW, passive aggressive extremes as if on steroids and nobody notices.
No one left to notice.

* 2011- 2016, too many caucasian women asking for items in a store in
overly polite little girl Valley Girl "up-talk" in NYC while fishing in
their pocketbooks for wallets and then fishing for exact change.

* Conversely, for a couple of years too many guys took on a
deliberately fake vocal fry, laughable mission control macho
speech pattern.  Followed by males talking in a style over and
above any Google IT, gay or nerd stereotypes.  I’ve lived in
NYC my entire life.  I know accents and speech inflections.
I worked part-time for too long listening to the rich and poor,
dealing with psycho rich and destitute homeless.  I know the
difference between behaviors at both ends of the spectrum and
the ones that are too contrived to be real.

How can any of this be possible?  It's not.  It's not even the
opposite of possible.

A seemingly rehearsed nonstop standup comedy act seen for a
few months and replaced by something else going from dumb
to dumber.  The return of Judge Schreber's “Improvisational People?”
Did they ever leave?  Or is it periodic with numbers rising and falling?
All the same entities with different faces and genders?  Signaling what?
A near future catastrophe?  A sim reality?  That the end isn't just near,
it already happened.  An Apocalypse Now! That is always happening
without the fire and pestilence.

Any description of extreme opposites like these can easily be
dismissed as extreme mood changes, sour grape projection of a
delusional carnival Truman freak show of my own making.
It is a freak show that much is true.  My imagination isn’t up to
the task of inventing any of this.

So-Called Girlfriends:
*Women that I went with in the early 2000's (mentioned elsewhere)
once made a point of licking pasta sauce off a plate in a restaurant.
She wasn’t crazy or kidding around.
* Another would put a bare hand into a restaurant buffet.
* Another one wore big cleverge in twenty degree weather and the
opposite in 80 degree weather.  That doesn’t even begin to describe them.

These individuals were beyond disruptive, addicted, crazy, average or
normal.  Sex?  Take it or leave it.  (Or fake it)  Avoidance or compulsivity.
Once starting they didn’t stop.  AND I would have to stop at some point.
Their message was, don’t get attached.  AND they made sure that I did.
When convenient: one of them would deny who they were, deny they
knew me, forget how to count, forget what year it was.  In the next
instant out think and out talk anyone.

Symptoms of diet speed pill addiction, mood or extreme menstral
cycles doesn’t explain it.  None were working for any deep dark
government agency getting paid in bitcoins (hah!).  None of it was
the result of anger, bipolar mood change, hot flashes, menopause,
eccentricity, playing jokes, self hate, psychopathy, deficits of
intelligence or my imagination.  None of the DSM or psych-
boilerplate clichés apply.  Were they trying to get rid of me?
Of course.  And at the same time keeping me hooked?  Of course.
Either deliberately toxic and nasty or the opposite, “Yes sir,
you're the boss, anything you say" extreme passive aggressiveness.

Reflective of other things:
* A kind of routine hyperactivity. As a guess, not being in constant
motion and busy invites some kind of automatic direct or indirect
negative feedback or might not even be possible.
* The more directly engaged or questioned the more they’d compulsively lie.
* Benito Mussolini tough one instant, swallowing air the next.
* Big on fighting.  In each relationship the female picks physical
fights or welds a knife.
* Loud nearby conversations in food malls either in gibberish English
duckspeak, exaggerated foreign Hollywood movie stereotypes or
language software modules in fast forward.
* A synchronized smart mobbing plays out in public before my disbelieving eyes.
* All lines in store's are especially favored for trouble with ppl behind you or
hanging off line.
* For too long lots of "Dios De Los Muertos" skull tattoos and imagery on
shirts and hats.
* Women loudly exaggerated greetings of OMG!  OH!  MY!  GOD!  More
often than too often.
* Gay and straight couples doing porno public kissing routines past the
point of comedy or parody.

* Occasionally in public there's a palpable depressing "dead air" effect.
Like air sucked out of a room or out of the inner ear during a medical
ear exam.  (Maxwell Smart "Cone of Silence") With certain females the
opposite occurred.  A sharp zero point focus in the brain.

* Spastic male model runway penguin walk with hands in jean pockets
attempting outdated James Dean hustler style or addicted street people
(Scarecrow) dreadlocked, tattooed, homeless, begging, K-2, heroin and
fentanyl users stretched out on streets, in subways in and outside NYC.

* Grossly over developed over-amped fake military types (Tin Men)
with arms and chests enlarged like turkeys with bent arms swinging
robot style in front instead of at their sides.

* As of mid-year 2016 there's more of a cut and buff conservative
look with tapered dress shirts, skinny dress pants, boat like dress shoes.
The perfect build and look but stupidly off like human clones from a
different dimension or again, like misplaced parts assembled from a
factory floor

* So-called “reasonable people” might say none of this is big deal in
itself and I would agree.  If it didn't happen just a little too often as
if reality itself was degrading.  ("Reasonable" people in this case
might be defined as seeming like they’re reading scripted clichéd lines
as if from a teleprompter behind lying eyes)

The above is like the Orwellian grinding boot heel.  Visual and
psychological waterboarding both in variety and monotony.  Quite
a metaphysical feat of choreography and guaranteed to make
anyone including myself sound like they should be doing lunar
exploration on sedatives in the nearest funny farm.

If and when it stops it'll all be doubted as if from a Jacob’s Ladder bad dream.
Or events will just change in their variety with the false idea of improvement.
Under no circumstances, it seems, am I allowed experience of people
in a normal context especially when committing what is said to be
the great sin of "freeloading and laziness.”  IOW, not working after retirement.
THAT must never stand.

Nothing I see is as it should be but, at the same time, nothing looks flagrantly
out of sync to non-existent observers.  It can all be passed off as classic ______
(fill in the symptomatic blanks) or just crotchety dementia, Alzheimer's,
“evident lack of insight" which is to say, the usual DSM Room 101 language
of convenience sounding more comical and weird than what is being described.

I don't have any particular need for complete normalcy or want people to
look or act like me.  I don’t want people to look like Tru-man Burbank
and certainly not like Donald Tru-mp (Lion or Lying King) with the don't
you dare laugh at my spray can tan and hair and face-on-fire clementine
saffron complexion.  (At least the look he had while campaigning in 2016)


So who, what, when, where, and most importantly, why?  
They used to be valid questions. 

Another question needs to be asked.  Who is this blog 
addressed to?  Who is likely to even pretend to read 
or believe any of it?  The answer is nada, NO ONE. 

The following is a Wiki entry regarding unwitting 
volunteer CIA Harvard programs of the 1950's.  
IOW, a little context regarding what has been 
showing up on countless bogus internet sites and 
You Tube channels designed to discredit the real thing.  
They provide honeytrap hints of a silent disruption 
beyond anything so trivial as MKULTRA government 
or contractor secret plots.  
  •   EDIT

    From the fall of 1959 through the spring of 1962, 
  • (Dr.) Murray was responsible for the ethically 
  • questionable, CIA-sponsored MK ULTRA experiments 
  • in which twenty-two undergraduates were used as 
  • research subjects.[3][4] Among other purposes, 
  • Murray's experiments focused on measuring people's 
  • reactions under extreme stress. 
  • Unwitting undergraduates submitted to what Murray 
  • himself called "vehement, sweeping and personally 
  • abusive" attacks. Assaults to their egos, cherished 
  • ideas and beliefs were the vehicle used to cause 
  • high levels of stress and distress. Among them was 
  • 16-year-old Ted Kaczynski, who went on to become 
  • the Unabomber, a serial killer targeting academics 
  • and technologists. [5] Alston Chase's book Harvard 
  • and the Unabomber: The Education of an American 
  • Terrorist connects Kaczynski's abusive experiences 
  • under Murray to his later criminal career. Theodore 
  • John Kaczynski, was given the code name "Lawful".

The above was a CIA program likely expanded beyond the laboratory
into campus life in the case of one, Ted Kaczynski with his 170 IQ.
The above wording perfectly describes something predating the CIA.
It describes a systematic psychological waterboarding assault.

(Imagine the KGB FSB version?  But hey, things have changed
with Putin.  "Only" journalists and opposition candidates are killed.
Not like under Stalin where anyone rumored to be subversive was
killed with plenty of gulag free labor.  IOW: political dissidents, the
unlucky, homosexuals, gypsies, Jews, Czarists, the insane, drug addicts,
orphans etc).

IOW, the above serves as an approximation of something that is
not now and never was confined to very intelligent but susceptible
Harvard crash-test dummy undergraduate "volunteers."  In the
version I describe no human could be anything but susceptible
when subject to what is beyond my means of description.

This blog is an approximation that only mimics the reality.  
I will attempt to provide the only "proof" of claim that I 
am aware of which can barely be considered circumstantial.  
When context is provided it might be slightly more than 
circumstantial.  It might provoke the question, "WTF is 
going on here?"  

If there's anyone left besides me with enough curiosity to even ask.  

Monday, January 9, 2017


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"Well I thought that the most dreadful thing that 
could happen to anybody, would be not to be 
allowed to sleep so that just as you’re dropping 
off there’d be a ‘Dong’ and you’d have to keep awake.
...Samuel Beckett in preparation for writing Happy Days. 

The opening pic below is not "Twilight" British actor
Robert Pattinson looking at his vampire mother.  This
“Everyday Sunday" Morrissey video locates on a
British beach resort that's seen happier days.  Life's a
beach and then you die.  But not before your
"Happy Days" invite arrives.


The female driver in the video is Billie Whitelaw who I saw at
The Old Vic in Beckett's "Happy Days" in 1970's London.
I hopped a plane across the English Channel from Paris to
London, was greeted by a nasty airport attendant as if he
were expecting me and had no idea where I was going.

I saw an advert for a Beckett play at the Old Vic.  I'd
heard of Beckett's “Waiting For Godot.”  So I bought a
ticket because I liked the name of the star, Billie Whitelaw
as Winnie whose captivating blonde head I saw sticking up
from the beach sands of time.

I was affected by the total strangeness of the play.
Naturally I went to the bar next door, had two beers
and while walking down underground stairs, briefly
passed out for the first time in my life.  I can't blame
Beckett or the beer.  The combination along with a
full back pack cut off my circulation.  I wound up
going to free British clinic with busted front teeth
looking like An American Werewolf In London.

Whitelaw died in 2014.  I've had the Morrissey
video on this page since at least that time.  It was
only in 2016 that I recognized her in the video and
that she just happened to be a very close simulacra
to a post 911 former girlfriend.  Just my imagination?
No ones imagination is up to the task of processing half
the strangeness that happens everyday including Sunday

Only after seeing the play again in 2017 in Brooklyn with
Diane Weist did I realize the title and the meaning of it. 

The "Gong!" sound of Happy Days isn't a storytelling device 
to keep the audience from dosing.  Or maybe it is.  Sharp 
sudden click sounds were used to similar effect in plays like 
"The Old Woman" with Mikhail Baryshnikov and Willem Dafoe 
also seen at BAM and in “Constellations" with Jake Gyllenhaal.  

(Elon Musk has named his tunneling drilling machine "Godot" 
as in Waiting for Godot (just leave off the last 2 letters) because 
both are so "boring.") 

Beckett's description of "the most dreadful thing" that could 
happen to anyone happened to me.  It started in 2005 with 
a clear pained older male voice from the corner of my ceiling 
saying, "somebody help me."  That happened once.  I thought 
it was my upstairs neighbors.  It wasn’t.  There was never 
gong sound but I did then and do now hear something like it. 
A heavy base note pounding effect.  In fact it was first heard 
two years before this in the basement Bronx apartment of the 
Whitelaw lookalike.  She heard it also.  It was a basement 
apartment and easily explainable.  I thought.

Recently it became like an angry strikingly loud crack of 
sudden thunder similar in volume and pitch to that heard 
in the movie dealing with the paranormal, "Personal Shopper" 
with Kristen Stewart.  It just so happens as I re-edit this 
mess one day after the Aug. 21st 2017 eclipse, loud 
cracks of thunder and rain hit my windows and NYC. 

2005, the above combined with an electronically 
distorted air-raid siren-like human scream (described 
elsewhere) lasting for years.  

2007, I was kept completely awake and sleepless for 
a nine month period that ended in Nov of that year.  
That was two years after retirement in Nov. 2005. 

It's as if I had the extreme audacity to retire after working
seventy hour weeks at two jobs for twenty years with
nothing but time and age to show for it.  I went from
70 hours to zero.  The result wasn't from overwork or any
kind of PTSD.  It wasn't induced by drugs, beer, Beckett plays,
dementia or delusion.  (Nine months sleepless?  Unpossible!)
Not caused by space aliens, stims, demons, government or
NWO Reptilian Globalists.  The siren scream effects
stopped on its own around 2010.

On my last day at work in 05 a 6' 4" black on the fat side
co-worker made a point of telling me what I would find
among what he called "daytime people."  Among these
according to him would be: slackers, stoners, crazies,
homeless, unemployed, students, or like me, retired.
What I actually did find would be an insult to slackers,
crazies and stoners.  What I saw in Manhattan particularly
after 2011 went beyond any NYC recovery from the Cheney
Bush “Great Recession.”  Beyond displaced immigrants
from the MINA or Florida, Kentucky opioid clinics.
No hipster tattooed bearded fentanyl look even begins to
describe the large numbers of people in Manhattan
looking traumatized beyond disruption or description. 

Throughout 2015 and 2016 I refused to believe that 
what I was seeing would somehow translate into the 
2016 election of a 70 year old Republican New Yorker 
with spray-painted cheeks and hair to the Presidency
of the United States. 

This blog is my attempt at describing the above unnerving post human
“double plus ++ ungood” as Orwell would put it.  It’s bound to sound
like delusion or influence from Walking Dead zombie movies or a
central casting-call for a sub-class of Marvel unitards.  Except the
Orwellian two plus marks after the word “human” are completely
applicable but I'm not sure what they equal.  If anything.