Friday, April 15, 2016


"In Russia, farms of online trolls systematically harass democratic voices and spread false information on the Internet and on social media."...Eric Schmidt, CEO of Google/ Alphabet. 

NPR podcast intro to the NYT article regarding Sept. 11, 2014 Russian Troll Farm manufactured news of explosions and Ebola rumors in the US leading up to the
Nov. 2014 Congressional elections.

Per BuzzFeed:
"Russia’s campaign to shape international opinion around its invasion of Ukraine has extended to recruiting and training a new cadre of online trolls that have been deployed to spread the Kremlin’s message on the comments section of top American websites."
"Plans attached to emails leaked by a mysterious Russian hacker 
collectivist show IT managers reporting on a new ideological 
front against the West in the comments sections of Fox News, Huffington Post, The Blaze, Politico, and WorldNetDaily."  
"The bizarre hive of social media activity appears to be part of a two-pronged Kremlin campaign to claim control over the internet, launching a million-dollar army of trolls to mold American public opinion as it cracks down on internet
freedom at home."

And no, as bad as things are on the Internet, it ain't Gaza, it ain't the Ukranine, 
Ebola, or Everest Awakening with earthquakes in Nepal, "it's not even close."

That said, there are things far stranger and more disruptive than everything in the above
sentence put together.  Difficult to express, impossible to prove and close to "unpossible"
for me to believe my lying eyes.

That said, this blog is NOT about the Middle East, 911, terrorism, UFO's, revelations from
God, Satan, the Illuminutty, immanent U.S. police states, contagion, right wing financial,
Fukushima or theocratic end-time all the time fear and doom.  Nothing about asteroidal threat,
the very real hair-trigger nuclear or climate change reality.

This is a minority report about encroaching extremes, the nature of things and the bugs
in the machine that makes up reality reflected in media, politics, disinformation, entertainment including and surpassing the cultural divide between blue pills and red, left and right.

The latter differences are exaggerated and exploited by both major political parties but the
outrageous house, hair and pants on fire always at war rhetoric by right wing media and
politicians is and has always been truly in a class of it's own long before the T-(Trump)
Party, or the Trump alternative, Fox "News" and Ted Cruz.

Per the lead Eric Schmidt quote, You Tube and the internet are becoming choked by very
sane manipulators of the "Paranoid Style" originating in and mostly outside the US.  It is not
confined to extensive troll farm disinformation from Russia or Israeli "Hasbara brigades"
or the British or NSA versions of same.  This blog is a Colbert wave of the hand and wag
of the finger to all the volunteer and hired hands whose job is to clog up the Internet , the
world and minds with disinformation.  I say this being fully aware of contradictions and
cognitive dissonances contained herein.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016


The most important question regarding the claims in my first post is why?  Simply to
manufacture doubt and distrust in facts, logic, nuance, governments, reality itself
and to make sure erosion seeps into so-called mainstream politics and culture.
Just look at what passes for populist right wing politics in the U.S.?  Meanwhile...

...the following video by Dr. Michio Kaku does not fit that category.

After land, sea, air, the internet and space, there is another final frontier, another domain of
contention and warfare.  The sixth domain, the human brain and the control of same.   

Cognitive dissonance however is hard to avoid.  Proof of claim hard to come by.  
The experts precede me.  As in...

...thousands of bogus fear and doom disinformation videos and websites 
pretending to expose government sponsored mind control that all but stand 
on their heads to tell viewers that all these channels, sites, blogs are made by 
Psy-Ops contractors imitating paranoia, delusion and "Big Brother" doublethink.
Where's proof of claim? 

That mind control", gangstalking fear and doom websites are made by fake PR salesmen/
play-actors who add an inherent a "Doublethink" twist.  Contrary to Doctor Vaughan Bell
and the NY Times link below, only a few of these sites are by the mentally ill.  But how
do I know that?  Is it therefore advisable for media friendly professionals like Dr. Bell
to safely come to the easy conclusion that all these videos are to be dismissed as made
by and for paranoids and nothing more?  Yes it is.

He would say I'm projecting or seeing what I want to see.  Or that this blog is merely a
lefty meta conspiracy of conspiracies.  I say I'm seeing them for what they are and not for
what they pretend they are.

The content of the videos in question are the very thing they pretend to be against.  IOW,
videos and blogs pretending to be fighting mind control and which are in themselves the
purest form of mind control via repetition and shear numbers of videos, comments, sites,
blogs, forums.

These aren't, IMO, the mentally ill imitating each other.  These are pretenders, liars and or bots
who coincidently use the same fear and doom style as a few likely very sane westerners
mentioned in the paragraph below who act in the name of the American and European fringe
radical right wing while pretending to be beyond political or ideological binary constructs of
right and left.

Never underestimate the power of political PR even from strident pretend fools like Alex "Skull
and Bones" Jones and David Icke who are one step below the National Enquirer.  One step "up" would be Breitbart , Glenn Beck and The Blaze, WorldNetDaily, Drudge, RW talk radio or
You Tube internet radio troll farm salesmen pretending to deliver "alternative" news "the
government doesn't want you to hear."

The above are not just opinions that disagree with my own.  If you have a political lie machine as powerful and rich as the Republican Party you automatically generate extreme outliers to prop
up the mainstream and vice versa.   Pretty soon the outliers through their true believer manic
fanatic energy become the mainstream.  How many of them actually believe their own nonsense?
How many are in on the joke that is their political ideology?  Doesn't matter.  All they have to
do is keep repeating and the repeating makes it true.  And the right has my counterpart contriving
a right wing Alex Jones version of Orwell's 1984 and probably doing a better job.  Conservatism
has many very legitimate views whether I agree with them or not.  They are not the subject of this

Wednesday, December 9, 2015


Secret and commercialized sound weapon systems go by benign as well as provocative science fiction names like Remote Neural Monitoring and Influence", "Voice of God" and V2k or Voice To Skull used on disinformation sites and videos.  That's not including the more officious military lingo.

"Monitoring" and "influence?   How PR nice sounding and unthreatening can you get?

Names and acronyms for commercially supposedly available sound weapons: Magnetic Audio Device, or MAD, and Sound Commander, Hyperspike, Banshee II, Sonic Nausea, Sonic
Devastator, the Inferno Intenso, (The what? I don't believe it).

The Shout, the Shriek, the Scream (used by Israel since 2004) induces nausea and dizziness. In combining two low frequencies "knees buckle, the brain aches, the stomach turns...", (oh yes, yes, I'll have what she's having, give me more), the SHOFAR (by the Israeli EORD - "non-lethal" high-power acoustic radiator with 36 acoustic boxes functioning in phase to reach a claimed amplitude of 128 bD at 50 meters), The MOSQUITO by the British company Compound Security Systems (CSS). Under the name of Beethoven you can get "a sound that softens behavior" (said the website slogan before it disappeared).   

Claims on corporate websites are always said to be exaggerated never resulting in working real world technology. They do provide an idea as to possibilities.  Old news and also mostly meaningless for the average person like the supposedly serious book on sound weapons called "Extremely Loud." Serious until checking their bogus Comedy Central type websites. 

This video below is a Democracy Now commentary on G-20 demonstrations in Pittsburg.  From my POV both sides, the police with their big deal military trucks and crowd dispersal equipment as well as political theater from what's left of the left are pretty sad.  Like one feeding off the other.  Almost like Orwell's 1984 where Big Brother creates his own "underground" opposition and proceeded to attack his own creation.

Bob Dylan used to describe "hippies" walking on the roof of his house in Woodstock.
If he was telling the truth at all there were likely no hippies, no fanatics walking on his roof and it probably wasn't a jazz cigarette induced paranoid auditory hallucination either.  It is likely he did hear sounds coming from the direction of his roof.

How about indulging in some conspiracy. Dylan's wife at that time was named Sara.  A contractor in the field of directed sound weaponry is Scientific Applications and Research Association or SARA Inc.  The implications however meaningless are most likely true.  Dylan was likely hearing a base sound mimicking boots walking on his roof among other simulated common sounds.  The crooked music industry?  Government or police harassment using early stage sound technology?  Possibly.  Or something much stupider
and at the same time more real and much more insidious.

Sunday, December 6, 2015


The female reporter in the excellent movie Spotlight briefly interviewes an accused former
priest depicted as a Father Panquin who calmly admits everything he was accused of.  The
depicted aging priest claims he got no pleasure from multiple molestations.  Before the
depicted priest was stopped from talking further he matter of factly mentioned that he was
also raped when he was young.  And what does that scene and this topic have to do with anything?

Why was this scene specifically included in the movie?  What was being said?  Was it merely
dramatic Hollywood provocation describing an unofficial method of recruitment?  The Church's
molestation syndrome certainly went beyond the availability of stimulant drugs like pot, meth
amphetamines and cocaine.  Beyond suppressed sexuality and dumb occult-like mechanical
methods of recruiting future priests.

The Catholic Church as everyone knows reached unprecedented riches in post emigrant
America.  Enter a self-imposed karmic wheel that included reporters, lawyers and the
institution itself.

The Catholic Church under Pope Francis is still very formidable as it should be.  Pope Francis
has reported that his will be a short rein due to health problems.  The previous Pope, Pope
Benedict, was acting as Pope long before his formal election.  Conservatives are unfortunately
still very much still in control.

I had a talk with a dying priest, Father Philip around 2009.  In response to my then feeble
questions he said the following regarding real world methods used by the bagmen of the
Catholic Church, the people who make the real estate deals and come up with large sums
when needed (Knights of Columbus?).  "They have their own agenda that is not part of
any religion."  Was this priest talk to pacify me?  Was he medicated or sick?

Some weeks later in one of his last sermons this priest sounded very much in control saying,
"watch out for those who value piety over people."  IOW, watch out for ultra-orthodox
regardless of faith or ideology.  Islamic or Christian.  Pius X, Pastor John Hagee or
Messianic Zionists.

Conservative defenders to the death of the Catholic Church haven't seen their day come and go
with the emergence of Pope Francis.  Just the opposite.  As always they see themselves as being vindicated and redeemed.  Conservatives in the U.S. now count themselves as among the
persecuted.  Persecuted by whom?  They are persecuted and offended by everything including
the so-called homosexual agenda and resulting workplace discrimination in academia and elsewhere.

In summery, public ridicule has always been seen by the religious as a badge of honor.  The 
Church isn't the only one operating in this mode.  In other sections I go into my views on institutions and religious celebrities who IMO invite public ridicule.  The Church has done the same.  It sees and 
feeds into geopolitical events that are said to resemble that which occurred before WWI and II. 

Women and minorities both racial and sexual are having their deserved day in and out of the media.
In my view media outlets like the Huffington Post go beyond caricature into the void when it
comes to reporting on Cait Jenner Room 101 gender politics.  Clickbait sensationalists won't miss
my readership in the least.  HuffPo political ravings are only a vague description of the real world or real world politics.  At the same time they're head and shoulders preferable to their right wing counterparts in the fear and doom always at war lock and load NRA cliché departments.

In times of mixed gender and abortion cultural upheaval, extremists have taken control of of the
U.S. Congress and at the same time do everything but stand on their heads in attempts to portray themselves as being among the religious and ideologically oppressed from all sides not in Syria
or Iraq but in this country. Imagine a President Trump or ANY Republican POTUS leading a Republican Congressional majority and appointing now Sen. Ted Cruz to fill the Scalia SCOTUS
spot?  Hillary Clinton is the only one who can upset this impossible to conceive right wing winner-take-all political scenario.  As if writing about it is going to make any difference either way.

Friday, December 4, 2015


No Doubt, the previous paragraph regarding the depressing Republican control of Congress and right wing trolls can be temporarily offset by
Gwen Stefani, The Soggy Bottom Boys, George Clooney and the movie,
Oh Brother Where Art Thou?

Summer of 2016 I'm walking past Lincoln Center on my way to see the movie
"Genius" at the Lincoln Plaza.  I pass a political writer on the street I recognize but I'm
very bad with names.  I sit down in the theater to watch the coming attractions.  An
upcoming documentary about autism, "Life Animated" had the name Ron Suskind in
the credits.  His son is the main subject of the film.  Of course it was Suskind I had just
passed on the street.

The movie "Genius" is about Thomas Wolfe and his editor Maxwell Perkins who was also
editor for Hemingway and F. Scott Fitzgerald.  Wolfe's first book, "Look Homeward Angel"
played a large role in the movie.  Previously I had vague notions about Wolfe and his books.
I knew him from the photo I'd seen at the Whitehorse Tavern downtown.  I had no plans to
see the movie but I happened to play this Steve Young (who died this year) video the night before:

Stuff like that happens all the time and no big deal.  When I played the video I
completely missed the part about "my old friend Thomas from Ashville North Carolina."
Genius was an amazing film about two Americans played by two British actors.  All the
better because the Brits, with a sense of history and context, really know how to present
a story.  Wolfe at 6' 6" was not the sad depressed writer I associated with the photo.

"In a system on a chip, peripherals are incorporated into the same integrated circuit as the central processing unit. They are still referred to as "peripherals" despite being permanently attached to (and in some sense part of) their host processor..."  A loose description of something I attempt to described on this page and throughout.

Now what does William Gibson's SF novel "The Peripheral" have to do with anything? 
And why was he in the same NYC subway car late 2014 standing over me with 
another guy about his age about a month after I bought his book?  Coincidences like that
happen all the time.  Except with some people they happen just a little too often.

He just happened to be wearing the same outfit as his photo on the back of the book.
I kept saying what I find myself saying all too often these days, "Is that what's-his-face?
Nah, can't be...too old.  Except it was his face.  He was doing publicity in NYCMat the time
with recorded YT interviews.

Are the people I describe biological time traveling humanoid machines from the future
with uploaded conscious personalities as in Gibson's story?  His vechicles are imagination,
metaphor, and allegory.  Mine unfortunately aren't.

Thursday, December 3, 2015


So who, what, when, where, and most importantly, why?  They used to be valid questions. 

Another question needs to be asked.  Who is this blog addressed to?  Who is likely to 
even pretend to read or believe any of it?  The answer is nada, NO ONE. 

The following is a Wiki entry regarding unwitting volunteer CIA Harvard programs 
of the 1950's.  IOW, a little context regarding what is now called "gang stalking" on 
countless bogus sites and You Tube channels which go far beyond even Eric Schmidt's 
troll farm quote on my opening page. 
  •   EDIT

    From the fall of 1959 through the spring of 1962, (Dr.) Murray was responsible 
    for the ethically questionable, CIA-sponsored MK ULTRA experiments in which twenty-two undergraduates were used as research subjects.[3][4] Among other purposes, Murray's experiments focused on measuring people's reactions under extreme stress. 
  • Unwitting undergraduates submitted to what Murray himself called "vehement, sweeping and personally abusive" attacks. Assaults to their egos, cherished ideas and beliefs were the vehicle used to cause high levels of stress and distress. Among them was 16-year-old Ted Kaczynski, who went on to become the Unabomber, a serial killer targeting academics and technologists. [5] Alston Chase's book Harvard and the Unabomber: The Education of an American Terrorist connects Kaczynski's abusive experiences under Murray to his later criminal career. Theodore John Kaczynski, was given the code name "Lawful".

The above was a CIA program, a footnote that might have been expanded beyond the
laboratory into campus life in the case of one, Ted Kaczynski with his 170 IQ.  Even if that
wasn't the case the above wording perfectly describes something that predates the CIA.  It
describes a systematic psychological waterboarding assault on the senses.  But not just by
the CIA.  Imagine the FSB version?

IOW, the above serves as an approximation of something that is not now and never was
confined to very intelligent but susceptible Harvard crash-test dummy undergraduate
guinnea pigs.  In the version I describe no human could be anything but susceptible
when subject to what is beyond my means of description.

IOW, an approximation of paranoia and madness.  I will attempt to provide the only 
"proof" that I am aware of which can barely be considered circumstantial.  When 
context is provided it might be slightly more than circumstantial.  It might provoke 
the question, "what the hell is going on here?"  If there's anyone left with enough 
curiosity to even ask. 

Wednesday, December 2, 2015


Stranger than fiction events comparable to scenes from the 1990
movie "Jacob's Ladder" minus combat related PTSD or the Hollywood
elements of demons, drugs, flashbacks, exploding cars and the contrived
cop-out "it was all a drug induced dream before death" depressing ending.
The lead character Jacob Singer (Tim Robbins) is a Jewish Army combat soldier in
Vietnam.  He is bayoneted in the stomach by one of his own men who were depicted
as being unwitting lab rats in a CIA drug experiment using something like BZ, an
hallucinatory aggression amplifying drug.  Jacob is found in the jungle with his
intestines outside his body.  Singer is still alive and taken by helicopter to a basecamp hospital.

The movie then picks up on what is supposed to be his post war civilian life.
In my view, all the scenes in this movie, all the flashbacks, everything hallucinatory
are depicted for a reason and meant to stand on their own loosely depicting iconic
metaphysical events that are timeless.

In 1985 I had "successful" sternum to pelvic bone resection surgery.  The operation was
five years before the movie.  I was in my late thirties.

Unlike the movie I latter experienced a 6 - 8 or 9 month marathon of total sleep deprivation
without stimulant prescription or street drugs while in my 60's.  Considered impossible and
as close as anyone wants to get to a living death.

At one point the movie shows a civilian Jacob Singer at a crowded NYC apartmentparty
mixing with friends of his then Hispanic girlfriend. He is awkward and has nothing in
common with them.  As shown in the trailer, he has his palm read during the party.  Singer experiences confusion and war flashbacks developing into a 106 fever.  His wife, played
by the late Elizabeth Peña, gets him into an ice bath to lower his body temperature.  The
shock sends him into delirium.  He blacks out and imagines himself with his Jewish ex-wife.
He tells his ex the bedroom they are in feels like 10 degrees mirroring the ice bath.

Here's how that translates:
In the 1970's I am invited to Brooklyn to "sleep" with a partly Jewish female I'd
been seeing who was always said to be "married."  Her open marital arrangement was
more than slightly unconventional.  My guess now would be she would get pregnant by a male
loosely defined as a "husband" and would then sleep with me in between pregnancies.
Her looks were the very opposite of the Pena movie character.

The Brooklyn apartment is normal at first and then in the middle of the AM feels to be
at least 10 degrees below.  She says the heat is turned off at night.  It is unnaturally cold.
When I try to touch her to warm up she is too hot to get close to.  She is burning up but
notices nothing wrong.  She is too young for hot flashes.  Her body heat was beyond
anything sexual or natural.  But considering what we just did it did serve a purpose.

Awake all night in the sub-freezing cold room I go to work the next morning and
of course see her "husband" coming from his night job.  We turn around at the same
time as we pass.  He probably knows what's going on but it is all made to seem like high
intrigue.  Like a movie.  The invitation, the room temperate, her temperature and the morning meeting was a contrived stupid arrangement designed to provoke guilt and confusion about
myself and the the woman I thought I knew.  I was the only one not in on the joke.

Tuesday, December 1, 2015


There are scenes in the movie of insidious crazed doctors with typically big needles.
Replaced in reality by "nice guy" smiling student dentists applying unneeded painful
injections into the chin cavity inside my lower gums.  Smiling Asian "student" dentist
knew I would yell out in a crowded clinic which I haven't done at the hands of dentists
since the sixth grade when I got minor cavities filled without painkiller.  Smiling Asian
student dentist denies everything.  Everyone stays in character except me.  I complain
and am switched to a female Asian dentist.  Her first words to me?  "Will you cooperate."

What I try and fail to describe above and below is all too similar to the shocks
depicted in post war civilian parts of the movie except that the reality is less dramatic.

Unlike Singer, I never got off at abandoned Bergen Street subway stations in Brooklyn.
Yet.  The people seen by Jacob in compressed scenes on subways are comparable to what I
see in encounters more numerous except that none include seeing homeless guys with tails
left out of some versions of the movie.

I did witness a fake subway fight with real people bouncing off seats inside a moving subway.
I was not involved but I could see the contrived desperation of it unfolding in front of me.
That's an example of odd events I see every time I use the subways of NYC.  Imagination,
mood, paranoia or drugs play little to no part.  But...

...Jacob experiences one visual shock after another.  This extends to the physical as he
is abducted by three men in a moving auto that he escapes only to have his wallet and ID
picked after he hits the ground by a guy in a Santa Klaus suit and beard waving his
bell for donations.  When asked what happened to his ID at a hospital ER he admits
that "Santa Klaus took it" confirming the movie doctors idea of someone insane.  When
wheeled on a gurney through hospital winding corridors the audience and Jacob sees his
someone resembling his ex-wife curled up on the hospital floor.  See's his chiropractor
vaguely behind a glazed window.  His girlfriend Jessie is one of the nurses.  This is seen
to be the result of a concussion received in the speeding car but, as mentioned previously, also representing something else.  Similar disjointed events not so dramatic happen routinely in
the real life version.  The fact that none of it answers to logic soon becomes beside the point.

An analagous event happened at one point in April of 2014.  I am pined to the floor of a Soho
bar around 4PM after being asked to leave for no apparent reason.  I offered but wasn't given
the chance to pay my bill.  There was no trouble, no inebriation in a near empty bar.
A knee to the back of my leg sends me to the ground with a guy for each leg and one with
his knee to my chest while holding down my arms.  He knows his knee is stopping me from
breathing and talking normally.  While down I manage to call him a moron.  I am cuffed,
ID is taken and returned.  No name tag, no police ID is shown, I am uncuffed.  An ambulance
arrives and drives me to to Presbyterian Hospital admittance across town.  The only people I
see are uncomprehending blank-faced security.  I sit down, I walk out after 30 seconds.
No blow to the head, no Santa Klaus characters, no missing ID.

No medical procedures, no blood pressure taken but the Presbyterian Hospital ambulance
bills my insurance for over a thousand dollars.  Routine fraud is the least of it.  I consider
challenging the claim.  I go back to the bar and a different bartender.  And who is going
to believe this story even with witnesses.  Nada, no one.

Sunday, November 29, 2015


The opening still looks like Robert Pattinson looking at a fellow vampire:

On my last day at work in 2005 a 6' 4" black on the fat side co-
worker made a point of telling me that I would find out what it was
like to be among "daytime people."  Slackers, stoners, hipsters,
unemployed, students, or, like me, retired.  I won't insult any of
the above by comparing them with what is described here except
for the "hipster" brigade who are the convoluted exception to everything. 

As if I had the extreme audacity to retire after working seventy hour weeks at two
jobs for twenty years with nothing but time and age to show for it.  I went from
70 hour work weeks to zero.

My attempt in describing the completely unnerving, "peripheral" human++ types sounds
straight out of a horror movie or something from a demented central casting call for Marvel
unitards.  I would say straight out of Comedy Central because that is exactly what this sounds
like.  Except the above two plus marks after the word human are completely applicable
accurate and not as a compliment.

Everything described in this blog does and doesn't originate in any particular time or country.
Manifesting in the 1960's - 1980's in the following ways: I had no idea at the time but I suspect, without proof, that "new age" groups like Macrobiotics, Bioenergetics, Sri Chinmoy, Bubba
Free John, Integral Yoga and many other so-called alternative eastern and western groups were completely serious as far as their stated intentions and completely rigged after certain points.

By who?  Not the FBI who were probably there reporting to J. Edgar's successor on what
might be considered by them to be potential foreign subversive infiltration.  The groups
themselves didn't care and probably got a bunch of laughs over who the designated G-Man was.

These alternative groups had excellent PR depending on the image they wanted projected.
From Franklin Jones' and his "miracles" and bad-boy reported orgies which were likely
faked or contrived for the sake of rumor.  Or relatively conservative East-Indian mediation
teachers seemingly following unwritten scripts of prescribing celebracy until, one after the other,
getting "caught" seducing female followers. We're these deliberately self-provoked falls from "enlightened grace" as an offset to being objects of worship and fame?  Deliberately arranged
and welcomed fake PR both positive and negative?

IMO, many people, religious leaders like Fr. Marcial Maciel, celebrities like Mel Gibson manufactured deliberate public humiliation under the guise of sex, mental illness, substance
abuse or all three.  Right after he, Gibson, makes a billion dollars depicting the Crucifixion
of Christ a series of incidents are blamed on alcohol, "the Joos" or a bipolar condition.
Was he actually DWI?  Yes.  Involved with porn actresses?  Most likely yes.  All real and all
faked and it doesn't really matter in his case.  Public disgrace is considered a badge of honor
and something to actually strive for in some religious quarters.  Like his for instance.  Like
the Catholic Church for instance.  He just happens to be fundamentalist Catholic.  Which
goes back to my impressions of the movie "Spotlight" with the depicted older defrocked priest.

Saturday, November 28, 2015





More extremely tall people of both sexes than I or anyone (not as tall as the videos) does not
usually qualify for mention.  I'm six foot and not considered short or tall.  In the middle as usual.  Each generation gets taller but what I see is over and above.

I briefly spoke to a woman at the Chelsea Market who looked to be in her 70's, easily over
6' 4" who looked to be related to another woman of average height I worked with and went
with after 911.  The older version who denied she had a daughter, was the only one I can
remember in that age group of that height which means, of course, it happens and who cares?
Except that...

...extreme height is but one example of what happens when extremes of every kind 
are made to become routine across age groups, genders, races,  nations, geography.

And it will be said, "well, of course, tall people stand out and are noticed and so what?"

I spoke about all the extremely tall women I was seeing with my sister in late 2015.  On the
first day of her arrival in NYC we met in an Irish bar close to 34th Street on 8th Ave.  A tall
Mav's Cantina transvestite drew fake whistles from the crowded bar.  On her last day in town
a woman entered the restaurant where we were eating who had to be as tall as anything in the
above video.  My sister's jaw dropped in amazement at the sight of a 6' 11" female in a three
piece pants suit and tie.

*Many of those I am trying to describe seem to eat little, sleep little and have no particular
interest in sex apart from procreation unless called upon to take on an outrageous outdated
compulsive 1980's punkish, sexually suggestive or ambiguous appearance.  One extreme to
another.  Contrived appearances, contrived outrageousness, contrived gender ambiguity.

*Whether street people with over-amped musculature, so-called hipster
types covered with tattoos, looking completely wrong or perfectly uniformed
down to off center or backwards rally caps, long beards and man-buns growing
in the opposite direction, or one-sided shaved head skinhead prison chic is now street style.
This isn't a normal generational change but that's what it tries to seem like.

*Conversly, obsessive cleanliness might also be a common factor.  With little sleep
the immune system might suffer otherwise and it is considered to be next to godliness.

*A contrived overly polite manner is used to counter any gross weirdness
in appearance such as bleached white hair on both sexes or black dyed and yellow
tipped hair or dyed blond beards on brown skinned males.  How many guys are
going to want to maintain dyed hair past their teens?  Too many.

*Behavoral opposite extremes: Blindside bumping or grappling one minute
like something from "Fight Club."  Holding doors and smiling excessively
like Jim Carrey from "The Truman Show" waving in faux friendliness,
"Have a good day, and if I don't see ya, have a good afternoon, evening and night too"
(Ah hah, you knew it, a simple case of "Truman Show Delusion Syndrome" a media
driven paranoid variation of "Jumping Horsemen of the Maine Syndrome." Or the
imagined audience could just make something up)

Passive aggressiveness on parade, in extremis and nobody notices.  No one left
to notice.  I saw the actor Benjamin Cumberbatch with his hair completely grey
walking his dog on 23rd Street.  No one else even pretended to look twice which
means I seem to be playing the part of Truman Burbank in New Haven, Chelsea, NYC.

* 2011 - 2015, too many caucasian women speaking in overly polite exaggerated pretty please
Valley Girl "up-talk" in NYC while fishing in their pocketbooks for their wallets to count
out exact change along with clipped tones of "yeah yeh".  Common enough and considered
a sign of...something lady-like back in the day.  Way back.

* For a couple of years guys took on a deliberately fake vocal fry, mission control
exaggerated macho laughable speech pattern...

....or else the opposite extreme, gay effeminacy over and above any Google IT, gay
or nerd stereotype.  A rehearsed nonstop standup comedy act seen for a few months
and then replaced by something else going from dumb to_____.

*Women that I went with in the early 2000's once made a point of licking pasta sauce
off the plate in a restaurant.  Another would put a bare hand into a restaurant buffet.
Or wearing big cleverge in twenty degree weather.  With the same person covered
minus burka in 80+ degrees.  Contrived public sex when a nearby house or
apartment was available.  I was always the one to question it, "hey look, is that
guy staring?"  The unlikely and overly casual answer from the girl, "who cares."
(It was a test of character.  I was supposed to delay gratification and "do the right thing.")

IOW, these relationships were a mix of normal behavior with rare contrived
disruptive behavior.  The unstated multiple messages from these women: "I have
no need to operate as you do."  "I am beyond disruptive, crazy, average or normal".
"Sex?  Take it or leave it, but once I compulsively start in don't try to stop me."
"Don't get attached.  I will make sure that you do."  "If you question anything
I might even deny who I am."

They weren't working for any deep dark government agency, no getting paid in bitcoins
or any other physical currency.  None of the above was the result of anger, mood change,
hot flashes, menopause, eccentricity, a joke, self hate, psychopathy, deficits of intelligence
or my imagination.  None of the DSM or psych-boilerplate cliches apply.

*A kind of routine hyperactivity (Hyper++) .  As a guess, not being in constant motion
and constantly busy invites some kind of automatic direct or indirect negative feedback.
Something like in the Disney movie "Tomorrowland" where too many nuanced questions
resulted in a pretend "machine shutdown" to stop the line of questioning.
* Big on non-traditional careers, music, art, entertainment, acting, meditation and
at the same time....
* Big on lying and deceit exceeding even psychopathic compulsivity.  The more you
engage them directly the more they are compelled to lie.
* Fluency in fighting and martial arts.  Each female makes at least an attempt at picking a fight.
* Acting, improvisation, PR, propaganda and a speaking in tongues gibberish mixed
with actual language.  Overheard overly loud conversations are either in a foreign tongue or as
if a language module is activated in fast forwarded.
* A synchronized smart mobbing plays out before your disbelieving eyes.
* Very big on "Dia De Los Muertos" skull tattoos and imagery on shirts and hats.
* They make their own or buy cheap wild, flamboyant or nondescript clothes.
One extreme to the another.  Compulsive disruption on steroids.
* Women make a point to greet each other in OMG, oh my God exaggerated greeting more
often than would be considered too often.  Gay and straight couples engage in porno kissing
and hugging over and above the usual and make a point of making it look completely put-on fake.

Reasonable people might see this as typical of certain people and not any kind of
meaningful smoking gun.  Or might see it as jealous dirty old man talk combined
with Truman/ Schreber Show paranoia.  

* Something like a Maxwell Smart depressing "cone of silence" negative zero point
"dead air" effect is felt on occasion.  Like the expression of oxygen being sucked out of a room.  When with certain females I used to feel the opposite effect.  Like the brain coming into sharp zero
point focus.

* Spastic penguin walk, addicted street people (Scarecrow) dreadlocked, tattooed,
homeless, begging, flamboyant hipster road warrior K-2 users stretched out on the street
strung out on the newer replacements for heroine or pain killer derivatives.  This is in
Manhattan and not just under L trains in Brooklyn as reported in the Times.

* Grossly over developed over-amped military types (Tin Men) with arms and chests so
large (like upright "Ex-Machina" turkeys) they are forced to move or pretend to move in
exaggerate marching styles usually by themselves.  As of mid-year 2016 a more
conservative buff/ cut look complete with tapered shirt has been uniformly added to the mix.
It will revert back later on.

Seen and encountered until replaced by something equally monotonous and monstrous.
Repulsive not in kind but in frequency.  Visual psychological waterboarding both
in variety and monotony.  Quite an accomplishment.

Nothing that I see in public is as it should be but, at the same time, nothing looks
flagrantly out of sync to non-existent casual observers.  All can be seen as classic ______
(fill in the symptomatic blanks) or just crotchety dementia, evident lack of insight...
DSM language of convenience sounding more comical than what is being described.

This has nothing to do with objectifying "the other" or "people who don't look like me."
I don't need or want everyone to look like me, like Jim Carrey or like my overachieving opposite, Donald Trump, the Lying King with the saffron spray-on hair and tan.

Wednesday, November 25, 2015


The occupants of Mav's Cantina like migrating rats.

In a live video Don McLean dedicated the song below to all those living in NYC full-time.

The perfect intro to:
* Extreme man-made climate change across the earth. 
* Extreme displacement of nine simultaneous Islamic civil wars.
* Extreme right wing resurgent politics worldwide w/ Trump birtherism as the very least of it.
Millions of displaced flowing into Western and Easten Europe and the Americas. 
* Extreme economic volatility from the Great Recession of 2008 to the collapse of oil to Brexit. 
* Extreme contrived nativist RW rhetoric combined with 6' 8" Tatooine humanoids gay and straight out of Mav's Cantina. 

Now what is all this "nonsense" about extreme height?
I don't see 6' 5" women every time I go out.  But close to it.  Are they all models, college
or pro athletes?  Nephilim?  Is that the next stupid thought in the progression of extremes?
There are internet sites and videos about "sons of God" and "daughters of men" existing
before Noah referenced not just on biblical sites but on hundreds of rigged bogus blogs and 
videos whose fake presentation is deliberately provocative and where the terms "Reptilians" 
and "ancient space aliens" are repeated over and over to convince those not in on the joke that 
the internet is teaming with dumb people and delusional nutjobs. 

A few are...nuts that is.  A few videos are by and for the insane but the majority of fringe
sites and channels are by people (or algorithm) who are the opposite of insane.
If it was just a hundred sites or channels no one including me would care.  The same
troll farms likely also account for toxic internet trolling and threats directed at women
always blamed on male gaming fanatics of all ages.

And are the videos, forums and blogs on the subjects of mind control and so-called
"targeted individuals", chemtrails, aliens, financial and Fukushima eschatological
end-times-all-the-time all by the same few loosely defined troll farm networks
with the same motive?  No, not all.  The vast majority.

Am I am telling my nonexistent readers that there is something wrong that goes slightly
beyond my personal projections of what people should look like, think like or what
should and should not be?  Since there's no one out there it makes not a bit of diff.

Besides being a retired, lazy, 6' aging boomer who *of course* looks to be a 40 - 50
grey haired albino of average health, no medication, no nose rings or ponytails, no
shaved head, dreads, beard, drugs, addictions, tattoos or man buns.  Pretty dull and
nothing in common with humanoids who look straight out of the meth amphetamined
"Mad Max" future or the "Mad Men" past, ie: the walking monument office staff.
Which seems to be their point.  There is no future because it's literally always
Apocalypse Now!  At least for them.

All dressed up and nowhere to go...
And There's Always Room For Just One More:

All the negatives in the last paragraph are constants of visual extremes experienced day 
in and day out far in excess of what should be characteristic of my or any average big 
city mixed neighborhood.  It could be said that this blog could be an advert for Daniel Schreber-like only little boy in New York delusions or imaginings, projecting or coping 
with the disruptions of changing generations, times, styles and attitudes.  Some of that 
is true just like the 1960's were a shock for my father.  It was then and is now much more. 

I can take more than occasional crowds, loud music, differences and disruptions that are part of
or exceed the average persons day to day experience.  What I am describing is "unpossible"
except that nothing written about here can be considered in any way exceptional.  Except by me,
a left behind kind of guy, who still can't believe his lying eyes and was not invited to the party.

I am describing NYC in a time warp looking more and more like the NYC of the 1980's without
the drug related crime.  Yet.  The city is becoming a dead zone, an overcrowded graveyard or deadman's party reflective of things Oingo Boingo berzerk that are part of and apart from global events.  Disruptions not accounted for by official or unofficial U-6 unemployment or displaced migrants.

This particular cycle is mirrored in TV and movie entertainment industry (Gotham, Star Wars,
Walking Dead) but never openly acknowledged except as indicated on sites made intentionally
to be ridiculous.  Lies designed to uphold a concensual illusion that wants to be confined to
paintings like "The Scream."  Der Schrei Der Natur or The Scream of Nature in Dutch
resonates somewhat with the scream made by Judge Daniel Paul Schreber who had his
famous 1st psychotic "episode" in 1893, the same year as the Munch painting.  Sometimes I
feel like I'm the "other", the alien or "That guy" much like Munch's sister.

"A screaming comes across the sky. It has happened before, but there is nothing to compare it to now." ...Thomas Pynchon, Gravity's Rainbow. 

Friday, November 20, 2015


Not to change the subject but a New Yorker Václav Havel article struck a chord with me.áclav_Havel

Mr. H., Czeck President, Vaclav Havel in 1990 accepting an honorary degree at Hebrew 
University and comparing his experiences to Mr. K, Franz Kafka.

"One of them is a profound, banal, and therefore utterly vague sensation of culpability, as though my very existence were a kind of sin.  Then there is a powerful feeling of general alienation, both my own and relating to everything around me, that helps to create such feelings; an experience of unbearable oppressiveness, a need constantly to explain myself to someone, to defend myself, a longing for an unattainable order of things, a longing that increases as the terrain I walk through becomes more muddled and confusing."

About the only thing I have in common with Vaclav Havel is that my
last name also begins with H and otherwise nothing in this blog compares
to what what he experienced in prison before the Prague Spring in the
freeing of Czechoslovakia from the Warsaw Pact USSR.

I can easily go from Havel, Kafka and the Prague Spring to Orwell.

Double Plus Un-Good: (Orwellian reverse news-speak now describing the two legged
bad guys who run this horror show with some help from their "friends") 
I used to be very smug and very sure that my version of things was "right".
There have always been mentally ill people who believe they are victimized by
whoever he or she believes the enemy or "They" happen to be.  Everything in this blog
can be interpreted in that light.  Understandable but incorrect.  I was completely wrong
in my assumptions and no one could tell me otherwise.

DIRECT EXPERIENCE ON THE RECEIVING END beginning in 1994 and becoming
much more aggressive after 2001which many would contrive to say is some kind of
911 PTSD or some such nonsense.  The following will include the cringeworthy but
accurate explanation as to the source of all that I'm describing.  And no, it has nothing
to do with government or contractor conspiracies.  Any references to same are done for
the sake of context if not clarity.

1) E-distorted scream sound effect from outside my apartment followed by
verbal and multiple pulsed frequency sound combinations inducing nausea,
skin heating, racing heart, stim vibrations felt in the kidney adrenals, angina,
and total sleep deprivation for 3/4 of a year and the resulting temporary arthritis
and painful upper back and neck physical side effects.
These are and are not experimemts.  Sleep deprivation for this amount of time,
normally impossible, is made to be very routine which means keeping a person
alive and totally sleepless for 3/4 of a year doesn't seem to present much of a
problem for those hiding behind the decisive asset, as Martin Ames would say,
of being beyond belief.

New methods are likely added in pursuit of absolute overwhelming
intimidation, domination and control as if always in a constant
state of war implementing learned helplessness with and w/o physical
contact.  No evidence is apparent, all complaints are dismissed.

Pulsed multi-frequency combinations are invasive, invisible, leave no
incriminating marks and yet are capable of "touching" and causing
extreme physical pain, nausea, heating of the skin or racing heart chest
pain causing the person to keel over.  The latter are all consigned to tactile
hallucinations or "anxiety attacks."  Nothing was wrong with my heart.
Also no government plot, no technology or invisible microwave DEW beams.

2) People on the receiving end of sleep deprivation are kept alive and relatively
healthy in a kind of functional half-life fog.  Involuntary sleep deprivation and
disruption via verbiage, sound effects (the old ceiling rapping of horror movies, 
slamming doors and scrapping chairs) focused sound frequencies stimulating or 
depressing major organs, modulating blood flow, sex drive and those famous 
Strangelovian "precious body fluids."

3) During that 3/4 of a year sleepless marathon the only external obvious
differences in the immediate home environment besides those mentioned
are a mild external aerosol chemical smell that probably had stimulant
effects and also an almost constant hissing white-noise-like sound both
in the ears (blood flow due to contracted blood vesicles?) and, at times,
projected into the surrounding apartment space reaching a crescendo
effect around the sleepless endpoint after approximately nine months
and the start of another round of sleep disruption.
This occurs in the person's own living space which was and still is more of an
virtual (v)-prison than a place to live.

4) No third party or doctor can distinguish any of this from classic delusion.
At the mere mention of "hearing voices" doctors can't be blamed for prescribing
useless (in this case) anti-psychotic drugs because even the individual on the
receiving end has no conception, reason or experience to know what's behind any of this.
The person will believe what they are told, that they are psychotic and proceed to be
compliant in taking useless prescriptions.  Lately the mental health profession
see's psychosis on a functional to dysfunctional spectrum.  This is considered
something of a breakthrough in the mental health field.  Breakthrough's are in short
supply but millions of research papers keep pouring forth.

Most people who experience intractable delusion and hallucinations also experience
sleep deprivation and believe, usually wrongfully, that they are the victims of externally
sourced plots.  Everything described here can be met with looks of fake concern
combined with the usual slow shaking of the head, as in, "whoops, there's always
room for one more comedian on the funny farm."

After the months of sleeplessness I assumed, wrongly, that I had a psychotic
break leading to auditory hallucinations and sleeplessness.  It took me years,
and increased sleep, to see things differently.  This can be seen as an attempt
to talk myself out of and change inconvenient reality except for the fact that
I will mention details that are difficult to imagine, copy, contrive or make up.

I can't prove I was completely awake for 3/4 of a year.  A typical response,
"I guess not, staying awake that long is impossible anyway?"  Or "you had to
have been on drugs and forgotten that you slept for brief periods."  Or ,"What's
that? You're being hit by invisible rays by invisible men?  Golly, that's too bad.
Check out some of Schreber's Thorazine flavored Kool-Aid for speedy relief."

(In Schreber's day it was opium and fresh air physical fitness for overworked judges)

All kinds of scenarios can be implied or imagined: Street or prescription stimulants?
Persecution complexes along with a desperate need for attention?  Making the whole
thing up or mixing select truth and fantasy, or, or, or anything but what I'm saying.
Convenient understandable automatic default settings that people always fall back
on because what is being said is inconvenient, repellent, or hilariously dumb sounding.
Or just simply impossible.

Total sleeplessness conveniently hinders awareness of what should be obvious.
What proves eventually to be so obvious is an insidious non-imagined 24/7 remote
metaphysical neural hack interference in every aspect of waking and sleeping life.

("What's that you say, metaphysical what?  From victim to mystic.  Where have
we heard that before?")

The above manifested more aggressively in my case around 2002 some months after 911,
while in my fifties.  But was also a continuation of a slightly more subdued series of
personal events starting in 1993-4 coincidentally after the first WTC attack.  There is
no apparent connection and if any exists it is again way past my pay grade.

The more accurate my description of all this the less credible it sounds.  So I should
stop digging the hole deeper, right?  Nope, I'm in over my head and no matter how hard
I dig the hole stays at the same depth.  The level of experience stays the same.  Terrible.

Thursday, November 19, 2015


(always projected into "the future")


Photo: Joint Base Lewis McChord / Flickr


"IT’S BEEN FASHIONABLE in military circles to talk about cyberspace as a “fifth domain” for warfare, along with land, space, air and sea. But there’s a sixth and arguably more important warfighting domain emerging: the human brain."

This new battlespace is not just about influencing hearts and minds
with people seeking truth about this final of frontiers. It’s about 
involuntarily penetrating, shaping, and coercing the mind in the ultimate 
realization of Clausewitz’s definition of war: compelling an adversary to 
submit to one’s will. 
"And the most powerful tool in this war is brain-computer interface (BCI) 
technologies, which connect the human brain to robotic systems."

"Where BCIs can provide opportunities for injured or disabled soldiers 
to remain on active duty post injury, enable paralyzed individuals to 
use their brain to type, or allow amputees to feel using bionic limbs
they can also be exploited if hacked. BCIs can be used to manipulate 
or kill for security or humanitarian purposes, the reality is that 
misapplication of such research and technology has significant 
implications for the future of warfare."

"Recently, security expert Barnaby Jack demonstrated the vulnerability of
biotechnological systems by highlighting how easily pacemakers and implantable 
cardioverter-defibrillators (ICDs) could be hacked, raising fears about the 
susceptibility of even life-saving biotechnological implants. This vulnerability 
could easily be extended to biotechnologies that connect directly to the brain,
such as vagus nerve stimulation or deep-brain stimulation."
(Security expert Barnaby Jack died in 2013)

"Outside the body, recent experiments have proven that the brain can control and maneuver quadcopter drones and metal exoskeletons. How long before we harness the power of mind-controlled weaponized drones – or use BCIs to enhance the power, efficiency, and sheer 
lethality of our soldiers?"
The Wired article is not just posing these facts for the sake of drama. 
It is asking the reader to just use some inference, some imagination as to the
actual possibilities.  Methods that resemble what was thought to be
something akin to "magic" but is not.

In reality there is no compunction about doing involuntary psychological
experimentation on civilians.  Unless caught all of it is sanctioned and winked at
as no big deal.

The average smug individual like I used to be has little to worry about except getting
all angry at NSA spy overreach on one hand and if we are attacked again getting
understandably angry about that.  The media feels entitled to exploit each in isolation
as if one has nothing to do with the other.  Bounced back and forth by our mainstream
and so-called alternative media, between privacy and security with one political
party having a near monopoly on the manipulation and exploitation of fear and
doom perpetual war at home and abroad.  I don't have to mention the name.
This is the party of endless financial and religious endtime all the time disruption.
The lefty unimagined rapture of the nerds global warming and climate change
disasters in the making don't compare. When combined the effect is similar.