Friday, November 20, 2015


The female reporter in the excellent movie Spotlight briefly interviewed a former priest depicted as a Father Panquin who said he molested children but got no pleasure from it.  Before this priest was stopped from talking to the reporter he mentioned that he also was raped.  The aging priest was depicted as forthright and not mentally unhinged.  Why was this scene specifically included in the movie?  What was this actor saying?  Was this the Catholic Church's unofficial perverted method for recruiting future priests to stem the shortage?  Were there other motives besides convenient sexual outlets always available for those taking celibacy vows, besides the increasing availability of stim drugs like meth or cocaine, besides pedophile sexual compulsion and dumb mechanical assembly-line "good old fashion" methods of making future priests?

The Catholic Church as everyone knows reached unprecedented riches in post emigrant America.  It had to be brought down.  Not by reporters or lawyers but by the institution itself.

If I'm right about the things that are going on now, that might have always been going on, also in plain sight, things capable of making child abuse scandals look like a footnote.  We have reached a point where it no longer matters what happens to the Catholic Church.  As a dying priest, Father Philip once said to me in 2006 or 07, "They don't follow any religion.  They have their own agenda."  Was he medicated or sick?  Or was he talking about a different set of people whose exponential numbers are creating a different world?  In one of his last sermons Fr. Philip sounded very much in control saying, "watch out for those who value piety over people."

Conservative defenders to the death of the Catholic Church haven't seen their day come and go with the emergence of Pope Francis.  Just the opposite.  As always they see themselves as being redeemed.

Public ridicule has always been seen by the religious as a badge of honor.  The Church isn't the only one operating in this mode.  One manifestation are people with large and small audiences telling deliberate and transparent lies.  They could care less, they do as they are told.  The Church sees and feeds into geopolitical events that are said to resemble that which occurred before WWI.

I hope I'm totally in the wrong and that eventual outcomes will not be as anticipated by the fear and doom crowd.  After seeing this film my point of view has been effected.  But I always question myself and usually choose to come out against the typically right wing F and D agenda.  My thoughts on the subject don't matter anyway one way or the other.

Thursday, March 12, 2015


Soggy Bottom Boys and Gwen Stefani:

In a system on a chip, peripherals are incorporated into the same integrated circuit as the central processing unit. They are still referred to as "peripherals" despite being permanently attached to (and in some sense part of) their host processor...

A loose description of the two legged human drones I attempt to described on this page
and throughout.

Now what does William Gibson's so-so sf novel "The Peripheral" have to do with anything? 
And why was he in the same NYC subway car late 2014 standing over me with 
another guy about his age about a month after I bought his book?  Coincidence?
It happens all the time.  Except with some people it happens a little too often.

He just happened to be wearing the same outfit as his photo on the back of the book.
I kept saying what I find myself saying all too often these days, "Is that what's-his-face?
Nah, can't be...too old.  Except that it was his face.  He was doing publicity in NYC
at the time with recorded YT interviews.

Are the people I describe below biological machines from the future with uploaded
consciousness as per Gibson's story?  No.  His vechicles are imagination, metaphor,
and allegory.  Mine unfortunately aren't.  The people I'm talking about can be classified
as human++ drones or, to paraphrase Orwell, double-plus ungodly.

So who, what, when, where, why? Good questions all.  Herein lies all the appearances
of contradiction not to mention insanity and madness.  Some context:

To quote Wiki regarding unwitting volunteer CIA Harvard programs of the 1950's: 
  •   EDIT

    From the fall of 1959 through the spring of 1962, (Dr.) Murray was responsible 
    for the ethically questionable, CIA-sponsored MK ULTRA experiments in which twenty-two undergraduates were used as research subjects.[3][4] Among other purposes, Murray's experiments focused on measuring people's reactions under extreme stress. 
  • Unwitting undergraduates submitted to what Murray himself called "vehement, sweeping and personally abusive" attacks. Assaults to their egos, cherished ideas and beliefs were the vehicle used to cause high levels of stress and distress. Among them was 16-year-old Ted Kaczynski, who went on to become the Unabomber, a serial killer targeting academics and technologists. [5] Alston Chase's book Harvard and the Unabomber: The Education of an American Terrorist connects Kaczynski's abusive experiences under Murray to his later criminal career. Theodore John Kaczynski, was given the code name "Lawful".

The above was a small CIA program, a footnote of seemingly little importance but with
ramifications that were extensive.  What if the experiment was expanded beyond the laboratory
into campus life in the case of one, Ted Kaczynski with his 170 IQ.   Even if that wasn't the case
the above wording perfectly describes something that predates the CIA.  It describes a systematic psychological waterboarding assault of the senses.  It functions beyond anyone's possible
projections or persecutory paranoia.  Without proof it has always been and will likely continue
with to be beyond belief.

IOW, the above serves as an approximation of something that is not now and never was
confined to very intelligent but susceptible Harvard crash-test dummy undergraduate
guinnea pigs.  In the version I describe below no human could be anything but susceptible
when subject to what is beyond description.

Force and physical contact with those few on the receiving end happens on occasion 
but is avoided because it isn't needed.  Physical force is replaced by a kind of non-stop
visual assault by way of a real world imposed augmented reality conveniently overriding
any local or government laws which aren't even considered.  Complaints, lawsuits are 
nullified due to lack of evidence.  The only "proof" that I am aware of cannot even be considered circumstantial.  When context is provided it might not be so circumstantial. 

Stranger than fiction events are comparable to scenes from the 1990 movie "Jacob's Ladder"
minus combat related PTSD or the Hollywood elements of demons, drugs, flashbacks,
exploding cars and the contrived cop-out dream ending.

The lead character Jacob Singer (Tim Robbins) is a Jewish combat marine stabbed in the
stomach by one of his own men while in Vietnam as part of a depicted CIA drug experiment
using BZ, a hallucinatory aggression amplifying drug.  Jacob is found in the jungle with his
intestines outside his body.  Singer is rescued by helicopter to a base camp hospital.  The movie
then picks up on what is supposed to be his post war civilian life.

In 1985 I had "successful" sternum to pelvic bone surgery.  Ten inches of transverse intestine
was removed due to a pre-cancerous blockage.  I was in my late 30's.  I was pretty young and
should  have gotten a second opinion.

Unlike the movie I latter experienced a 6 - 8 month marathon of involuntary total sleep
deprivation without stimulant prescription or street drugs.  Considered impossible and
as close as anyone wants to get to a living death.  This was after retirement in 2005.
In the run up to this I had similar experiences in hospitals matching the movie.

At one point the movie shows a civilian remarried Jacob Singer at a crowded NYC
apartment party mixing with people who were not part of his previous life. He
experiences confusion and Nam flashbacks developing into a 106 fever.  His wife,
played by Elizabeth Peña, gets him into an ice bath to lower his body temperature.
The shock sends him into delirium, he blacks out and imagines himself in bed with
his Jewish ex-wife.  He says the room feels like 10 degrees mirroring the ice bath. His
ex says the room temperature is normal and no big deal.

Here's how that translates.  In the 1970's I am invited to "sleep" with a partly Jewish
female I'd been seeing who was always said to be "married."  My guess being she would
get pregnant by a male loosely defined as a "husband" and would then sleep with me in
between pregnancies.

At some point in the night her apartment feels to be at least 10 degrees below.  She says
the heat is turned off at night.  When I try to touch her her body is too hot to get close to.
She is burning up and notices nothing wrong.  She is too young for hot flashes.  Her
body heat was beyond anything sexual or natural.

Awake all night in the cold I room go to work the next morning and, of course, see her
"husband" coming from his night job.  We turn around at the same time as we pass.
He probably knows what's going on but it is all made to seem like high intrigue.  Like
a movie.  The invitation, the room temperate, her temperature and the morning meeting
was a contrived stupid arrangement designed to provoke guilt and confusion about the
motivations of the woman I thought I knew.  The room and body temperatures of that
night, like the relationship itself, were not part of anything normal.  I was the only one
not in on the joke.

There are scenes in the movie of insidious crazed doctors with the usual big needles.
This is replaced in reality by "nice guy" smiling student dentists applying unneeded
painful injections into the chin cavity inside my lower gums.  Smiling student Asian dentist
knew I would yell out in a crowded clinic which I haven't done at the hands of dentists
since the sixth grade.  Smiling Asian student dentist denies everything.  Everyone stays in
character except me.

Jacob experiences the extreme guilt that comes with the death of a son in an auto accident.
Apart from anything mentioned here extreme guilt is in play in my previous Catholic life.

What I try and fail to describe above and below is all too similar to the shocks
depicted in post war civilian parts of the movie except that the reality is less dramatic.
No wandering onto subway tracks or getting off at abandoned Bergen Street stations in Brooklyn.  The people seen by Jacob on subways are comparable to what I see except my encounters
are more numerous and no one I see has a tail, that God.  Ever see a fake
subway fight with real people bouncing off seats inside a moving subway car?
I was not involved but I could see the contrived desperation of it unfolding in front of me.

Jacob experiences one visual shock after another.  This extends to the physical
as he is abducted and escapes three men in a moving auto only to have his wallet and ID
picked after he hits the ground by a guy in a Santa Klaus suit and beard waving his bell
for donations.  When asked what happened to his ID he is forced to say "Santa Klaus"
took it confirming everyone's idea of something an insane person would say.

At one point in April of 2014 I am pined to the floor of a lower Manhattan bar after being
asked to leave for no apparent reason.  I couldn't even pay my bill.  There was no trouble, no inebriation in a near empty bar.  A knee to the back of my leg sends me to the ground where
a guy for each leg and one with his knee on my chest holds down my arms.  He knows his
knee is stopping me from breathing and talking normally.  After being cuffed I call him a
moron.  My ID is taken and returned, no police ID is shown to me, I am uncuffed.  An
ambulance comes and I am driven to to Presbyterian Hospital where the only people I
talk to are uncomprehending security.  I sit down for a few seconds and walk out.
Fortunately, no Santa Klaus.

No medical procedures, no blood pressure taken but the ambulance bills my insurance
for over a thousand dollars.  Routine fraud is the least of it.  (Insurance premiums are
going up you say?)

The next day I stupidly see the same guy who kneeled on my chest working behind the
counter at a bakery that I frequent.  He has yellow striped tattoos running down his arms.
He goes into a martial arts stance as soon as I see him with his arms together at the elbows
Shaolin style.  I call him a moron again.  He laughs and immediately heads into a back room.
A nonsensical set of events straight out of a nightmare scenario.  By this time it is routine for me.

At the end of Jacob's Ladder all events are depicted as part of a dream.  If that were only true.
Doesn't even qualify as intractable delusion.  Beyond billing statements there is no evidence
and that is no evidence at all.   The intestinal resection surgery might yet lead to immune complications...or not.

Is this a bid for attention and trying to make sense of my life by making simpleminded
comparisons to a cult movie?  Sometimes rational explanations sound more contrived
than even the reality still happening as I type.

Saw Tim Robbins playing street hockey in the park on sixth and Houston St. in
Greenwich Village a few years ago looking bored out of his mind, 6' 7" on his
roller blades, looking nothing close to his age and unrecognized by passersby in
his helmet.  He is currently appearing in movies again.  And wouldn't you know it,
another version of Jacob's Ladder is said to be in the works.  PR for a probable stupid
TV caricature this is NOT.

What is happening to me is completely undetectable, completely unprovable and always
dismissed as automatic default positions of insanity or paranoid delusion.  Are people
in the entertainment industry and Jacob's Ladder screenwriters like Bruce Joel Rubin making
subtle and not so subtle fictional references to a reality that no one is capable of directly acknowledging?  Yes they are.  (And no, "they" aren't sending clues through the movie
screen that only I can see)

Automatic reactions like: "now who in the real world is going to go to all that trouble to
go after you?" "You must consider yourself someone special"  "A "center of the world"
narcissistic paranoid persecution complex kind of guy." "Is everyone's in on the conspiracy?"

Nope.  Not everyone.  I'm not.
Upon retiring in 2005 one fat 6' 4" black wise guy I worked with made a point of telling me
that I would find out what it was like to be among "daytime people", slackers, stoners,
unemployed, impaired, lazy who can't or won't work.

I don't consider myself exceptional, don't want to be, don't want attention, and don't
want any part of this warped reality.  I had the extreme audacity to retire.

These completely unnerving, human++ "peripheral" types seem straight out of the
above horror movie or something from a demented "central casting" call.  I would
say straight out of Comedy Central because that is exactly what all this sounds like.
I would say that except for the fact that these very high functioning morons
described above and below are completely serious and the above two plus-marks
after the word human are completely applicable and accurate.  That is not meant to be
a compliment.

Everything described in this blog does not originate in any particular time period
or country.  (Jazz cigarettes, drugs, or psychosis, are also timeless but are not involved)
It is made obvious again as in the West and in the U.S. in the 1960's - 1980's in the
following way.

I had no idea at the time but I suspect, without proof, that certain "new age" movements,
Macrobiotics, Bioenergetics, Sri Chinmoy, Bubba Free John, Sachidananda's Integral
Yoga and many other so-called alternative eastern and western groups were completely
serious as far as their stated intentions and completely rigged after certain points
By who?  Some hybrid of contractors with cooperation from publicly funded security.

The mentioned alternative groups had excellent PR depending on the image they
wanted projected.  From Bubba Free John's "miracles", badboy radical beliefs,
reported orgies (likely faked or contrived for the sake of manufactured rumor) or
relatively conservative but with the guru's in question seemingly following a
unwritten script of getting "caught" "taking advantage" of female followers while
otherwise prescribing celibacy.  Deliberately provoked falls from "enlightened"
grace, IMO, as an offset to being objects of worship and fame.  IOW, deliberately
arranged fake PR both positive and negative.

IMO, many people, leaders, celebrities (Mel Gibson) manufacture deliberate public
humiliation under the guise of sex, mental illness, substance abuse or all three.
Right after he, Gibson, makes a billion dollars depicting the crucifixion of Christ
a series of incidents take place that he blames on alcohol and or a bipolar condition.
I don't buy it at all.  Public dishonor, IMO, is considered a badge of honor and
something to actually strive for in some religious quarters.  Like his for instance.

Overarching characteristics of the people I am trying to describe: (applicable to any group)
More extremely tall people of both sexes than I or anyone would consider normal or average.
Women over 6' 1" in flats are not unusual.  Males 6' 4" and over (Tim Robbins) are not
just seen by me now and then but constantly.  The fact of their being tall (not as tall as
in the video) does not qualify for mention.  I'm six foot and not normally considered short or tall.  Normally I could care less.

I briefly spoke to a woman who looked to be in her 70's, easily over 6' 4" who looked
to be related to another woman of average height I worked with and went with.
The older version was the only one I can remember in that age group and that tall which
means, of course, it happens and who cares?  Except that...

extreme height is but one example of what happens when extremes of every
kind are made to become routine across age groups, genders, races and 
nationalities.  And it will be said, "well, of course, tall people stand out and 
are noticed and so what?"

Extremes made mainstream are not just confined to appearances.  They extend 
beyond my personal projections and opinions into the larger society and are 
perfectly reflected in that larger society in many ways.  Among them, extreme 
climate across the earth, extreme right wing politics given legitimacy by a 
Republican Party that has always catered to and pacified it's real and 
pretend extremists.  Birtherism is but one example.  Now we are seeing it 
again in the last two years on the left in the area of gender politics.  Extreme
violence that includes nine civil wars in Islamic countries, 60 million Middle Eastern 
war displaced flowing to Europe, extreme economic volitility taking oil prices from 
over $100 to below $40.  (The Russian and Texas oil economies do not want a treaty 
with Iran that might bring Iranian oil on market further depressing prices.)

Did I say too many extremely tall people...?

Nephilim?  Is that the next stupid thought in the progression of extremes?
These are depicted as biblical offspring, the "sons of God" and "daughters
of men" before the Deluge of Noah referenced not just on biblical sites
but on hundreds of rigged bogus fringe internet sites that all but tell the viewer,
'our way of presentation is deliberately provocative, deliberately insane
extreme religiosity where the term "Reptilians" is always mentioned
to make sure we do everything possible to force you to say, "wow, so
many bat-crazy insane people on the Internet."

A few are, but in my view the majority of fringe sites and channels are the opposite.
It is not just one site or video, it is thousands deliberately choking the internet.
The same people might also account for the high number of toxic Internet trolls
always said to be teens or "gamers."  And are they all by the same network with
the same motive?  No not all.  The vast majority.

And how do I know that?  Am I as bad as they are with unproven assumptions?
Maybe they're just what they appear to be, opinions by true believers that differ
from mine and not some vast conspiracy?  How very comforting and convenient.
Not to mention wrong.  Circumstantially wrong.

Double and triple think extreme lying is more popular than ever.

And who am I to call something fringe or absurd when writing something like this?

Besides being a retired 6' boomer old man who *of course* looks to be much younger, of average
health, no medication, no nose rings or ponytails, no shaved head, dreds, drugs, man buns,
or tattoos on my head or anywhere else.  Pretty dull with nothing in common with people
who look like something straight out of Mad Max (future?), or Mad Men (past, as in some of
the office staff)

All the negative aspects in the last paragraph are programmed constants of visual
extremes that I experience day in and day out far in excess of what is characteristic
of my or any average big city neighborhood.  My age might suggest someone imagining, 
projecting or having trouble coping with the disruptions of changing times, styles and attitudes.

I can take more than occasional crowds, loud music, differences and disruptions
that are part of or exceed the average persons day to day experience.  What I am
describing is "unpossible" except that nothing written about here can be considered
in any way exceptional.  I am describing NYC in a time warp looking more and
more like the NYC of the 1980's without the drug related crime.  The city is
becoming a dead zone, an overcrowded graveyard or deadman's party reflective
not only of subjective events but also of larger objective global issues.  What I am
seeing cannot be accounted for by the official or the U-6 unofficially unemployed.
Not even the early displaced from the Islamic Middle East can account for it.

*Many of those I am trying to describe seem to eat little, sleep little and have
no particular interest in sex apart from procreation unless called upon to take
on an outrageous outdated 1980's punkish, sexually suggestive or ambiguous appearance.
Contrived appearance, contrived outrageousness, contrived gender ambiguity.

*Whether these are street people, amped or so-called hipster types with
arms covered by tattoos, all casually but perfectly uniformed down to the off center
or backwards rally caps, the cut of beard or the one sided shaved head or what used
to be called skinhead prison chic now called street style.  Seen in numbers beyond conception.

*Conversly, obsessive cleanliness is also a common factor.

*A contrived overly polite manner (well gee, what's wrong with that?) also
seems to be used to counter any deliberate weirdness in appearance and to
enhance the impression of being average upstanding citizens beyond reproach.
Blindside bumping or grappling one minute like something from Fight Club,
holding doors and smiling excessively the next like scenes from "The Truman Show."
("Have a good day, and if I don't see ya, have a good afternoon, evening and night too")
Passive aggressiveness on steroids on parade, in extremis.

*When ordering in a store too many Caucasian women speak in overly polite
exaggerated little girl "up-talk" tempos.  Or clipped tones of "yeh yeh".  Common
enough and considered a sign of politeness back in the day.  Everyday I udder the
words, "incredible, this cannot be happening...and there it is plain as day."  It isn't
anything new.  It isn't the new politeness.

During this time I've noticed too many males take on a deliberately fake vocal fry,
mission control exaggerated macho laughable speech pattern or else the
opposite extreme, gay effeminate plastic mannerisms and speech over and far beyond
any Google IT employee, gay or nerd stereotype.  Like a rehearsed nonstop
standup comedy act lasting for a few months and then replaced by something
else just as weird.  It gets worse...

*Women that I went with in the early 2000's once made a point of licking pasta sauce
from a plate in a restaurant.  Another would put a bare hand into a restaurant buffet.
Another wore big cleverge in very cold, below freezing weather.  Completely covered
in 80+ degrees.  Public sex was preferred on too many occasions to something normal,
like a nearby house or apartment.  I was always the one to question the insanity of it
even though I didn't protest too much.  "Hey look, is it me or is that guy staring?"
The answer from the girl, "who cares."

The multiple messages from these women:
'I have no need to operate as you do.'  'I am beyond disruptive.'
'Our relationship won't be average or normal.'  'Sex? Take it or leave it, who cares,
don't get too attached.'  'I have to act this way.'  'I'm here to do a job...'
None of these women ever said as much directly.  And no, they weren't working
for any deep dark government agency and weren't getting paid in any known currency.

None of the above was the result of anger, mood change, hot flashes, eccentricity, a joke,
self hate, psychopathy, or deficits of intelligence.  It was deliberate.  None of the
psych-boilerplate cliches apply.  (I know, who cares either way?)

*A kind of routine hyperactivity is emphasized (Hyper++) .  As a guess, not being
in constant motion invites some kind of automatic direct or indirect negative feedback.
Something like in the Disney movie "Tomorrowland". A machine shutdown except I'm not
talking about inter-dimensional robot characters or aliens from a Disneyland new world order.

*"They" are big in music, art, entertainment, movies and meditation and at the same time....

* Big on lying and deceit exceeding even psychopathic compulsivity.  The more you
engage them the more they are compelled to lie.  Direct queries are a waste of time.

*A "dead air" kind of atmosphere pervades when someone like me stays in one place
too long.  Something like a Maxwell Smart "cone of silence", vaguely sexual and at the
same time despressing.

* Martial arts skills, acting, entertainment, improvisation, crossword puzzles, PR, propaganda
and manipulation of sound and language and most especially, street theater of a particular kind.
They are very big on skull iconography and Holloween, Day Of The Dead costumes.  Very big on
making their own clothes or wearing cheap clothing.

Most of which are typical of certain populations and not any kind of smoking gun proof.

In summery: a 1960's or 80's retro "hipster" appearance, varying degrees of physical
deformity: physical anal retention, sliding "on the down low" "soggy bottom" pants on the guys.
Spastic penguin walk, one foot too short, too many doofy addicted appearing white street people
dreadlocked, tattooed, homeless, begging, plastic flamboyance's road warriors alternating with
their opposites.  Grossly over developed over-amped military types with arms and chests
so large (like upright turkeys) they are forced to move or pretend to move in stupidly
exaggerate marching styles usually alone.  (I say this even considering the gyms
on every corner in this neighborhood and FIT taking up whole square blocks)

Seen and encountered until replaced by something equally monotonous and monstrously
repulsive not in kind but in frequency.  Visual psychological waterboarding.
With variety and monotony.  Now that's an accomplishment.

Nothing that I see in public is as it should be but, at the same time, nothing looks
flagrantly out of sync to casual observers.  All can be seen as classic ______(fill in the
symptomatic blanks) or just crotchety old age dementia, evident lack of insight...
move to Florida, blah blah blah.

I used to think in terms of mood, selective attention, particular preoccupations,
mistakes in perception or individual dislikes.  I have long since stopped questioning
my sanity, senses, or thinking I am having a bad day, month, year or life.

Thursday, October 2, 2014


"We can tranquilize, impede, immobilize, harass, shock, upset, stupefy, nauseate, chill, temporarily blind, deafen, or just scare the wits out of anyone the police have a proper need to control."...Rep. James Scheuer, 1970 (Harvard MBA, Columbia Law) US Congressman, NYS, 1973 - 1993.

The unfortunate realities covered in this blog are stranger than most fiction, difficult to express and even more difficult for the average person to believe.  This blog is not about 911, terrorism, new world orders, immanent police states, immanent threat or disaster, ebola, contagion or rightwing endtime fear and doom.  The cultural divide between blue and red, left and right is very real.  The differences are exaggerated and exploited by partisan media.  Many will do verbal head stands to mitigate the fact that You Tube and the Internet are being choked by manipulators of paranoia originating overwhelmingly from the populist conservative right wing of the Republican Party.

Cognitive dissonance however is hard to avoid. The experts precede me. As in...

...thousands of bogus fear and doom videos and sites that pretend to expose government sponsored mind control which are, in reality, nothing but present day manifestations of "Big Brother" doublethink manipulations by very sane people who speak and act otherwise, imitate psychosis and instigate the very thing they pretend to be against.  For what reason?   Keep reading.

The following video by Dr. Michio Kaku does not fit that category.

After land, sea, air, the internet, space, there is another final frontier, another domain of
contention.  The sixth domain, the human brain and the control of same. 

What better way to approach the brain than through sound which is invisible, can be
noninvasive but can be felt.  "Non-lethal" sound weaponry commercialized and
advertised to be used by police departments and by governments on crowds, on battlefields,
but we never hear a sound about their use on individuals in controlled settings.  Benign as
well as malevolent science fiction PR names are used that go way beyond those used on
so-called mind control YT fringe channels which use the terms Remote Neural Monitoring
and Influence", "Voice of God" and V2k or Voice To Skull.  "Monitoring" and "influence"?
Never unedestimate the power of PR and the way these channels manipulate paranoia.

From the free Google book, Extremely Loud" by Juillette Volker (ancient useless news by now),
names and acronyms for commercially available sound weapons: Magnetic Audio Device,
or MAD, and Sound Commander, Hyperspike, Banshee II, Sonic Nausea, Sonic Devastator,
the Inferno Intenso, the Shout, the Shriek, the Scream (used by Israel since 2004 induces nausea and dizziness. In combining two low frequencies "knees buckle, the brain aches, the stomach turns...", oh yes, yes, I'll have what she's having,give me more), the SHOFAR (by the Israeli EORD - "non-lethal" high-power acoustic radiator with 36 acoustic boxes functioning in phase to reach a claimed amplitude of 128 bD at 50 meters), The MOSQUITO by the British company Compound Security Systems (CSS). Under the name of Beethoven you can get "a sound that softens behavior" (said the website slogan before it disappeared). 

This now old technology is mimicked and used as a head fake to make those on the receiving end think they've discovered an earthshaking government conspiracy.  Then to keep themselves busy and think they're doing due diligence they might come up with the following: 

infrasound - Skeptics Dictionary: 

Infrasound refers to extreme bass waves or vibrations, those with a frequency below the audibility range of the human ear (20 Hz to 22 kHz). Even though these waves can't be heard by us, they can be felt and have been shown to produce a range of effects in some people including anxiety, extreme sorrow, and chills. "Loud infrasound in the range of 0.5 to 10 Hz is sufficient to activate the vestibular, or balance system, in the inner ear."* (PsychologistRichard Wiseman of the University of Hertfordshire thinks that the odd sensations that people attribute to ghosts may be caused by infrasonic vibrations.*)

Along with other even catchier military covert spy-talk descriptions found on legitimate corporate sites (SARA) sometimes indicating that such and such "non-lethal" (always in quotes in this blog) technology was abandoned as not practical as a battlefield or crowd control weapon with no indication of further deployment or development. 
What is always left out is functionality under controlled conditions apart from crowds,
demonstrations and battlefield events. How convenient?  The proof?  You'll never find it on
the internet.  You will find plenty of sites by people pretending to insanity while dropping
hints at an inconvenient reality then surrounding it with as much new world order, Illuminati
nonsense as possible so that the latter discredits the former by association.  Double and triple
think.  As said, there is the cringeworthy possibility that all the above is a waste of time. It does provide useful context.  Remember Bob Dylan describing all the "hippies" walking on the
roof of his house in Woodstock?  Guess what?  There were no hippies, no fans were walking on
his roof and it wasn't hallucination either.  His wife at that time was named Sara.  That's kinda
funny and the implications however meaningless are most likely true.

See "The "Next" Warfare Domain" entry for relevant links that provide a valuable context for the anecdotal but non-speculative claims made here.


"The energy used is invisible, as are its outcomes...One may manage to prove a wound was caused by a club or a Flashball but it would be more difficult to blame an LRAD...."
"Extremely Loud" Using Sound As A Weapon by Juliette Volker, free Google book.
(Sound weapons which can physically wound are useful introductions to delivery
systems that are less elaborate and at the same time much more complicated)

Not to change the subject but a New Yorker Václav Havel article struck a chord with me.áclav_Havel
Havel's Civic Forum party played a major role in the Velvet Revolution that toppled communism in Czechoslovakia in 1989. He assumed the presidency shortly thereafter, and was reelected in a landslide the following year and after Slovak independence in 1993. Havel was instrumental in dismantling the Warsaw Pact and expanding NATO

FRANZ KAFKA'S MR. K.  The New Yorker 12/01/14:

"One of them is a profound, banal, and therefore utterly vague sensation of culpability, as though my very existence were a kind of sin.  Then there is a powerful feeling of general alienation, both my own and relating to everything around me, that helps to create such feelings; an experience of unbearable oppressiveness, a need constantly to explain myself to someone, to defend myself, a longing for an unattainable order of things, a longing that increases as the terrain I walk through becomes more muddled and confusing."

About the only thing I have in common with Vaclav Havel is that my
last name also begins with H and otherwise nothing in this blog compares
to what what he experienced in prison before the Prague Spring
in the freeing of Czechoslovakia from the Warsaw Pact.

We can easily go from Kafa to Orwell.

Double Plus Un-Good: 
(bureaucratic Orwellian news-speak) 

Any corporate or government agency can get away with anything when everything 
they do, classic surveillance and use of sound weaponry mimicks and sounds 
like classic paranoia and psychosis when described after the fact having built-in 
plausible deniability.  When the above is implemented correctly it is indistinguishable 
from psychosis.  When and if the surveilled is made aware of what is happening and 
is fool enough to blog or complain as I am doing here he finds out that nothing can affect eventual outcomes.  No tinfoil Faraday screens, no religious or rare earth medals can 
make a difference. 

I used to be very smug and very sure that my version of things was "right".
There have always been mentally ill people who believe they are victimized by
whoever he or she believes the enemy or "They" happen to be.  Everything in this blog
can be interpreted in that light.  Understandable but incorrect. I was completely wrong
in my assumptions and no one could tell me otherwise.

DIRECT EXPERIENCE ON THE RECEIVING END beginning in 1994 and becoming
much more aggressive after 2001which many would say is some kind of traumatic
post 911 PTSD or some such nonsense.

1) Sound frequency combinations projecting vocal and sound effects.  A remote duel
use communication, stim/ torture that induced total sleep deprivation and
brainwashing for 3/4 of a year.  It likely has potential use for indefinite periods.

These are and are not experimemts.  Sleep deprivation for this amount of time,
normally impossible, can be made to be very routine which means keeping
a person alive and totally sleepless doesn't seem to present much of a problem
for the high functioning hyper++morons hidding behind the deceisive asset
that they and all methods used are beyond belief.

New methods are added in pursuit of absolute overwhelming
intimidation, domination and control as if always in a constant
state of war implementing no-touch torture with zero physical
contact subverting any possible local and federal laws, lawsuits
or credible complaint.  No evidence is apparent all complaints
are dismissed.

In interrogation circles what greater challenge could there be? 
Psychological and physical torture without physical touch.

Levels of magnitude beyond the now infamous no-touch torture
methodology implemented in Iraq and Guantanamo Bay, Cuba by the
Cheney Bush administration.  Sound frequency combinations are invasive,
invisible, leave no incriminating marks and yet are capable of "touching"
and causing extreme physical pain, nausea, heating of the skin or racing
heart to and potentially past the point of death.

1) Victims are kept alive and relatively healthy in a kind of functional half-life fog.
Involuntary sleep deprivation and disruption uses verbiage, sound effects, 
focused sound frequencies capable of communication, and additionally remotely 
stimulating or depressing major organs, modulating blood flow, sex drive and body fluids.

2) During that 3/4 of a year sleepless marathon the only external obvious
differences in the immediate home environment besides those mentioned
are a noticeable aerosol chemical smell (external) that probably
had stimulant effects and also an almost constant hissing white-noise-like
sound both in the ears (blood flow?) and, at times, projected into the surrounding
apartment space reaching a crescendo effect around the sleepless endpoint
or the end of sleeplessness and the beginning of another round of sleep disruption.
This occurs in the person's own living space which was and still is more of an
electronic (e) or virtual (v)-prison than a place to live.

3) Classic surveillance combined with sound frequency "monitoring"
("Monitoring" or benign understated PR talk) are inherently indistinguishable
from auditory hallucinations and psychosis.  No third party, doctor or lawyer
can tell the difference.  If anything is suspected those suspicions will most
assuredly be ignored and dismissed.

At the mere mention of "hearing voices" doctors, in these hopefully rare cases, can't
be blamed for prescribing useless anti-psychotic drugs because even the individual
being sleep deprived has no conception, reason or experience to know what's behind
any of this.  The person will believe what they are told, that they are paranoid
schizophrenic or psychotic and proceed to be compliant in taking useless medicine.

Most people who experience intractable delusion and hallucinations also experience
sleep deprivation and believe, wrongly, that they are the victims of externally
sourced plots.

After the six to eight months of sleeplessness I assumed, wrongly,
that I had a psychotic break leading to auditory hallucinations and sleeplessness.
It took me years, and increased sleep, to see things differently.  This can be seen
as an attempt to talk myself out of and change inconvenient reality except for
the fact that I will mention details that are difficult to imagine, copy, contrive or make up.

I can't prove I was completely awake for 3/4 of a year.  A typical response, "well, staying awake
that long is impossible anyway, so why even bother?"  Or "you had to have been on drugs and
forgotten that you slept for brief periods."  Or ,"What's that? You're being hit by invisible rays by invisible men?  Golly, that's too bad.  Maybe you were traumatized by 911.  Check out some Thorazine flavored Kool-Aid for speedy relief."

All kinds of scenarios can be implied or imagined: Street or prescription stimulants?
Persecution complexes along with a desperate need for attention?  Making the whole thing up
or mixing select truth and fantasy, or, or, or anything but what I'm saying.  Convenient
understandable automatic default settings that people always fall back on because what
is being said is inconvenient, repellent, boring, or makes no apparent sense.

Total sleeplessness conveniently hinders awareness of what should be obvious.
What proves eventually to be so obvious is an insidious non-imagined 24/7 remote
interference in every aspect of waking and sleeping life.  Sub-vocalized brainwashing
below levels of hearing and below consciousness can potentially account for any
remaining volition.

The above manifested more aggressively in my case around 2002 some months after 911,
while in my fifties.  But was also a continuation of a slightly more subdued series of
personal events starting in 1993-4 coincidentally after the first WTC attack.  There is
no apparent connection and if any exists it is way past my cognitive pay grade.

1994 also saw the start of some startling news revelations completely apart from
the first WTC bombing and having nothing to do with terrorism.  I will allude to it later.

This blog attempts to shed some light on the updated present day bleeding edge in
private contractor Big Brother invasiveness existing regardless of country.  My
guess at motive would be the selling of on-going recorded responses to
unrelenting psychological stress by contractors to government security agencies
post 911.  The occurances described in this blog would hardly be noticed in
countries like skinhead Russia and China as anything unusual.  It would be like
the air, so frequent as to be everywhere and nowhere to be seen.  (Except in China
where you can smell and taste the air.  A very good medium for Tai Chi)

Why private contractors? What publicly funded agency could withstand a possible
Ed Snowden style insider breech involving outright psychological torture of a countries
civilians?  There is however a built-in deniability almost guaranteeing against exposure.
The more accurate my description the less credible it sounds.  So I should stop digging
the hole deeper, right?  Nope, I'm in over my head and no matter how hard I dig the
hole stays at the same depth.  The level of experience stays the same.  Terrible.


(always projected into "the future")


Photo: Joint Base Lewis McChord / Flickr

"It’s been fashionable in military circles to talk about cyberspace as a 
"fifth domain” for warfare, along with land, space, air and sea. But 
there’s a sixth and arguably more important war fighting domain 
emerging: the human brain."

"This new battlespace is not just about influencing hearts and minds
with people seeking information. It’s about involuntarily penetrating, 
shaping, and coercing the mind in the ultimate realization of Clausewitz’s 
definition of war: compelling an adversary to submit to one’s will. 
And the most powerful tool in this war is brain-computer interface (BCI) 
technologies, which connect the human brain to robotic systems."

"Where BCIs can provide opportunities for injured or disabled soldiers 
to remain on active duty post injury, enable paralyzed individuals to 
use their brain to type, or allow amputees to feel using bionic limbs
they can also be exploited if hacked. BCIs can be used to manipulate 
or kill for security or humanitarian purposes, the reality is that 
misapplication of such research and technology has significant 
implications for the future of warfare."

"Recently, security expert Barnaby Jack demonstrated the vulnerability of 
biotechnological systems by highlighting how easilypacemakers and implantable 
cardioverter-defibrillators (ICDs) could be hacked, raising fears about the 
susceptibility of even life-saving biotechnological implants. This vulnerability 
could easily be extended to biotechnologies that connect directly to the brain,
 such as vagus nerve stimulation or deep-brain stimulation."

(Security expert "Barnaby Jack" died in 2013)

"Outside the body, recent experiments have proven that the brain can control and maneuver quadcopter drones and metal exoskeletons. How long before we harness the power of mind-controlled weaponized drones – or use BCIs to enhance the power, efficiency, and sheer 
lethality of our soldiers?"

The Wired article is not just posing these facts for the sake of drama. 
It is asking the reader to just use some inference, some imagination as to the
actual possibilities that are not made public.  Methods that mix technology
and what is usually thought to be something akin to "magic" but is not.
In reality there is no compunction about doing no-touch involuntary psychological
experimentation on civilians.  All of it is sanctioned and winked at as no big deal.
Does anyone think that BCI or sound weapons are the ultimate in interrogation techniques?
What if it was possible to hack a telepresence into a persons psyche?  What if sleep
deprivation for extreme lengths of time were a proxy for death leaving the subject
open to manipulation?

The average smug individual like I used to be has little to worry about except getting
all angry at NSA spy overreach on one hand and if we are attacked again getting
understandably angry about that.  The media feel entitled to cover each in isolation
as if one has nothing to do with the other.  Bounced back and forth by our mainstream
and so-called alternative media, between privacy and security with one political
party having a near monopoly on the manipulation and exploitation of fear and
doom and perpetual war at home and abroad.  I don't have to mention the name.
This is the party of endless financial and religious Endtime disruption.


Ivy League universities and low paid researchers were able to skim large amounts from
CIA black budgets while believing they were patriots contributing to some greater cause.

Dr. Sydney Gottlieb, who led the MKULTRA program, apparently found out differently
and eventually said publicly that his work in this program was effectively useless.
For once, and contrary to all published reports, he was probably telling the truth.

Gottlieb, of Jewish-Hungarian parents, was born in the Bronx as Joseph Scheider in 1918. He received a Ph.D. in chemistry from the California Institute of Technology. A stutterer from childhood, Gottlieb also earned a master's degree in speech therapy. He had a club foot, which kept him out of World War II, but did not prevent his pursuit of folk dancing, a lifelong passion.[1]

(Being rejected from the WWII draft was considered the worst that could happen to a draft age male of that time.  That and having an early stutter made for the perfect fanatic by way of over compensation.  From speech therapist to folk dancer to chemist and poison expert to Project Aquatone...)

In 1951, aged 33, Gottlieb joined the Central Intelligence Agency (CIA).  As a poison expert, he headed the chemical division of the Technical Services Staff (TSS). Gottlieb became known as the "Black Sorcerer" and the "Dirty Trickster."[citation needed] He supervised preparations of lethal poisons and drug experiments in mind control.
In April 1953 Gottlieb became head of the secret Project MKULTRA which was activated on the order of CIA director Allen Dulles. In this capacity, he administered LSD and other psycho-active drugs to unwitting subjects and financed psychiatric research and development of "techniques that would crush the human psyche to the point that it would admit anything".[citation needed] He sponsored physicians such as Ewen Cameron and Harris Isbell in controversial psychiatric research including unconsented human subjects research. Many people suffered serious adverse effects from research financed by Gottlieb and the Rockefeller Foundation. 
Gottlieb was the liaison to the military subcontractor Lockheed, then working on Project Aquatone for the C.I.A. which would later be known as the U-2 spy plane. In 1953 he procured a Safe House for L.A.S.D. (Lockheed Aeronautics Services Division) which would have easy egress for secretive affairs.[citation needed]

By 1955 the project had grown so large that a new procurement was needed. At this point subproject 27 was merely a funding subproject which combined all previous subprojects, including those involving LSD, payment to Sandoz, magic and the art of distraction John Mulholland's manual (subproject 15 magic support, Mulholland Supplement) and the procurement of more LSD (subproject 18) but it continues on to include almost 150 known and documented subprojects
including a microwave gun and the search for alternatives to LSD which lead to the later programs like Project MKCHICKWIT, most of which focused on South America and mushrooms.[citation needed]

"Respected" researchers like Henry Murray, Ewen Cameron, "Dr. Green", Sydney Gottlieb of the US and Canada probably thought the MKUltra program goals were as stated: behavior modification to assist in interrogation, torture and control.  They were right and also wrong.

IMO, with few exceptions the entire program might have been an expensive diversion to compensate for the following....

"The project (MKUltra) began during a period of what Rupert Cornwell described as "paranoia" at the CIA, when America had lost its nuclear monopoly, and fear of Communism (China went communist) was at its height. [23] James Jesus Angletonhead of CIA counter-intelligence, 
believed that the organization had been penetrated by a mole at the highest levels.[23]"   
Parentheses mine

(James Jesus Angleton had regular drinking sessions with high ranking British spy Kim Philby.
The bad guy was right under his prominent paranoid nose. Philby later defected to Russia, an apparent traitor.  But-but was he?

The above resulted in a CIA manufactured MKUltra "mind control, brainwashing gap" where Russians and Koreans were, as always, made to appear as way ahead. Communist "Red Scares" before and after Joe McCarthy (based on some reality and much more hysteria), non-existent "bomber gaps", Sputnik satellite technology gaps, "missile gaps" and ensuing Cold War
paranoia leading to intended increases to CIA and defense budgets.

Regardless of how it sounds, the people who do this don't sit around asking themselves, is such an
such tactic reasonable or logical or even necessary?  No!  It is just implemented.  The
impact and effectiveness within a much larger context is what counts.

The present reality of "non-lethal" acoustic neural weaponry has duel function:
1) remote frequency stimulus or depression of brain and body for 6-8 months of sleeplessness.
2) enabling a one and two way neurohack by way of scaring the living crap out of the victim.
Then a continuing nightly psychic driving where every word is spoken in textured unison
"driving" an e-filtered mix of simple wordage thousands of times into the brain and psyche.
The latter is done routinely, programmed step by step, probably cannot be done randomly
without preparation of a given neural template but who is to say?

Remote, "action at a distance" means directing frequencies that "touch" and that particular
touch may or may be subtle enough not be felt on the skin.  Sound frequencies can adjust,
stimulate, depress specific areas of the brain and body and psyche without, let me say again,
without physical contact and be felt consciously or not.

The implications comprise every paranoid's and public/ private security interrogators wet dreams come true.

*My guess is the above is monetized by exchanging recorded data responses to extreme unrelenting stimuli and psychological stress and torture, for a share of the Dept. of Defense budget. The above, it will be said, is impossible.  Apparently not.  Can I be fooled?  Yes. But after awhile the veil and what's behind can be guessed at and inferred based on the probable not the provable.

(*Not to mention the little known taxpayer subsidization of private contractor pensions/ healthcare for contractors in subsidized federal projects.)

Looking for on-line proof for this blogs contentions?  Good luck! You will see plenty of YT
PR salesmen imitating seriousness or insanity creating deliberate doublethink smokescreens by
the thousand.  This manufactured confusion is where paid and unpaid contractor actors create, fabricate their own opposition and then attack their own creation and vice versa with 
both sides "winning" both arguments.  Rent the Matt Damon movie "Promised Land" 
to see how corporate American contractors operate when dealing with average people, 
in that case, on the issue of fracking.  It is amazing to see it unfold even as fiction.  Yes, 
I still see it as amazing which I shouldn't. 

"Us", in all too many cases, are people pretending to be freedom loving civil 
libertarian "good guys" in opposition to "Them" "bad guys". "Us" and "Them" 
are frequently one in the same when it comes to some on-line double-think