Thursday, March 12, 2015


In a system on a chip, peripherals are incorporated into the same integrated circuit as the central processing unit. They are still referred to as "peripherals" despite being permanently attached to (and in some sense part of) their host processor...

A very loose description of the two legged version I attempt 
to described on this page and throughout the blog.

Now what does William Gibson's novel "The Peripheral" have to do with anything? 
And why was he in the same NYC subway car late 2014 standing over me with 
another guy about his age about a month after I bought his book?  Coincidence?
It happens all the time.  Except with some people it happens a little too often.

He just happened to be wearing the same outfit as his photo on the back of the book.
I kept saying what I find myself saying all too often these days, "Is it what's-his-face?
Nah, can't be...too old.  Except that it was his face.  He was doing publicity in NYC
at the time with recorded YT interviews.

Are the people I describe below biological machines from the future with uploaded
consciousness like in the story?  No.  His vechicles are imagination, metaphor and allegory.
Mine unfortunately aren't.

So who what when where why? Good questions all.  Herein lies all the appearances
of contradiction not to mention insanity and madness.  The following is what is seen by
me ocurring in the Penn-South Chelsea section and throughout NYC.  The numbers
involved on the offensive disruptive end are beyond anything natural or rational.

To quote a previous blog entry via Wiki regarding unwitting volunteer CIA Harvard
programs of the 1950's: "The unwitting undergraduates were submitted to what (Dr.) 
Murray himself called "vehement sweeping and personally abusive" attacks.  
Assaults on their egos and cherished ideas and beliefs were the vehicles used 
to cause high levels of stress and distress to Murray's unwitting guinea pigs.[77]   

IOW, systematic visual water-boarding.  A perfect summary of what happens to
me every freaking day.

The above is not now and never was confined to Dr. Murray's very intelligent but
susceptible Harvard crash-test dummy undergraduates that included Ted K, later
known as the Unabomber.  No human could be anything but susceptible when
subject to what I can only approximate because it cannot be adequately described.

Force and physical contact with human piñatas happens on occasion but is
avoided because it isn't needed.  Physical force is replaced by a kind of non-stop
visual waterboarding assault by way of a real world imposed augmented reality.
One reason for doing things this way is that it conveniently overrides any local
or government laws regarding something so quant as legality or rights of
individuals in the U.S. and elsewhere.  Complaints, lawsuits are nullified.
The people who do this have the advantage of hiding behind impenetrable 
walls of disbelief.

Stranger than fiction events are comparable to scenes from the 1990 movie "Jacob's Ladder"
minus combat related PTSD or the Hollywood elements of demons, drugs, flashbacks,
exploding cars and the contrived cop-out ending.

The lead character Jacob Singer (Tim Robbins) is a combat soldier stabbed in the stomach
by one of his own men while in Vietnam.  He is found in the jungle with his intestines
outside his body.  He is rescued by helicopter to a base camp hospital.  The movie then
picks up on what is supposed to be his post war civilian life.

In 1985 I had a sternum to pelvic bone zippered surgery.  Ten inches of transverse intestine
were removed due to what was said to be a pre-cancerous blockage.

Approximately twenty years latter I experienced involuntarily sleep deprivation.
A  6 - 8 month marathon of total sleep deprivation without stimulant prescription
or street drugs.  Considered impossible and something like a proxy for death.

Jacob Singer's New York City civilian life is depicted at a crowded party.  He experiences
confusion and flashbacks along with a 106 fever.  His wife, played by Elizabeth Peña,
gets him into an ice bath to lower his body temperature.  He goes into delirium, blacks
out and wakes up in bed with his Jewish ex-wife.  He says the room feels like 10 degrees
and shuts the window.  His wife considers it normal.

Here's how that translates.  In the 1970's I am invited to "sleep" with a part Jewish female
I'd been seeing who was always said to be "married." (My guess is she would get pregnant
by a male loosely defined as a "husband."  She would then sleep with me in between pregnancies.)

The room feels to be at least 10 degrees.  She says the heat is turned off at night.  When I
try to touch her her body is too hot to get close to.  She is burning up and notices nothing.
Awake all night with her, I go to work the next morning and, of course, see her "husband"
coming from his night job.  We turn around at the same time as we pass.  He probably knows
what's going on but it is all made to seem like high intrigue.  Like a movie.  None of it
was coincidence.

There are scenes in the movie of insidious crazed doctors with the usual big needles.
This is replaced in reality by "nice guy" smiling student dentists applying needless
painful injections into the chin cavity inside my lower gums.  (He denied everything,
knew the pain killer was unnecessary and knew I would yell out, which I haven't done
at the hands of dentists since the sixth grade.  Everyone stays in character except me.)

Jacob experiences the extreme guilt that comes with the accendial death of a son.
A different kind of extreme guilt has played a part in my reality.

What I try and fail to describe below and on the pages of this blog is all too similar
to the shocks depicted in post war civilian parts of the movie.  Jacob experiences one
visual shock after another.  He is abducted at one point by three men in a car.  At one
point in April of 2014 I am pined to the floor in a lower Manhattan bar for no apparent
reason.  One guy for each leg with one with his knee on my chest holding down my
arms.  He knows I am having trouble breathing.  I am cuffed, no ID is shown, an
ambulance comes and I am driven to to Presbyterian Hospital on the east side where
I am allowed to walk out.  No medical procedures, no blood pressure taken
but the ambulance company billed my insurance for a thousand plus dollars.
How am I going to prove otherwise?

I see the same guy who kneeled on my chest working behind the counter at Amy's
Bakery the next day.  He has tatoos running down his arm and he goes into a martial
arts stance as soon as I see him with his arms together at the elbow Shaolin style.
I call him a moron.  He laughs and heads into the back room.  Like something straight
from the movie.

In the movie all the above it is presented as a dream at the end. To me it
is a dumb waking nightmare.

Am I looking for attention and trying to make sense of my life by comparing it to a cult movie?
Sometimes the rational sounds too contrived to be real.

(Saw Robbins playing street hockey in the park on sixth and Houston St. in Greenwich
Village a few years ago looking bored out of his mind, 6' 7" on his roller blades,
looking nothing close to his age and unrecognized by passersby in his helmet.  He is
currently appearing in movies again.  And wouldn't you know it?  Another version of
Jacob's Ladder is in the works.  PR for a probable stupid TV caricature this is NOT.)

What is happening to me is completely undetectable, completely unprovable and always
dismissed by automatic default positions of insanity or paranoid delusion.  Are people
in the entertainment industry and screenwriters like Bruce Joel Rubin making subtle
and not so subtle references to a reality that no one is capable of directly acknowledging?
Yes they are.

Automatic reactions like: "now who is going to go to all that trouble?"
"You must be a special kind of guy?"  "A "center of the world" narcissistic
paranoid persecution complex kind of guy."

In no way am I exceptional, don't want to be, don't want attention, and don't want any
part of this stupid ridiculous apparent reality.

Some attempts at characterising these completely unnerving, human++ "peripheral"
double-plus ungodly types seems straight out of the above horror movie or something from a demented "central casting" call.  I would say straight out of Comedy Central because that
is exactly what all this sounds like.  I would say that except for the fact that these
very high functioning morons described above and below are completely serious
and the above two plus-marks after the word human are completely applicable and accurate.

Everything described in this blog does not originate in any particular time period
or country.  (Jazz cigarettes, drugs, or psychosis, are also timeless but are not involved)
It manifested again in the West and in the U.S. in the 1960's - 1980's and continues today.

I had no idea at the time but I suspect, without proof, that certain "new age" movements,
Macrobiotics, Bioenergetics, Sri Chinmoy, Bubba Free John, Sachidananda's Integral
Yoga and many other so-called alternative eastern and western groups were completely
serious as far as their stated intentions and completely rigged after certain points.
Were they infiltrated by government?  FBI?  Some were, but nothing here has much to do
with the FBI infiltrating foreign groups considered disruptive to Hoover's version of society.

The mentioned groups had excellent PR depending on the image they wanted projected.
From Bubba Free John's "miracles", badboy radical beliefs, reported orgies (likely faked
or contrived for the sake of manufactured rumor) or relatively conservative but with
the guru's in question seemingly following a unwritten script of getting "caught"
taking advantage of female followers while otherwise prescribing celibacy.
Deliberately provoked fall from "enlightened" grace, IMO, as an offset to being
objects of worship and fame.

IMO, many people, leaders, celebrities (Mel Gibson) seem obliged to manufacture
some kind of large scale deliberate public humiliation or downfall under the
guise of sex, mental illness or substance abuse or all three.  Right after he makes
a billion dollars depicting the crucifixion of Christ.  I don't buy it at all.

(Convenient hindsight and attempts to see patterns where none exist?)

Overarching characteristics of the people involved: (some applicable to any group)
More extremely tall people of both sexes than I or anyone would consider normal or average.
Women over 6' 1" in flats are not unusual.  Males 6' 4" and over (Tim Robbins) are not
just seen now and then but constantly.  The fact of their being tall does not qualify for
mention.  I'm six foot and not normally considered short or tall.  Normally I could care less.

I briefly spoke to a woman who looked to be in her 70's, easily over 6' 4" who might
have been related to a girl of average height I worked with and went with back in 2002.
The older version was the only one I can remember in that age group and that tall which
means, of course, it happens and who cares?  Except that...

extreme height is but one example of what happens when extremes of every
kind are made to become routine across age groups, genders, races and 
nationalities.  And it will be said, "well, of course, tall people stand out and 
are noticed and so what?"

Extremes made mainstream are not just confined to appearances.  They extend 
beyond my personal projections and opinions into the larger society and are 
perfectly reflected in that larger society in many ways.  Among them, extreme 
climate across the earth, extreme right wing politics made mainstream and 
given legitimacy by the Republican Party that caters to and pacifies it's real and 
pretend extremists.  Now we are seeing it again in the last two years on the left. 
Millions of displace refugees in the Middle East, oil prices from over $100
to below $40.  The Russian and Texas oil economies do not want to see a treaty with 
Iran that might bring Iranian oil on market further depressing prices. 

Extremely tall people...
Nephilim?  Is that the next stupid thought in the progression of extremes?
These were depicted as biblical offspring, the "sons of God" and "daughters
of men" before the Deluge of Noah.  Referenced not just on biblical sites
but on rigged bogus fringe internet sites that all but tell the viewer
'our way of presentation is deliberately provocative, deliberately insane
with extreme religiosity and we do everything possible to force you to say,
"wow, so many bat-crazy people on the Internet."  A few are, but the majority,
IMO, are the opposite.  It is not one site or video, it is thousands choking
the internet to death with the help of what are called trolls.  And are they all by
the same network with the same motive?  No not all.  Again, the vast majority are.

And how do I know that?  Am I assuming motive?  Maybe they're just what
they appear to be, opinions by true believers that differ from mine and not
some vast conspiracy.  How very comforting and convenient.  Not to mention wrong.
Circumstantially wrong.

Double and triple think extreme lying is more popular than ever.

And who am I to call something fringe or absurd when writing something like this?

Besides being a retired 6' boomer, looking probably in my 40's - 50's, of average health, no medication, no nose rings or ponytails, no shaved head, dreds, drugs or tattoos on my head
or anywhere else.  Altogether pretty dull and the opposite of anything from Mad Max (future?)
or even Mad Men (the past).

All the negative aspects in the last paragraph are the programmed constants of visual
extremes that I experience day in and day out.  Far in excess of what is characteristic
of my or any big city neighborhood.  My age might suggest someone projecting or
is having trouble coping with the disruptions of changing times, styles and attitudes etc.

I can take more than occasional crowds, loud music, differences and disruptions
that are part of or exceed the average persons day to day experience.
What I am describing is "unpossible" except that nothing written here can now be
considered by me to be in any way exceptional.  I am describing NYC in a time
warp looking more and more like the NYC of the 1980's without the drug related
crime.  The city is becoming a dead zone,  an overcrowded graveyard in no way
isolated from subjective events or larger objective global issues.

*Many of those I am trying to describe seem to eat little, sleep little and have
no particular interest in sex apart from procreation unless called upon to take
on an outrageous outdated 1980's punkish, sexually suggestive or ambiguous appearance.
Contrived appearance, contrived outrageousness, contrived ambiguity.

*Whether these are street people, amped or so-called hipster types with
arms covered by tattoos, all perfectly uniformed down to the off center
or backwards baseball caps, the cut of beard or the one sided shaved head.

*Conversly, obsessive cleanliness is also a common factor.

*A contrived overly polite manner (well gee, what's wrong with that?) also
seems to be used to counter any deliberate weirdness in appearance and to
enhance the impression of being average upstanding citizens beyond reproach.
Bumping or grappling one minute like something from Fight Club, holding
doors and smiling excessively the next like in scenes from The Truman Show.
Passive aggressiveness on steroids on parade, in extremis.

*When ordering in a store too many women make a point of speaking in overly polite
exaggerated little girl "up-talk" tempos.  Or clipped tones of "yeah yeah".  Common enough.
Nearly everyone has similar experiences.  Too many guys take on deliberately fake vocal fry,
Houston mission control speech patterns or else the opposite, gay effeminate mannerisms and
speech over and far beyond any Google IT employee, gay or nerd stereotype.  As pictured in
the surveillance scenes in "Closed Circuit" none of those I am trying to depict now seem to
care if their street act is noticeably fake.

*Women that I went with in the distant past made a point of licking pasta sauce
from a plate in a restaurant or putting a bare hand into a restaurant buffet.
Wearing big cleverge in very cold, below freezing weather.  Completely covered
in 80+ degrees.  The pasta sauce part Jewish female yells Jewish slurs in a crowded
bar and no one notices.

The multiple messages:
'I don't operate and have no need to operate as you do.'  'I am beyond disruptive.'
'Our relationship won't be average or normal.'  'Sex? Take it or leave it, who cares,
don't get too attached.'  'I have to act this way.'  'I'm here to do a job and then
maybe get to be with one of my own kind.'

None of this was the result of anger, mood change, hot flashes, eccentricity, a joke,
self hate, psychopathy, or deficits of intelligence.  It was deliberate.  None of the
psych-boilerplate cliches apply.  ("Well hey, maybe it's you") (Am I talking to myself again?)

*A kind of routine hyperactivity is emphasized (Hyper+) .  Putting on a gross amount of
weight and taking it off and going in the opposite direction.  As a guess, not being
in constant motion invites some kind of automatic direct or indirect negative feedback.
Something like in the Disney movie "Tomorrowland" (machine shutdown) except I'm not
talking about inter-dimensional robot characters or aliens from a Disneyland new world order.

*"They" are big in music, art, entertainment, movies and meditation and at the same time....

* Big on lying and deceit exceeding even psychopathic compulsivity.

* Martial arts skills, acting, entertainment, improvisation, crossword puzzles, PR, propaganda and
manipulation of sound and language and most especially, street theater of a particular kind.

Most of which are typical of certain populations and not any kind of smoking gun proof.

In summery: a 1960's or 80's retro "hipster" appearance, varying degrees of physical
deformity (extreme anal retention, sliding "on the down low" pants, spastic walk,
penguin walk, one foot too short) too many doofy addicted appearing white street
people dreadlocked, tattooed, homeless, begging, plastic gay flamboyants.
And then alternated with their opposites.  Grossly over developed over-amped
military types with arms and chests so large (like turkeys) they are forced to move
or pretend to move in stupidly exaggerate marching styles alone or in pairs.
(I say this even considering the gyms on every corner)

Seen and encountered until replaced by something equally monotonous and
monstrously repulsive not in kind but in frequency.  Visual waterboarding.
With variety and monotony.

Nothing that I see in public is as it should be but, at the same time, nothing looks
flagrantly out of sync to casual observers.  All can be seen as classic ______(fill in the
symptomatic blanks) or just crotchety old age dementia, evident lack of insight...
move to Fla. blah blah blah.

I used to think in terms of mood, selective attention, particular preoccupations,
mistakes in perception or individual dislikes.  I have long since stopped questioning
my sanity, senses, or thinking I am having a bad day, month, year or life.

Thursday, October 2, 2014


"We can tranquilize, impede, immobilize, harass, shock, upset, stupefy, nauseate, chill, temporarily blind, deafen, or just scare the wits out of anyone the police have a proper need to control."...Rep. James Scheuer, 1970 (Harvard MBA, Columbia Law) US Congressman, NYS, 1973 - 1993.

The unfortunate realities covered in this blog are stranger than most fiction, difficult to express and even more difficult for the average person to believe.This blog is not about 911, terrorism, new world orders, immanent police states, immanent threat or disaster, ebola, contagion or rightwing endtime fear and doom.  The cultural divide between blue and red, left and right is very real.  The differences are exaggerated and exploited in the partisan media.  Many will do verbal head stands to try and mitigate the fact that You Tube and the Internet is being choked by manipulators of paranoia originating overwhelmingly from the populist conservative right wing of the Republican Party.

Cognitive dissonance however is hard to avoid. The experts precede me. As in...

...thousands of bogus fear and doom videos and sites that pretend to expose government sponsored mind control which are, in reality, nothing but present day manifestations of "Big Brother" doublethink manipulations by very sane people who speak and act otherwise, imitate psychosis and instigate the very thing they pretend to be against.  For what reason?   Keep reading.

The following video by Dr. Michio Kaku does not fit that category.

After land, sea, air, the internet, space, there is another final frontier, another domain of
contention. The sixth domain, the human brain and the control of same. 

What better way to approach the brain than through sound which is invisible, can be
noninvasive but can be felt.  "Non-lethal" sound weaponry commercialized and
advertised to be used by police departments and by governments on crowds, on battlefields,
but we never hear a sound about their use on individuals in controlled settings.   Benign as
well as malevolent science fiction PR names are used that go way beyond those used on
so-called mind control YT fringe channels which use the termsRemote Neural Monitoring
and Influence", "Voice of God" and V2k or Voice To Skull.

From the free Google book, Extremely Loud" by Juillette Volker (old news by now),
names and acronyms for commercially available sound weapons:
Magnetic Audio Device, or MAD, and Sound Commander, Hyperspike, Banshee II, Sonic Nausea,
Sonic Devastator, the Inferno Intenso, the Shout, the Shriek, the Scream (used by Israel since 2004 induces nausea and dizziness. In combining two low frequencies "knees buckle, the brain aches, the stomach turns...", oh yes, yes, I'll have what she's having, give me more), the SHOFAR (by the Israeli EORD - "non-lethal" high-power acoustic radiator with 36 acoustic boxes functioning in phase to reach a claimed amplitude of 128 bD at 50 meters), The MOSQUITO by the British company Compound Security Systems (CSS). Under the name of Beethoven you can get "a sound that softens behavior" (said the website slogan before it disappeared). 


NYPD officer stands ready with the LRAD 500X at an 
Occupy Wall Street protest. on November 17, 2011 near city hall.

infrasound - Skeptics Dictionary: 

Infrasound refers to extreme bass waves or vibrations, those with a frequency 
below the audibility range of the human ear (20 Hz to 22 kHz). Even though 
these waves can't be heard by us, they can be felt and have been shown to 
produce a range of effects in some people including anxiety, extreme sorrow, 
and chills. "Loud infrasound in the range of 0.5 to 10 Hz is sufficient to activate 
the vestibular, or balance system, in the inner ear."* (PsychologistRichard Wiseman 
of the University of Hertfordshire thinks that the odd sensations that people attribute 
to ghosts may be caused by infrasonic vibrations.*)

Along with other even catchier military covert spy-talk descriptions found on legitimate
corporate sites (SARA) sometimes indicating that such and such "non-lethal" (always
in quotes in this blog) technology was abandoned as not practical as a battlefield or
crowd control weapon with no indication of further deployment or development.

What is always left out is functionality under controlled conditions apart from crowds,
demonstrations and battlefield events. How convenient?  The proof?  You'll never find it on
the internet.  You will find plenty of sites by people pretending to insanity while dropping
hints at an inconvenient reality then surrounding it with as much new world order, Illuminati
nonsense as possible so that the latter discredits the former by association.

See "The "Next" Warfare Domain" entry for relevant links that provide
a valuable context for the anecdotal but non-speculative claims made here.


"The energy used is invisible, as are its outcomes...One may manage to prove a wound was caused by a club or a Flashball but it would be more difficult to blame an LRAD...."
"Extremely Loud" Using Sound As A Weapon by Juliette Volker, free Google book.
(Sound weapons which can physically wound are useful introductions to a reality 
that is much more complicated)

Not to change the subject but a New Yorker Václav Havel article struck a chord with me.áclav_Havel
Havel's Civic Forum party played a major role in the Velvet Revolution that toppled communism in Czechoslovakia in 1989. He assumed the presidency shortly thereafter, and was reelected in a landslide the following year and after Slovak independence in 1993. Havel was instrumental in dismantling the Warsaw Pact and expanding NATO

FRANZ KAFKA'S MR. K.  The New Yorker 12/01/14:

"One of them is a profound, banal, and therefore utterly vague sensation of culpability, as though my very existence were a kind of sin.  Then there is a powerful feeling of general alienation, both my own and relating to everything around me, that helps to create such feelings; an experience of unbearable oppressiveness, a need constantly to explain myself to someone, to defend myself, a longing for an unattainable order of things, a longing that increases as the terrain I walk through becomes more muddled and confusing."

About the only thing I have in common with Vaclav Havel is that my
last name also begins with H and otherwise nothing in this blog compares
to what what he experienced in prison before the Prague Spring
in the freeing of Czechoslovakia from the Warsaw Pact.

We can easily go from Kafa to Orwell.

Double Plus Un-Good: 
(bureaucratic Orwellian news-speak) 

Any corporate or government agency can get away with anything when everything 
they do, classic surveillance and use of sound weaponry mimicks and sounds 
like classic paranoia and psychosis when described after the fact having built-in 
plausible deniability.  When the above is implemented correctly it is indistinguishable 
from psychosis.  When and if the surveilled is made aware of what is happening and 
is fool enough to blog or complain as I am doing here he finds out that nothing can affect eventual outcomes.  No tinfoil Faraday screens, no religious medals. 

I used to be very smug and very sure that my version of things was "right".
There have always been mentally ill people who believe they are victimized by
whoever he or she believes the enemy or "They" happen to be.  Everything in this blog
can be interpreted in that light.  Understandable but incorrect. I was completely wrong
in my assumptions and no one could tell me otherwise.

DIRECT EXPERIENCE ON THE RECEIVING END beginning in 1994 and becoming
much more aggressive after 2001which many would say is some kind of traumatic
PTSD breakdown after 911 or some such nonsense.

1) Sound frequency combinations projecting vocal and sound effects.  A remote duel
use communication, stim/ torture that induced total sleep deprivation and
brainwashing for 3/4 of a year.  It likely has potential use for indefinite periods.

These are and are not experimemts.  Sleep deprivation for this amount of time,
normally impossible, can be made to be very routine which means keeping
a person alive and totally sleepless doesn't seem to present much of a problem
for the high functioning hyper++morons hidding behind the deceisive asset
that they and all methods used are beyond belief.

New methods are added in pursuit of absolute overwhelming
intimidation, domination and control as if always in a constant
state of war implementing no-touch torture with zero physical
contact subverting any possible local and federal laws, lawsuits
or credible complaint.  No evidence is apparent all complaints
are dismissed.

In interrogation circles what greater challenge could there be? 
Psychological and physical torture without physical touch.

Levels of magnitude beyond the now infamous no-touch torture
methodology implemented in Iraq and Guantanamo Bay, Cuba by the
Cheney Bush administration.  Sound frequency combinations are invasive,
invisible, leave no incriminating marks and yet are capable of "touching"
and causing extreme physical pain, nausea, heating of the skin or racing
heart to and potentially past the point of death.

1) Victims are kept alive and relatively healthy in a kind of functional half-life.
Involuntary sleep deprivation and disruption uses verbiage, sound effects, 
focused sound frequencies capable of communication, and additionally
remotely stimulating or depressing major organs, modulating blood flow and body fluids.

2) During that 3/4 of a year sleepless marathon the only external obvious
differences in the immediate home environment besides those mentioned
are a noticeable aerosol chemical smell (external) that probably
has stimulant effects and also an almost constant hissing white-noise-like
sound both in the ears (blood flow?) and, at times, projected into the surrounding
apartment space reaching a crescendo effect around the sleepless endpoint
or the end of sleeplessness and the beginning of another round of disruption.
This occurs in the person's own living space which was and still is more of an
electronic (e) or virtual (v)-prison than a place to live.

3) Classic surveillance combined with sound frequency "monitoring"
("Monitoring" or benign understated PR talk) are inherently indistinguishable
from auditory hallucinations and psychosis.  No third party, doctor or lawyer
can tell the difference.  If anything is suspected those suspicions will most
assuredly be ignored and dismissed.

At the mere mention of "hearing voices" doctors, in these hopefully rare cases, can't
be blamed for prescribing useless anti-psychotic drugs because even the individual
being sleep deprived has no conception, reason or experience to know what's behind
any of this.  The person will believe what they are told, that they are paranoid
schizophrenic or psychotic and proceed to be compliant in taking useless medicine.

Most people who experience intractable delusion and hallucinations also experience
sleep deprivation and believe, wrongly, that they are the victims of externally
sourced plots.

After the six to eight months of sleeplessness I assumed, wrongly,
that I had a psychotic break leading to auditory hallucinations and sleeplessness.
It took me years, and increased sleep, to see things differently.  This can be seen
as an attempt to talk myself out of and change inconvenient reality except for
the fact that I will mention details that are difficult to imagine, copy, contrive or make up.

I can't prove I was completely awake for 3/4 of a year.  A typical response, "well, staying awake
that long is impossible anyway, so why even bother?"  Or "you had to have been on drugs and
forgotten that you slept for brief periods."  Or ,"What's that? You're being hit by invisible rays by invisible men?  Golly, that's too bad.  Maybe you were traumatized by 911.  Check out some Thorazine flavored Kool-Aid for speedy relief."

All kinds of scenarios can be implied or imagined: Street or prescription stimulants?
Persecution complexes along with a desperate need for attention?  Making the whole thing up
or mixing select truth and fantasy, or, or, or anything but what I'm saying.  Convenient
understandable automatic default settings that people always fall back on because what
is being said is inconvenient, repellent, boring, or makes no apparent sense.

Total sleeplessness conveniently hinders awareness of what should be obvious.
What proves eventually to be so obvious is an insidious non-imagined 24/7 remote
interference in every aspect of waking and sleeping life.  Sub-vocalized brainwashing
below levels of hearing and below consciousness can potentially account for any
remaining volition.

The above manifested more aggressively in my case around 2002 some months after 911,
while in my fifties.  But was also a continuation of a slightly more subdued series of
personal events starting in 1993-4 coincidentally after the first WTC attack.  There is
no apparent connection and if any exists it is way past my cognitive pay grade.

1994 also saw the start of some startling news revelations completely apart from
the first WTC bombing and having nothing to do with terrorism.  I will allude to it later.

This blog attempts to shed some light on the updated present day bleeding edge in
private contractor Big Brother invasiveness existing regardless of country.  My
guess at motive would be the selling of on-going recorded responses to
unrelenting psychological stress by contractors to government security agencies
post 911.  The occurances described in this blog would hardly be noticed in
countries like skinhead Russia and China as anything unusual.  It would be like
the air, so frequent as to be everywhere and nowhere to be seen.  (Except in China
where you can smell and taste the air.  A very good medium for Tai Chi)

Why private contractors? What publicly funded agency could withstand a possible
Ed Snowden style insider breech involving outright psychological torture of a countries
civilians?  There is however a built-in deniability almost guaranteeing against exposure.
The more accurate my description the less credible it sounds.  So I should stop digging
the hole deeper, right?  Nope, I'm in over my head and no matter how hard I dig the
hole stays at the same depth.  The level of experience stays the same.  Terrible.


(always projected into "the future")


Photo: Joint Base Lewis McChord / Flickr

"It’s been fashionable in military circles to talk about cyberspace as a 
"fifth domain” for warfare, along with land, space, air and sea. But 
there’s a sixth and arguably more important war fighting domain 
emerging: the human brain."

"This new battlespace is not just about influencing hearts and minds
with people seeking information. It’s about involuntarily penetrating, 
shaping, and coercing the mind in the ultimate realization of Clausewitz’s 
definition of war: compelling an adversary to submit to one’s will. 
And the most powerful tool in this war is brain-computer interface (BCI) 
technologies, which connect the human brain to robotic systems."

"Where BCIs can provide opportunities for injured or disabled soldiers 
to remain on active duty post injury, enable paralyzed individuals to 
use their brain to type, or allow amputees to feel using bionic limbs
they can also be exploited if hacked. BCIs can be used to manipulate 
or kill for security or humanitarian purposes, the reality is that 
misapplication of such research and technology has significant 
implications for the future of warfare."

"Recently, security expert Barnaby Jack demonstrated the vulnerability of 
biotechnological systems by highlighting how easilypacemakers and implantable 
cardioverter-defibrillators (ICDs) could be hacked, raising fears about the 
susceptibility of even life-saving biotechnological implants. This vulnerability 
could easily be extended to biotechnologies that connect directly to the brain,
 such as vagus nerve stimulation or deep-brain stimulation."

(Security expert "Barnaby Jack" died in 2013)

"Outside the body, recent experiments have proven that the brain can control and maneuver quadcopter drones and metal exoskeletons. How long before we harness the power of mind-controlled weaponized drones – or use BCIs to enhance the power, efficiency, and sheer 
lethality of our soldiers?"

The Wired article is not just posing these facts for the sake of drama. 
It is asking the reader to just use some inference, some imagination as to the
actual possibilities that are not made public.  Methods that mix technology
and what is usually thought to be something akin to "magic" but is not.
In reality there is no compunction about doing no-touch involuntary psychological
experimentation on civilians.  All of it is sanctioned and winked at as no big deal.
Does anyone think that BCI or sound weapons are the ultimate in interrogation techniques?
What if it was possible to hack a telepresence into a persons psyche?


The average smug individual like I used to be has little to worry about except getting
all angry at NSA spy overreach on one hand and if we are attacked again getting
understandably angry about that.  The media feel entitled to cover each in isolation
as if one has nothing to do with the other.  Bounced back and forth by our mainstream
and so-called alternative media, between privacy and security with one political
party having a near monopoly on the manipulation and exploitation of fear and
doom and perpetual war at home and abroad.  I don't have to mention the name.


Ivy League universities and low paid researchers were able to skim large amounts from
CIA black budgets while believing they were patriots contributing to some greater cause.

Dr. Sydney Gottlieb, who led the MKULTRA program, apparently found out differently
and eventually said publicly that his work in this program was effectively useless.
For once, and contrary to all published reports, he was probably telling the truth.

Gottlieb, of Jewish-Hungarian parents, was born in the Bronx as Joseph Scheider in 1918. He received a Ph.D. in chemistry from the California Institute of Technology. A stutterer from childhood, Gottlieb also earned a master's degree in speech therapy. He had a club foot, which kept him out of World War II, but did not prevent his pursuit of folk dancing, a lifelong passion.[1]

(Being rejected from the WWII draft was considered the worst that could happen to a draft age male of that time.  That and having a stutter made a perfect setting for the perfect fanatic by way of over compensation.  From speech therapist to folk dancer to chemist and poison expert to Project Aquatone...)

In 1951, aged 33, Gottlieb joined the Central Intelligence Agency (CIA). As a poison expert, he headed the chemical division of the Technical Services Staff (TSS). Gottlieb became known as the "Black Sorcerer" and the "Dirty Trickster."[citation needed] He supervised preparations of lethal poisons and drug experiments in mind control.

In April 1953 Gottlieb became head of the secret Project MKULTRA which was activated on the order of CIA director Allen Dulles. In this capacity, he administered LSD and other psycho-active drugs to unwitting subjects and financed psychiatric research and development of "techniques that would crush the human psyche to the point that it would admit anything".[citation needed] He sponsored physicians such as Ewen Cameron and Harris Isbell in controversial psychiatric research including unconsented human subjects research. Many people suffered serious adverse effects from research financed by Gottlieb and the Rockefeller Foundation. 

Gottlieb was the liaison to the military subcontractor Lockheed, then working on Project Aquatone for the C.I.A. which would later be known as the U-2 spy plane. In 1953 he procured a Safe House for L.A.S.D. (Lockheed Aeronautics Services Division) which would have easy egress for secretive affairs.[citation needed]

By 1955 the project had grown so large that a new procurement was needed. At this point subproject 27 was merely a funding subproject which combined all previous subprojects, including those involving LSD, payment to Sandoz, magic and the art of distraction John Mulholland's manual (subproject 15 magic support, Mulholland Supplement) and the procurement of more LSD (subproject 18) but it continues on to include almost 150 known and documented subprojects
including a microwave gun and the search for alternatives to LSD which lead to the later programs like Project MKCHICKWIT, most of which focused on South America and mushrooms.[citation needed]

The present reality of "non-lethal" acoustic neural weaponry has duel function:
1) remote frequency stimulus or depression of brain and body for 6-8 months of sleeplessness.
2) enabling a one and two way neurohack by way of scaring the living crap out of the victim.
Then a continuing nightly psychic driving where every word is spoken in textured unison
"driving" an e-filtered mix of simple wordage thousands of times into the brain and psyche.
The latter is done routinely, programmed step by step, probably cannot be done randomly
without preparation of a given neural template but who is to say?

Remote, "action at a distance" means directing frequencies that "touch" and that particular
touch may or may be subtle enough not be felt on the skin.  Sound frequencies can adjust,
stimulate, depress specific areas of the brain and body and psyche without, let me say again,
without physical contact and be felt consciously or not.

The implications comprise every paranoid's and public/ private security interrogators wet dreams come true.

*My guess is the above is monetized by exchanging recorded data responses to extreme unrelenting stimuli and psychological stress and torture, for a share of the Dept. of Defense budget. The above, it will be said, is impossible.  Apparently not.  Can I be fooled?  Yes. But after awhile the veil and what's behind can be guessed at and inferred based on the probable not the provable.

(*Not to mention the little known taxpayer subsidization of private contractor pensions/ healthcare for contractors in subsidized federal projects.)

Looking for on-line proof for this blogs contentions?  Good luck! You will see plenty of YT
PR salesmen imitating seriousness or insanity creating deliberate doublethink smokescreens by
the thousand.  This manufactured confusion is where paid and unpaid contractor actors create, fabricate their own opposition and then attack their own creation and vice versa with 
both sides "winning" both arguments.  Rent the Matt Damon movie "Promised Land" 
to see how corporate American contractors operate when dealing with average people, 
in that case, on the issue of fracking.  It is amazing to see it unfold even as fiction.  Yes, 
I still see it as amazing which I shouldn't. 

"Us", in all too many cases, are people pretending to be freedom loving civil 
libertarian "good guys" in opposition to "Them" "bad guys". "Us" and "Them" 
are frequently one in the same when it comes to some on-line double-think 




In 2009, it was shown that the amount of telomerase activity significantly 
increased due to psychological stress. Across the sample of patients 
telomerase activity increased by 18% one hour after the end of the stress. 
Telomerase activity was examined in peripheral blood mononuclear cells.[41]

Apply this Telomerase entry to the references in this blog.

People on the receiving end of this maddness are prevented from living and have the added 
bonus of extended lifespans and, in theory, get to keep on keeping on while being told day 
after day, year after year, "don't give up the ship and don't give up on us".

Like many of their kinsmen of the recent past the high functioning morons who play and prey on
the human proclivity of hoping and seizing on any and every deliberate deception that says the waking nightmare will soon be over.  Like a concentration camp or life consuming malignancy,
it will be over when I'm dead.

From Martin Amis' recent novel "Zone of Interest", chapter titled "Brown Snow".
(The reason behind the color of the snow can and cannot be imagined)

Auschwitz prison camp Commandant Paul Doll (Rudolf Höss)
ruminated about how to handle the next trainload of Jewish humanity
as smoothly as possible and without incident.  Occupants stuffed in train
after train up till that time were always told they were "settlers" merely
being transferred to work teams in eastern territories with a "stopover"
for hygienic reasons at a bath "spa".

Commandant Paul Doll: "The people in the target communities
are drawing their own conclusions from an obvious and irrefutable truth:
Nobody Has Ever Come Back.  Thus they've put 2 and 2 together,
and we have lost the "element of surprise"...".  "All right, I'll phrase
that slightly differently: in the matter of what awaits these "settlers"
in the eastern territories, we no longer have the advantage of being
unbelievable.  The decisive asset of being beyond belief."

The last two words make up the reason this blog is even attempted.

That said, NOTHING in this blog in any way is comparable to the
horror of Auchwitz.  Operators of another sort of malevolence can still
hide, as Martin Amis puts it so well, behind "the decisive asset of being
beyond belief."  Updated operators exist on the periphery, in rumor and in
vague conspiracies that no one can conceptualize without invoking disbelief.