Friday, April 15, 2016


Who is trying to take down the internet?  From the above link:
Over the past year or two, someone has been probing the defenses of the companies that 
run critical pieces of the Internet. These probes take the form of precisely calibrated attacks 
designed to determine exactly how well these companies can defend themselves, and what 
would be required to take them down. We don't know who is doing this, but it feels like a 
large a large nation state. China and Russia would be my first guesses...Bruce Schneier, 
security technologist, author, Schneier On Security blogger. Sept. 2016

The Paranoid Style As "Weaponized Disinformation":
In fact, the idea of the paranoid style as a force in politics would have little 
contemporary relevance or historical value if it were applied only to men with 
profoundly disturbed minds.  It is the use of paranoid modes of expression by more 
or less normal people that makes the phenomenon significant."...The Paranoid Style in American Politics”, historian Richard Hofstadter, 1964

NY Times, 9/7/16 - OXFORD, England — Defense Secretary Ashton B. Carter lashed 
out at Russia on Wednesday, accusing the government of President Vladimir V. Putin of demonstrating a “clear ambition to erode” international order and warning Russia to stay 
out of the American elections.

Paranoid Style On Steroids: 
"The documents were posted online by a group called the Anonymous International, the source for an earlier leak BuzzFeed wrote about Monday."
"In a report dated May 21, Internet Research Agency commercial director Svetlana
Boiko discussed the progress of the trolling project’s $75,000 trial period, which
began April 10. The report says that during that period, the trolls left more than
2,500 comments on 30 different news websites, tweeted 1,220 times from 12 accounts, wrote 85 Facebook posts, posted 175 times in an unspecified number of forums, and made five bizarre YouTube videos attacking the U.S. government."

(2013 was just around the time when I first saw the same thing happening on You Tube) 

Bizarre YT videos attacking U.S.?  IOW, deliberately made to be seen as bizarre.
Deliberately using "bizarre" "paranoid modes of expression" as a means of spreading disinformation by people who are in this instance Psy-Ops pros.  Making up for obviously bizarre content presented by play actor narrators (often with British accents) with volume
and shear numbers of videos.  Thousands of paranoid YT channels with many more fake supporting comments made to be seen as delusional and as whacked out as possible. 
Thousands of blogs, fake forums and websites jamming up the thing that challenges 
Putin's state sponsored RT news and local control. 
"Russia’s campaign to shape international opinion around its invasion of
Ukraine has extended to recruiting and training a new cadre of online
trolls that have been deployed to spread the Kremlin’s message on the
comments section of top American websites."  (Not to mention YT videos
and comments)

"Plans attached to emails leaked by a mysterious Russian hacker collective 
show IT managers reporting on a new ideological front against the West in the comments sections of Fox News, Huffington Post, The Blaze, Politico, and WorldNetDaily."

"The bizarre hive of social media activity appears to be part of a 
two-pronged Kremlin campaign to claim control over the internet, launching a million-dollar army of trolls to mold American public opinion as it cracks down on internet freedom at home."
Not to mention influencing the 2016 elections with or without help from
Putin admirer, Republican presidential candidate Donald Trump.  The loyal "patriot" who led the birther movement for 5 years trying to humiliate his own
President while admiring and praising Vladimir Putin.  None dare call it
treason especially when name Republicans Giuliani and Pat Buchanan have
done the same.

Disinformation soft news and comments on YT videos and on HuffPo
comment sections are the least of new Cold War blizzard of lies tactics.
They are way down in terms of importance.  Hacking large corporations,
banks, candidate emails, auto truck OS, key voting machines, power grids,
the internet itself are the least of it.  The NYC explosions on 23rd Street
three blocks from where I live might be a prelude to something worse as the
Nov. 3rd election approaches...or not.  Donald Trump and parts of his
Republican base are watching and hoping with clenched jaws.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016


The most important question regarding the claims in my first post is why?  Simply to
manufacture doubt and distrust in facts, logic, nuance, governments, reality itself
and to make sure erosion seeps into so-called mainstream politics and culture.
Just look at what passes for populist right wing politics in the U.S.?  Meanwhile...

...the following video by Mr. K, Dr. Michio Kaku does not fit that category.

After land, sea, air, the internet and space, there is another final frontier, another domain of contention and warfare.  The sixth domain, the human brain and the control of same.   

Cognitive dissonance however is hard to avoid.  Proof of claim hard to come by.  
The experts precede me.  As in...

...thousands of bogus fear and doom disinformation videos and websites 
pretending to expose government sponsored mind control that all but stand 
on their heads to tell viewers that all these channels, sites, blogs are made by 
either paid or volunteer Psy-Ops contractors imitating paranoia, delusion 
and "Big Brother" doublethink.  As for the sanity of those behind the above 
channels?  I refer to the opening Richard Hoffstader quote that can be cherry
picked by people trying too hard to prove a point.  Or maybe not trying hard 
enough.   Hoffstader's Paranoid Style is not confined to American right wing politics.

That various "mind control", gangstalking fear and doom websites are made by fake PR
salesmen/ play-actors runs counter to Doctor Vaughan Bell and the NY Times link below.
IMO, only a few of these sites originate with the mentally ill.  But how do I know that?
Is it always a good idea for media friendly professionals like Dr. Bell to come to the easy
conclusion that all these videos are to be dismissed as made by and for paranoids and or
those with delusion and nothing more?  Yes it is.  To say otherwise would be professional
suicide and public humiliation.

He would say I'm projecting or seeing what I want to see.  Or that this blog is merely a
lefty meta conspiracy theory of conspiracy theories.  I say I'm seeing these internet
bogus sites for what they are and not for what they pretend to be.  But that implies
they're all operating in concert.  Which logically puts me in the category Dr. Bell
talks about.  That I'm merely misinformed or just another delusional projecting
misinformation on others.  This blog is far from just another lefty delusional DSM
cliché.  Famous last words.  Unfortunately they aren't my last words on the subject.

Of course the videos in question promote the very thing they pretend to be against.
IOW, videos and blogs pretending to be fighting mind control are in themselves the purest
form of mind control via repetition and shear numbers of videos, comments, sites, blogs, forums.

These aren't, IMO, the mentally ill imitating each other.  These are pretenders who
are the opposite of mentally ill.  They use the same fear and doom style as the very sane
westerners mentioned in the paragraph below who act in the name of the American and
European fringe radical right wing while pretending to be beyond political or ideological
binary constructs of right and left.  That tact comes in handy and allows them the room to
make outrageous claims on the level of The National Enquirer without it reflecting on
the right wing worldwide or Republican establishments in the U.S.

But what I am saying implies the impossible or unpossible.  IOW, this blog is often as
cognitively dissonant as the videos and people I criticize.  Are the following just people
who hold different views and opinions of the world from my own?  Am I blind to and
impugning the motivations of others who hold honestly held opinions that differ from
my own without providing proof?

Never underestimate the power of political PR even from strident pretend fools like
Alex "Skull and Bones" Jones and his European counterpart, David (We dislike) Icke who,
in terms of credibility, are, along with You Tube internet radio troll farm salesmen
pretending to deliver "alternative" right "news the government doesn't want you to know"
one step below the National Enquirer.  One step "up" from the Trump friendly Nat'l Enquirer
would be Glenn Beck and The Blaze, WorldNetDaily, Breitbart, Drudge, RW talk radio
and Fox "News."

These are not just opinions that disagree with my own.  If you have a political lie
machine as powerful and rich as the Republican Party you automatically generate
extreme outliers to prop up the mainstream and vice versa.   Pretty soon the outliers
through shear manic fanatic energy become the mainstream.  How many actually
believe their own nonsense?  How many are in on the joke that is their extreme ideology?
Doesn't matter.  All they have to do is keep repeating and the repeating makes it true.
And the right has my counterpart contriving a right wing Alex Jones right wing version
of Orwell's 1984 and probably doing a better job.  Almost exceeding themselves in
"blizzard of lies" desperation.  Going on about this excessively is surely where madness lies.
And on I go.

Wednesday, December 9, 2015


Secret and commercialized sound weapon systems go by benign as well as provocative science fiction names like Remote Neural Monitoring and Influence", "Voice of God" and V2k or Voice To Skull used on disinformation sites and videos.  That's not including the more officious military lingo.
("Monitoring" and "influence?  How PR passive aggressive can you get?)

Names and acronyms for commercially supposedly available sound weapons: Magnetic Audio Device, or MAD, and Sound Commander, Hyperspike, Banshee II, Sonic Nausea, Sonic
Devastator, the Inferno Intenso, (Intenso what? I would fire that PR person)

The Shout, the Shriek, the Scream (used by Israel since 2004) induces nausea and dizziness. In combining two low frequencies "knees buckle, the brain aches, the stomach turns...", (oh yes, yes, I'll have what she's having, give me more), the SHOFAR (by the Israeli EORD - "non-lethal" high-power acoustic radiator with 36 acoustic boxes functioning in phase to reach a claimed amplitude of 128 bD at 50 meters), The MOSQUITO by the British company Compound Security Systems (CSS). Under the name of Beethoven you can get "a sound that softens behavior" (said the website slogan before it disappeared).   

Claims on corporate websites are always said to be exaggerated never resulting in working real world technology. They do provide an idea as to possibilities.  Old news and also mostly meaningless for the average person like the supposedly serious book on sound weapons called "Extremely Loud." Serious until checking their bogus Comedy Central type websites. 

This video below is a Democracy Now commentary on G-20 demonstrations in Pittsburg.  From my POV both sides, the police with their big deal military trucks and crowd dispersal equipment as well as political theater from what's left of the left are pretty sad.  Like one feeding off the other.  Almost like Orwell's 1984 where Big Brother creates his own "underground" opposition and proceeded to attack his own creation.

Bob Dylan used to describe "hippies" walking on the roof of his house in Woodstock.
If he was telling the truth at all there were likely no hippies, no fanatics walking on his roof and it probably wasn't a jazz cigarette induced paranoid auditory hallucination either.  It is likely he did hear sounds coming from the direction of his roof.

How about indulging in some conspiracy. Dylan's wife at that time was named Sara.  A contractor in the field of directed sound weaponry is Scientific Applications and Research Association or SARA Inc.  The implications however meaningless are most likely true.  Dylan was likely hearing a base sound mimicking boots walking on his roof among other simulated common sounds.  The crooked music industry?  Government or police harassment using early stage sound technology?  Possibly.  Or something much stupider
and at the same time more real and much more insidious.

Sunday, December 6, 2015


The female reporter in the excellent movie Spotlight briefly interviewes an accused former
priest named Father Panquin.  Panquin calmly admits everything he was accused of.  The
depicted aging priest claims he got no pleasure from multiple molestations.  Before he
was stopped from talking further he matter of factly and mechanically mentions that he
was also raped when young.  And what does that scene and this topic have to do with anything?

Why was this scene specifically included in the movie?  What was being said?  Was it merely
dramatic Hollywood provocation describing an unofficial method of recruitment?  The Church's
molestation syndrome certainly went beyond the availability of stimulant drugs like pot, meth
amphetamines and cocaine.  Beyond suppressed sexuality and dumb occult-like mechanical
methods of recruiting future priests.

The Catholic Church as everyone knows reached unprecedented riches in post emigrant
America.  Enter a self-imposed karmic wheel that included reporters, lawyers and the
institution itself.

The Catholic Church under Pope Francis is still very formidable as it should be.  Pope Francis
has reported that his will be a short rein due to health problems.  The previous Pope, Pope
Benedict, was acting as Pope long before his formal election.  Conservatives are unfortunately
still very much still in control.

I had a talk with a dying priest, Father Philip around 2009.  In response to my then feeble
questions about the Knights of Columbus he said the following regarding real world
methods used by the bagmen of the Catholic Church, the people who make the real
estate deals and magically come up with large sums when needed.  Here was his response
as a veteran priest: "They have their own agenda that is not part of any religion."  Was
this priest talk to pacify me?  Was he medicated or sick?

Some weeks later in one of his last sermons this priest sounded very much in control saying,
"watch out for those who value piety over people."  IOW, watch out for ultra-orthodox
regardless of faith or ideology.  Islamic or Christian.  Pius X, Pastor John Hagee or
Messianic Zionists.

Conservative defenders to the death of the Catholic Church haven't seen their day come and go
with the emergence of Pope Francis.  Just the opposite.  As always they see themselves as being vindicated and redeemed.  Conservatives in the U.S. now count themselves as among the
persecuted.  Persecuted by whom?  They are persecuted and offended by everything including
the so-called homosexual agenda and resulting workplace discrimination in academia and elsewhere.

In summery, public ridicule has always been seen by the religious as a badge of honor.  
The Church isn't the only one operating in this mode.  In other sections I go into my views 
on institutions and religious celebrities who in my view deliberately invite public ridicule.  
The Church has done the same.  It sees and feeds into geopolitical events that are said to resemble that which occurred before WWI and II. 

Women and minorities both racial and sexual are having their deserved day in and out of the media.
In my view media outlets like the Huffington Post go beyond caricature into the void when it
comes to reporting on Cait Jenner Room 101 gender politics.  Clickbait sensationalists won't miss
my readership in the least.  HuffPo political ravings are only a vague description of the real world
or real world politics.  At the same time they're head and shoulders preferable to their right wing
counterparts in the fear and doom always at war lock and load NRA cliché departments.

In times of mixed gender and abortion cultural upheaval, extremists have taken control of of the
U.S. Congress and at the same time do everything but stand on their heads in attempts to portray themselves as being among the religious and ideologically oppressed from all sides not in Syria
or Iraq but in this country.  Imagine a President Trump or ANY Republican POTUS leading a Republican Congressional majority and appointing now Sen. Ted Cruz to fill the Scalia SCOTUS
spot?  Hillary Clinton is the only one who can upset this impossible to conceive right wing winner-take-all political scenario.  As if writing about it is going to make any difference either way.

Bishop Fellay (great name) of Canada probably longs for the 1940's and 50's with the world
digging out of WWII when people like him and the infamous Father Coughlin ran the (radio) show.  He and the Church would routinely get away with neurosis passing for truth. 

The Bishop probably remembers 1955 like it was yesterday 
longing for a "good old fashion" Old Testament devastation as in drop the big one and start over for that time honored reborn renewal. 

Fellay, like Mel Gibson, probably invites public ridicule.  Maybe he, like so many right wing McCarthy extremists, longs for a drugged up Air Force Missileer (as recently happened) 
or drunken Russian pressing the red button "doing God's will" upstaging the Iranians and giving Islamists and Christian fundamentalists everywhere their final "bombs away" Dr.
Strangelove moment of eschatological release.  It makes no difference if you actually believe what you say, just keep repeating repeating and do what you're told.  Do what you're told.  Do what you're.... Even if you don't have to be told.

Friday, December 4, 2015


No Doubt, the previous paragraph regarding the depressing Republican
control of Congress and right wing trolls can be temporarily offset by
Gwen Stefani, The Soggy Bottom Boys, George Clooney and the movie,
Oh Brother Where Art Thou?  (Big Brother is all around us in all his guises.)

Summer of 2016 I'm walking past Lincoln Center on my way to see the movie
"Genius" at the Lincoln Plaza.  I pass a political writer on the street I recognize but I'm
very bad with names.  I sit down in the theater to watch the coming attractions.  An
upcoming documentary about autism, "Life Animated", had the name Ron Suskind in
the credits.  His son is the main subject of the film.  Of course it was Suskind I had just
passed on the street.

The movie "Genius" is about Thomas Wolfe and his editor Maxwell Perkins who was also
editor for Hemingway and F. Scott Fitzgerald.  Wolfe's first book, "Look Homeward Angel"
played a large role in the movie.  Previously I had vague notions about Wolfe and his books.
I knew him from the photo I'd seen at the downtown Whitehorse Tavern.  I had no plans to
see the movie but I happened to play this Steve Young (who died this year) video the night before:

Events like that happen all the time and no big deal.  When I played the Look Homeward
Angel video I completely missed the part about "my old friend Thomas from Ashville
North Carolina."

"Genius" was an amazing film about two Americans, Thomas Wolf and Max Perkins
played by two British actors.  All the better because the Brits, with a sense of history
and context really know how to tell a story.  The real Wolfe at 6' 6" was not the sad depressed
writer I associated with the Whitehorse Tavern photo.  Just the opposite.  He was amplified
and larger than life in more ways than one.  Look Homeward Angel was published two days
before the start of Great Depression and stock market crash of 1929.  Just his luck.

They are still referred to as "peripherals" despite being permanently attached to (and in
some sense part of) their host processor..."

Now what does William Gibson's SF novel "The Peripheral" have to do with anything? 
And why was he in the same NYC subway car late 2014 standing over me with 
another guy about his age about a month after I bought but still hadn't read his book?  Coincidences like that happen all the time.  Except with some people they 
happen just a little too often.

He just happened to be wearing the same outfit as his photo on the back of the book.
I kept saying what I find myself saying all too often these days, "Is that what's-his-face?
Nah, can't be...too old.  Except it was his face.  He was doing publicity in NYC at the 

time with recorded YT interviews.

Are the people I describe biological time traveling animatronic humanoids from the 

future with uploaded consciousness as in Gibson's story?  His vehicles are 
imagination, metaphor, and allegory.  Mine unfortunately aren't.

Thursday, December 3, 2015


So who, what, when, where, and most importantly, why?  They used to be valid questions. 

Another question needs to be asked.  Who is this blog addressed to?  Who is likely to 
even pretend to read or believe any of it?  The answer is nada, NO ONE. 

The following is a Wiki entry regarding unwitting volunteer CIA Harvard programs 
of the 1950's.  IOW, a little context regarding what is now called "gang stalking" on 
countless bogus sites and You Tube channels. 
  •   EDIT

    From the fall of 1959 through the spring of 1962, (Dr.) Murray was responsible 
    for the ethically questionable, CIA-sponsored MK ULTRA experiments in which twenty-two undergraduates were used as research subjects.[3][4] Among other purposes, Murray's experiments focused on measuring people's reactions under extreme stress. 
  • Unwitting undergraduates submitted to what Murray himself called "vehement, sweeping and personally abusive" attacks. Assaults to their egos, cherished ideas and beliefs were the vehicle used to cause high levels of stress and distress. Among them was 16-year-old Ted Kaczynski, who went on to become the Unabomber, a serial killer targeting academics and technologists. [5] Alston Chase's book Harvard and the Unabomber: The Education of an American Terrorist connects Kaczynski's abusive experiences under Murray to his later criminal career. Theodore John Kaczynski, was given the code name "Lawful".

The above was a CIA program, a footnote that might have been expanded beyond the
laboratory into campus life in the case of one, Ted Kaczynski with his 170 IQ.  Even if that
wasn't the case the above wording perfectly describes something that predates the CIA.  It
describes a systematic psychological waterboarding assault on the senses.  But not just by
the CIA.  Imagine the FSB version?  But hey, things have changed with Putin.  Only
journalists and opposition candidates are killed.  Not like under Stalin where anyone
rumored to be subversive was killed with plenty of gulag free labor (political dissidents,
law breakers, the unlucky, homosexuals, gypsies, Jews, Czarists, the insane, drug addicts,
orphans etc).

IOW, the above serves as an approximation of something that is not now and never was
confined to very intelligent but susceptible Harvard crash-test dummy undergraduate
guinnea pigs.  In the version I describe no human could be anything but susceptible
when subject to what is beyond my means of description.

IOW, this is an approximation that only mimics delusion and madness.  I will 
attempt to provide the only "proof" that I am aware of which can barely be 
considered circumstantial.  When context is provided it might be slightly more than 
circumstantial.  It might provoke the question, "what the hell is going on here?"  
If there's anyone left with enough curiosity to even ask.  

Wednesday, December 2, 2015


Stranger than fiction events comparable to scenes from the 1990
movie "Jacob's Ladder" minus combat related PTSD or the Hollywood
elements of demons, drugs, flashbacks, exploding cars and the contrived
cop-out "it was all a drug induced dream before death" depressing ending.
The lead character Jacob Singer (Tim Robbins) is a Jewish Army combat soldier in
Vietnam.  He is bayoneted in the stomach by one of his own men who were depicted
as being unwitting lab rats in a CIA drug experiment using something like BZ, an
hallucinatory aggression amplifying drug.  Jacob is found in the jungle with his
intestines outside his body.  Singer is still alive and taken by helicopter to a basecamp hospital.

The movie then picks up on what is supposed to be his post war civilian life.
In my view, all the scenes in this movie, all the flashbacks, everything hallucinatory
are depicted for a reason and meant to stand on their own loosely depicting iconic
metaphysical events that are timeless.

In 1985 I had "successful" sternum to pelvic bone resection surgery.  The operation was
five years before the movie.  I was in my late thirties.  There is something going on
regarding wounds or surgery in that particular area.

Unlike the movie I latter experienced a 6 to 9 month marathon of total sleep deprivation
without stimulant prescription or street drugs while in my 60's.  Considered impossible and
as close as anyone wants to get to a living death.

At one point the movie shows a civilian Jacob Singer at a crowded NYC apartment party
mixing with friends of his then Hispanic girlfriend. He is awkward and has nothing in
common with them.  As shown in the trailer, he has his palm read during the party.
Singer, shown with a wine bottle in his hand experiences confusion and war flashbacks
developing into a 106 fever.  His wife, played by the late Elizabeth Peña, gets him into
an ice bath to lower his body temperature.  He yells out that he's dying.  The shock sends
him into delirium.  He blacks out and imagines himself with his Jewish ex-wife.
He tells his ex the bedroom they are in feels like 10 degrees mirroring the ice bath.

Here's how that translates:
In the 1970's I am invited to Brooklyn to "sleep" with a partly Jewish female I'd
been seeing who was always said to be "married."  Her open marital arrangement was
more than slightly unconventional.  My guess now would be she would get pregnant by
a male loosely defined as a "husband" and would then sleep with me in between pregnancies.
Her looks were the very opposite of the Pena movie character.

The Brooklyn apartment is normal at first and then in the middle of the AM feels to be
at least 10 degrees below.  She says the heat is turned off at night.  It is unnaturally cold.
When I try to touch her to warm up she is too hot to get close to.  She is burning up but
notices nothing wrong.  She is too young for hot flashes.  Her body heat was beyond
anything sexual or natural.  But considering what we just did it did serve a purpose.

Awake all night in the sub-freezing cold room I go to work the next morning and
of course see her "husband" coming from his night job.  We turn around at the same
time as we pass.  He probably knows what's going on but it is all made to seem like high
intrigue.  Like a movie.  The invitation, the room temperate, her temperature and the
morning meeting was a contrived stupid arrangement designed to provoke guilt and
confusion about myself and the the woman I thought I knew.  I was the only one not in on the joke.

Tuesday, December 1, 2015


There are scenes in the movie of insidious crazed doctors with typically big needles.
Replaced in reality by "nice guy" smiling student dentists applying unneeded painful
injections into the chin cavity inside my lower gums.  Smiling Asian "student" dentist
knew I would yell out in a crowded clinic which I haven't done at the hands of dentists
since the sixth grade when I got minor cavities filled without painkiller.  Smiling Asian
student dentist denies everything.  Everyone stays in character except me.  I complain
and am switched to a female Asian dentist.  Her first words to me?  "Will you cooperate?"

What I try and fail to describe above and below is all too similar to the shocks
depicted in post war civilian parts of the movie except that the reality is less dramatic.

Unlike Singer, I never got off at abandoned Bergen Street subway stations in Brooklyn.
Yet.  The people seen by Jacob in compressed scenes on subways are comparable to what I
see in encounters more numerous except that none include seeing homeless guys with tails
left out of some versions of the movie.

I did witness a fake subway fight with real people bouncing off seats inside a moving subway.
I was not involved but I could see the contrived desperation of it unfolding in front of me.
That's an example of odd events I see every time I use the subways of NYC.  Imagination,
mood, paranoia or drugs play no part.  But...

...Jacob experiences one visual shock after another.  This extends to the physical as he
is abducted by three men in a moving auto that he escapes only to have his wallet and ID
picked after he hits the ground by a guy in a Santa Klaus suit and beard waving his
bell for donations.  When asked what happened to his ID at a hospital ER he admits
that "Santa Klaus took it" confirming the movie doctors idea of someone insane.  When
wheeled on a gurney through hospital winding corridors the audience and Jacob sees his
someone resembling his ex-wife curled up on the hospital floor.  See's his chiropractor
vaguely behind a glazed window.  His girlfriend Jessie is one of the nurses.  This is seen
to be the result of a concussion received in the speeding car but, as mentioned previously, also representing something else.  Similar disjointed events not so dramatic happen routinely in
the real life version.  The fact that none of it answers to logic soon becomes beside the point.
Ex-girlfriends that I knew for years are seen inches away in public who gaze past me.
Common enough.  In the 1970's an East Indian is seen climbing my fire escape at 4:30 AM
dressed only in a sackcloth.  The same person shows up years later in contexts so different
I could never conceive of connecting the two events.

An event analogous to fictional Jacob Singer car scene happened to me in April of 2014.
I am pined to the floor of a Soho bar around 4PM after being asked to leave for no apparent
reason.  I offered but wasn't given the chance to pay my bill.  There was no previous trouble,
no inebriation in a near empty bar.  A knee to the back of my leg sends me to the ground
with a guy for each leg and one with his knee to my chest while holding down my arms.
He knows his knee is stopping me from breathing and talking normally.  While down I
manage to call him a moron.  I am cuffed, ID is taken and returned.  No name tag, no police
ID is shown, I am uncuffed.  An ambulance arrives and drives me to to Presbyterian Hospital
ER across town.  The only people I see are uncomprehending blank-faced security.  I sit down,
I walk out after 30 seconds.  No blow to the head, no Santa Klaus characters, no missing ID.

No medical procedures, no blood pressure taken but the Presbyterian Hospital ambulance
bills my insurance for over a thousand dollars.  Routine fraud is the least of it.  I consider
challenging the claim.  I go back to the bar and a different bartender.  And who is going
to believe this story even with witnesses.  Nada, no one.  The guy compressing my chest
with his knee shows up the next day in circumstances so completely different as to be almost
comparable to Jacob watching helplessly while Santa Klaus picks his pocket.  There are other
implications associated with the movie version that I don't even want to touch.

Sunday, November 29, 2015


Opening shot is not "Twilight" English actor Robert Pattinson
looking at his vampire mother:

The blonde female who shows up towards the end has to be Billie Witlaw
who I saw at the Old Vic in Beckett's "Happy Days" in 1970's London.
Long before Happy Days of American TV.  Both versions make an
appearance on the TV towards the end of the video along with alien-ated
singer, Morrissey.  Happy Days, Come Armageddon extremes.

Back To Reality Unfortunately:
On my last day at work in 2005 a 6' 4" black on the fat side co-
worker made a point of always preaching and telling me what I
would find among so-called "daytime people."  Slackers, stoners,
hipsters, unemployed, students, or, like me, retired.  Slackers,
hipsters and stoners aren't adequate names for what I found.  I
looked at the world and the world looked back.  Ack, ack, ack. 

It's as if I had the extreme audacity to retire after working seventy hour weeks at two
jobs for twenty years with nothing but time and age to show for it.  I went from
70 hour work weeks to zero.

My attempt in describing completely unnerving, "peripheral" human++ types sounds
straight out of a horror movie or something from a demented central casting call for Marvel
unitards.  I would say straight out of Comedy Central because that is exactly what this sounds
like.  Except the above two plus marks after the word human are completely applicable but
not as a compliment.

Everything described in this blog does and doesn't originate in any particular time or country.
Manifesting in the 1960's - 1980's in the following ways: I had no idea at the time but
"new age" groups like Macrobiotics, Bioenergetics, Sri Chinmoy, Bubba Free John, Integral Yoga and many other so-called alternative eastern and western groups were completely serious as far as their stated intentions and completely rigged.

By who?  Not the FBI who were probably there reporting to J. Edgar's and his successor on
what might have been considered by them to be potential foreign subversive infiltration.
The groups themselves didn't care and probably got a bunch of laughs over who the
designated G-Man was.

These alt groups had excellent PR depending on the image they wanted projected.
From Franklin Jones "miracles" and bad-boy reported orgies which were likely
faked or contrived for the sake of rumor.  Or relatively conservative East-Indian mediation
teachers seemingly following unwritten scripts of prescribing celebracy until, one after the other,
getting "caught" seducing female followers. We're these deliberately self-provoked falls from "enlightened grace" as an offset to being objects of worship and fame?  Deliberately arranged
and welcomed fake PR both positive and negative?

IMO, many people, religious leaders like Fr. Marcial Maciel, celebrities like Mel Gibson manufactured deliberate public humiliation under the guise of sex, mental illness, substance
abuse or all three.  Right after he, Gibson, makes a billion dollars depicting the Crucifixion
of Christ a series of incidents are blamed on alcohol, "the Joos" or a bipolar condition.
Was he actually DWI?  Yes.  Involved with porn actresses?  Most likely yes.  All real and all
faked and it doesn't really matter in his case.  Public disgrace is considered a badge of honor
and something to actually strive for in some religious quarters.  Like his for instance.  Like
the Catholic Church for instance.  He just happens to be fundamentalist Catholic.  Which
goes back to my impressions of the movie "Spotlight" depicting the older defrocked priest.
He was a willing human drone.

Saturday, November 28, 2015





More extremely tall people of both sexes than I or anyone (not as tall as the videos)  does not
usually qualify for mention.  I'm six foot and not considered short or tall.  In the middle as usual.  Each generation gets taller but what I see is over and above.

I briefly spoke to a woman at the Chelsea Market who looked to be in her 70's, easily over
6' 4" who looked to be related to another woman of average height I worked with and went
with after 911.  The older version who denied she had a daughter, was the only one I can
remember in that age group of that height which means, of course, it happens and who cares?
Except that...

...extreme height is but one example of what happens when extremes of every kind 
are made to become routine across age groups, genders, races,  nations, geography.

And it will be said, "well, of course, tall people stand out and are noticed and so what?"

I spoke about all the extremely tall women to my sister in late 2015.  First day of her
arrival in NYC we met in an Irish bar close to 34th Street on 8th Ave.  A tall Mav's Cantina transvestite drew fake whistles from the crowded bar.  I just said, "yeah, it's a guy."
On her last day in town a woman entered the restaurant where we were eating who
had to be as tall as anything in the above video.  My sister's jaw dropped or pretended
to in amazement at the sight of a 6' 11" female in a three piece pants suit and tie.

*Many of those I am trying to describe seem to eat little, sleep little and have no particular
interest in sex apart from procreation unless called upon to take on an outrageous outdated
compulsive 1980's punkish, sexually suggestive or ambiguous appearance.  One extreme to
another.  Contrived appearances, contrived outrageousness, contrived gender ambiguity.

*Whether street people with over-amped musculature, so-called hipster
types covered with tattoos, looking completely wrong or perfectly uniformed
down to off center or backwards rally caps.  Long contractor beards and
man-buns growing in the opposite direction seemingly straight out of the
movie Benghazi, or one-sided shaved skinhead prison chic street style.

IOW, drones of all ages doing everything but standing on their heads to mimic
what everyone associates with coming of age rebellion and disruption.  In the
building next door to mine is an "August Rush" group home complete with
skateboarders with dyed black hair standing in a straight up permanent with
yellow dye or spray on the ends like Christmas lights who might be 25, 45
or 55 years old.  August Rush was probably the only bad movie Robin Williams
ever made.  The movie continues in real life with skateboarding at all hours
with different bleeding colors on their potted plant heads always ready to
act counter to type to security or cops.

*Conversly, obsessive cleanliness might also be a common factor.  With little sleep
the immune system might suffer otherwise.

*A contrived overly polite manner is used to counter any gross weirdness
in appearance such as bleached white hair on both sexes or black dyed and yellow
tipped hair or dyed blond beards on brown skinned males.  How many guys are
going to want to maintain dyed hair past their teens?  Too many.

*Behavoral opposites: Blindside bumping or grappling one minute
like something from "Fight Club."  Holding doors and smiling excessively
like Jim Carrey from "The Truman Show" waving in faux friendliness,
"Have a good day, and if I don't see ya, have a good afternoon, evening and night too"
(Ah hah, you knew it, a simple case of "Truman Show Delusion Syndrome" a media
driven paranoid variation of "Jumping Horsemen of the Maine Syndrome."

Passive aggressiveness on parade, in extremis and nobody notices.  No one left
to notice.  I saw the actor Benjamin Cumberbatch with his hair completely grey
walking his dog on 23rd Street.  No one else noticed sounding too much like
someone playing the part of Truman Burbank in Seahaven by the Hudson, via
Chelsea, NYC.

* 2011 - 2015, too many caucasian women speaking in overly polite exaggerated pretty please
Valley Girl "up-talk" in NYC while fishing in their pocketbooks for their wallets to count
out exact change along with clipped tones of "yeah yeh".

* For a couple of years guys took on a deliberately fake vocal fry, mission control
exaggerated macho laughable speech pattern.  How can that be possible?  It's not.
It's the opposite of possible.

How about the opposite extreme, gay effeminacy over and above any Google IT, gay
or nerd stereotype.  A rehearsed nonstop standup comedy act seen for a few months
and then replaced by something else going from dumb to dumber.  Improvisational
humanoid drones?  All the same person?   Of course not, they would be, would be,
um, golems??  And such as that.  An awful lot of em too.  Is everybody in on the conspiracy?

*Women that I went with in the early 2000's once made a point of licking pasta sauce
off the plate in a restaurant.  Another would put a bare hand into a restaurant buffet.
Or wearing big cleverge in twenty degree weather.  In 80+ degree weather the same
person shows up completely covered minus burka.  Contrived public sex when a
nearby house or apartment was available.  I was always the one to say, "hey look, is that
guy staring?"  The unlikely and overly casual answer from the girl, "who cares."
(Test of character?  Delay gratification and walk away?  Of course)

IOW, these relationships were a mix of normal behavior with rare contrived
disruptive lunatic behavior.  The unstated multiple messages from these women:
"I am beyond disruptive, crazy, average or normal".  "Sex?  Take it or leave it."
Once I start something don't try to stop me.  You will have to stop me."
"Don't get attached.  I will make sure that you do."  "If questioned
I might deny my name, what year we're in or knowing who you are."

They weren't working for any deep dark government agency, no getting paid in bitcoins
or any other physical currency.  None of the above was the result of anger, mood change,
hot flashes, menopause, eccentricity, a joke, self hate, psychopathy, deficits of intelligence
or my imagination.  None of the DSM or psych-boilerplate cliches apply.  Were they
trying to get rid of me?  That too.

*A kind of routine hyperactivity (Hyper++) .  As a guess, not being in constant motion
and constantly busy invites some kind of automatic direct or indirect negative feedback.
Something like in the Disney movie "Tomorrowland" where too many nuanced questions
resulted in a pretend "machine shutdown" to stop the line of questioning.
* Big on non-traditional careers, music, art, entertainment, acting, meditation
* Big on lying and deceit.  The more you engage them the more they lie.
* Fluency in fighting and martial arts.  Each female makes a point of picking a physical fight.
* Acting, improvisation, PR, propaganda a speaking in gibberish tongues mixed with actual
language for hours without stopping.  Overheard very loud conversations are either in a foreign tongue or as if a language module is activated in fast forward.
* A synchronized smart mobbing plays out before your disbelieving eyes.
* Very big on "Dia De Los Muertos" skull tattoos and imagery on shirts and hats.
* They make their own or buy cheap wild, flamboyant or nondescript clothes.
* Women make a point to greet each other in OMG!, OH! MY! God!! exaggerated greetings more
often than would be considered too often.  Gay and straight couples do their porno kissing
routine past the point of satire.

Reasonable people might see this as typical of certain people.  As if reading from a teleprompter
from behind their lying eyes.

* On occasion a depressing Maxwell Smart "cone of silence" zero point "dead air" effect is felt.
Like air sucked out of the inner ear during a medical exam.  With certain females the opposite occurred.  A sharp zero point focus.

* Spastic penguin walk, addicted street people (Scarecrow) dreadlocked, tattooed, homeless,
begging, K-2 users stretched out on 23rd Street.  Or taking the opposite extreme, dumb James
Dean male hustler poses.

* Grossly over developed over-amped military types (Tin Men) with arms and chests so
large (like upright turkeys) they have to move or pretend to move with arms swinging in front
instead of at their sides.

* As of mid-year 2016 there's a more conservative look going on.  Cut and buff even with the women looking like lifters.  If and when it stops it'll all seem like a bad dream.  Or events will just change in their variety.  Under no circumstances can I be allowed to experience the world normally especially
while not working after retirement.  That must never stand.  (Well gee, get a job or volunteer...)

IOW, abnormal encounters will be replaced by something equally monotonous and monstrous.  Repulsive not in kind but in frequency.  Visual psychological waterboarding both in variety and monotony.  Quite a metaphysical piece of choreography by the dance master.

Nothing that I see is as it should be but, at the same time, nothing looks
flagrantly out of sync to non-existent observers.  All can be seen as classic ______
(fill in the symptomatic blanks) or just crotchety dementia, evident lack of insight...
DSM language of convenience sounding more comical than what is being described.
(Well gee, it's subconscious and frequently irrational and bla bla blah)

I don't have any particular need for complete normalcy or want people to look like me,
like Jim Carrey or like my overachieving opposite, Donald Trump (Lying King) with the
Illuminutty spray-on saffron hair and cheeks.  His ex-lawyer and mentor, Roy Cohn
would be proud of his Donny running for President.  He might stand on his short tip toes
for a kiss on top of his bald head from the man heself, "The Don."  President Don and
Melania as FLOTUS?  In cuffs Don with Melania in tears?  TBTF Don getting bailed out.

Wednesday, November 25, 2015


And now the Cisco Kid and Pancho live from Mav's Cantina:

A loose metaphor for NYC:

The perfect intro to:
* Extreme man-made climate change across the earth. 
* Extreme displacement of nine simultaneous Islamic civil wars.
* Extreme right wing resurgent politics worldwide w/ Trump birtherism the very least of it.
Millions of displaced flowing into Western and Easten Europe and the Americas. 
* Extreme economic volatility, the 2008 Great Recession to the collapse of oil to Brexit. 
* Extreme 6' 8" Tatooine humanoids gay and straight out of Mav's Cantina, NYC. 

Now what is all this "nonsense" about extreme size and height?

I don't see 6' 5" women every time I go out.  But close to it.  Are they all from the Netherlands, models from Mars, college or pro athletes?  Nephilim?  Is that the next stupid thought in the progression of extremes?  The average height is still supposed to be 5' 10 for men and 5' 6" for women.  So Jerry, ah says to myself, what gives?

There are internet sites and videos about "sons of God" and "daughters of men" existing
before Noah referenced not just on biblical sites but on hundreds of rigged bogus blogs and 
videos whose fake presentation is deliberately provocative where the terms "Reptilians" 
and "ancient space aliens" are repeated to convince those still not in on the joke that the
internet is teaming with sub IQ 80 delusional nutjobs. 

A few are...nuts that is.  A few videos are by and for the insane but the majority of
fringe sites and channels are by people who are the opposite of insane.  If it was just
a hundred sites or channels no one including me would care.  The same troll farms likely
also account for toxic internet gamergate trolling and threats directed at women
always blamed on male gaming fanatics of all ages.  IMO, to degrade internet usage in
general for everyone and women in particular.

And are the videos, forums and blogs on the subjects of mind control and so-called
"targeted individuals", chemtrails, aliens, financial and Fukushima eschatological
end-times-all-the-time all by the same few loosely defined troll farm networks
with the same motive?  No, not all.  The vast majority.

Am I am telling my nonexistent readers that there is something wrong that goes slightly
beyond my personal projections of what people should look like, think like or what
should and should not be?  Since there's no one out there it makes not a bit of diff.

Besides being a retired, lazy, 6' aging boomer who *of course* looks to be a 40 - 50
grey haired male of average health, no medication, no nose rings or ponytails, no
shaved head, dreads, beard, drugs, addictions, no tattoos, man buns or BP mood swings.
Pretty dull and nothing in common with humanoids who look straight out of the meth
amphetamined "Mad Max" future or walking monument alien hookers from the
1996 movie, "Mars Attacks."

On the internet there is a special emphasis on endtimes.  Which seems to be their point.
For "Them" there is no future because it's literally always Apocalypse Now!  Recycled
over and over through recycled lifetimes.

All dressed up and nowhere to go...Oingo Boingo from 30 years ago
...there's always room for JUST one more:

All the negatives mentioned before the OB video are constants of visual extremes 
experienced day in and day out far in excess of what should be characteristic of 
my or any average big city mixed neighborhood.  It could be said that this blog 
could be an exhibit A for how big mood swings affect the content of a external 
world view.  Daniel Paul Schreber-like only little boy in New York delusional
imaginings or lack of coping abilities to changing generations, times, styles and 
attitudes.  Some of that is true just like the 1960's were a shock for my father.  
Except that none of the above can quite be explained away by the usual default settings.

Crowds, loud music, differences and disruptions that are part of or exceed the
average persons day to day experience are no big deal for me.  What I am describing
is "unpossible" except that nothing written about here can be considered in any way
exceptional.  Except by me, a left behind kind of guy, who still can't believe his lying
eyes.  My invite never a party where no one's alive...

....a NYC time warp looking more and more like the NYC of 1984 with not as much
drugs and without the related crime.  The city is becoming a dead zone, an overcrowded
graveyard or deadman's party reflective of things that are part of and apart from global events.  Disruptions not accounted for by official or unofficial U-6 unemployment, the homeless
or displaced migrants but includes all of those.  As of August 2016 things are improving...

This particular cycle is mirrored in the TV and movie entertainment industry (Gotham,
Star Wars, Walking Dead, The Truman Show, Jacob's Ladder, They Live) but never openly
acknowledged except as indicated on sites made to be ridiculous upholding a concensual
illusion that things that don't fit are fictional, delusional and confined to existential
anguish reflected in paintings like "Der Schrei der Natur" known as "The Scream of Nature"
by Edvard Munch.  Painted it only seems, to resonate with the scream made by a
Judge named Daniel Paul Schreber (Schrei) who had his famous Freudian second
psychotic "nervous episode" in 1893 the same year as the Munch painting.
With the "other", the alien, "That Guy", Lt. Tyrone Slothrop or Munch's sister in the forground.

"A screaming comes across the sky. It has happened before, but there is nothing to compare it to now." ...Thomas Pynchon, Gravity's Rainbow (regarding WWII but
also timeless) 

Friday, November 20, 2015


Not to change the subject but a New Yorker Václav Havel article struck a chord with me.áclav_Havel

Mr. H, Czeck President, Vaclav Havel in 1990 accepting an honorary degree at Hebrew 
University and comparing his experiences to Mr. K, Franz Kafka.

"One of them is a profound, banal, and therefore utterly vague sensation of culpability, as though my very existence were a kind of sin.  Then there is a powerful feeling of general alienation, both my own and relating to everything around me, that helps to create such feelings; an experience of unbearable oppressiveness, a need constantly to explain myself to someone, to defend myself, a longing for an unattainable order of things, a longing that increases as the terrain I walk through becomes more muddled and confusing."

About the only thing I have in common with Vaclav Havel is that my
last name also begins with H and otherwise nothing in this blog compares
to what what he experienced in prison before the Prague Spring in the
freeing of Czechoslovakia from the Warsaw Pact USSR.

I can easily go from Havel, Kafka and the Prague Spring to Orwell.

Double Plus Un-Good: Orwellian news-speak now describing the two legged
post humans AKA hipsters who get by with a little help from their "friends." 
I used to be very smug and very sure that my version of things was "right".
There have always been mentally ill people who believe they are victimized by
whoever he or she believes the enemy or "They" happen to be.  Everything in this blog
can be interpreted in that light.  Understandable but incorrect.  I was completely wrong
in my assumptions and no one could tell me otherwise.

DIRECT EXPERIENCE ON THE RECEIVING END beginning in 1994 and becoming
much more aggressive after 2001which many might contrive to say is some kind of
911 PTSD or some such nonsense.  The following will include the cringeworthy but
accurate explanation as to the source of all that I'm describing.  And no, it has nothing
to do with government or contractor conspiracies.  Any references to same are done for
the sake of context if not clarity.

1) E-distorted scream sound effect from outside my apartment followed by
verbal and multiple pulsed frequency sound combinations inducing nausea,
skin heating, racing heart, an adrenal rush felt in the kidney adrenals, in the heart
as angina and total sleep deprivation for 3/4 of a year and resulting temporary arthritis,
painful upper back and neck side effects.
These are and are not experimemts.  Sleep deprivation for this amount of time,
normally impossible, is made to be very routine which means keeping a person
alive and totally sleepless for 3/4 of a year doesn't seem to present much of a
problem for those hiding behind the decisive asset, as Martin Ames would say,
of being beyond belief.

New methods are likely added in pursuit of absolute overwhelming
intimidation, domination and control as if always in a constant
state of war implementing learned helplessness with and w/o physical
contact.  No evidence is apparent, all complaints dismissed.

Pulsed multi-frequency combinations are invasive, invisible, leave no
incriminating marks and yet are capable of "touching" and causing
extreme physical pain, nausea, heating of the skin or racing heart chest
pain causing the person to keel over.  The latter are all consigned to tactile
hallucinations or "anxiety attacks."  Nothing was wrong with my heart
but neither were these imagined.  Also no government plot, no technology
or invisible microwave DEW beams.

2) People on the receiving end of sleep deprivation are kept alive and relatively
healthy in a kind of functional half-life fog.  Involuntary sleep deprivation and
disruption via verbiage, sound effects (the old ceiling rapping of horror movies, 
slamming doors and scrapping chairs) sound frequencies stimulating or 
depressing major organs, modulating blood flow, sex drive and those famous 
Strangelovian "precious body fluids."  

3) During that 3/4 of a year sleepless marathon the only external obvious
differences in the immediate home environment besides those mentioned
were a mild aerosol chemical smell in the apartment that probably had stimulant
effects and also an almost constant hissing white-noise-like sound both
in the ears (blood flow due to contracted blood vesicles?) and, at times,
projected into the surrounding apartment space reaching a crescendo
effect around the sleepless endpoint after approximately nine months
and the start of another round of sleep disruption.
This occurred in my living space which was and still is more of an
virtual (v)-prison than a place to live.

4) No third party or doctor can distinguish any of this from classic delusion.
At the mere mention of "hearing voices" doctors can't blame themselves for
prescribing useless (in this case) anti-psychotic drugs because even the individual
on the receiving end has no conception, reason or experience to know what's behind
any of this.  The person will believe what they are told, that they are psychotic and
proceed to be compliant in taking useless prescriptions.  Lately the mental health
profession see's psychosis on a functional to dysfunctional spectrum.  This is considered
something of a breakthrough in the mental health field.  Breakthrough's are rare
but millions of research papers keep pouring forth.

Most people who experience intractable delusion and hallucinations also experience
sleep deprivation and believe, usually wrongfully, that they are the victims of externally
sourced plots.  Everything described here can be met with looks of fake concern
combined with the usual slow shaking of the head, as in, "whoops, there's always
room for one more comedian on the funny farm."

After the months of sleeplessness I assumed, wrongly, that I had a psychotic
break leading to auditory hallucinations and sleeplessness.  It took me years,
and increased sleep, to see things differently.  This can be seen as an attempt
to talk myself out of and change inconvenient reality except for the fact that
I will mention details that are difficult to imagine, copy, contrive or make up.

I can't prove I was completely awake for 3/4 of a year.  A typical response,
"I guess not, staying awake that long is impossible anyway?"  Or "you had to
have been on drugs and forgotten that you slept for brief periods."  Or ,"What's
that? You were being hit by invisible rays by invisible men?  Golly, that's too bad.
Check out some of Schreber's Thorazine flavored Kool-Aid for speedy relief."

(In Schreber's day it was opium and fresh air physical fitness for mystics and
overworked judges)

All kinds of scenarios can be implied or imagined: Street or prescription stimulants?
Persecution complexes along with a desperate need for attention?  Making the whole
thing up or mixing select truth and fantasy, or, or, or anything but what I'm saying.
Convenient understandable automatic default settings that people always fall back
on because what is being said is inconvenient, repellent, or hilariously dumb sounding.
Or just simply inconvenient.  Did I say that?

Total sleeplessness conveniently hinders awareness of what should be obvious.
What proves eventually to be so obvious is an insidious non-imagined 24/7 remote
metaphysical neural hack interference in every aspect of waking and sleeping life.

("What's that you say, metaphysical what?  From victim to mystic.  Where have
we heard that before?")

The above manifested more aggressively in my case around 2002 some months after 911,
while in my fifties.  But was also a continuation of a slightly more subdued series of
personal events starting in 1993-4 coincidentally after the first WTC attack.  There is
no apparent connection and if any exists it is, again, way past my pay grade.

The more accurate my description of all this the less credible it sounds.  So I should
stop digging the hole deeper, right?  Nope, I'm in over my head and no matter how hard
I dig the hole stays at the same depth.  The level of experience stays the same.  Terrible.