The Central Casting Soggy Bottom Good Guys and Gwen Stefani:
FROM THE WIKI ENTRY:
In a system on a chip, peripherals are incorporated into the same integrated circuit as the central processing unit. They are still referred to as "peripherals" despite being permanently attached to (and in some sense part of) their host processor...
A loose description of the two legged versions I attempt to described on this page and throughout.
Now what does William Gibson's novel "The Peripheral" have to do with anything?
And why was he in the same NYC subway car late 2014 standing over me with
another guyabout his age about a month after I bought his book? Coincidence?
It happens all the time. Except with some people it happens a little too often.
He just happened to be wearing the same outfit as his photo on the back of the book.
I kept saying what I find myself saying all too often these days, "Is that what's-his-face?
Nah, can't be...too old. Except that it was his face. He was doing publicity in NYC
at the time with recorded YT interviews.
Are the people I describe below biological machines from the future with uploaded
consciousness as per Gibson's story? No. His vechicles are imagination, metaphor,
and allegory. Mine unfortunately aren't. The people I'm talking about can be classified
as human++ or, to paraphrase Orwell, double-plus ungodly.
So who, what, when, where, why? Good questions all. Herein lies all the appearances
of contradiction not to mention insanity and madness. The numbers on the disruptive
end are beyond description and conception.
To quote Wiki regarding unwitting volunteer CIA Harvard programs of the 1950's:
The above was a small CIA program, a footnote of seemingly little importance. What if the
experiment was expanded beyond the laboratory into campus life in the case of one, Ted
Kaczynski. Even if that wasn't the case the above wording perfectly describes something
that predates the CIA. It describes a systematic psychological waterboarding assault of
the senses. It functions beyond any security agency program and beyond mine or anyone's projections of persecutory paranoia. It has always been and will continue to be beyond belief.
IOW, the above serves as an approximation of something that is not now and never was
confined to very intelligent but susceptible Harvard crash-test dummy undergraduate
guinnea pigs. In the version I describe below no human could be anything but susceptible
when subject to what is beyond description.
Force and physical contact with those few on the receiving end happens on occasion
but is avoided because it isn't needed. Physical force is replaced by a kind of non-stop
visual assault by way of a real world imposed augmented reality conveniently overriding
any local or government laws which aren't even considered. Complaints, lawsuits are
nullified due to lack of evidence. The only "proof" that I am aware of cannot even be considered circumstantial.
Stranger than fiction events are comparable to scenes from the 1990 movie "Jacob's Ladder"
minus combat related PTSD or the Hollywood elements of demons, drugs, flashbacks,
exploding cars and the contrived cop-out ending.
The lead character Jacob Singer (Tim Robbins) is a combat marine stabbed in the stomach
by one of his own men while in Vietnam. He is found in the jungle with his intestines
outside his body. Singer is rescued by helicopter to a base camp hospital. The movie then
picks up on what is supposed to be his post war civilian life.
In 1985 I had successful sternum to pelvic bone surgery. Ten inches of transverse intestine
was removed due to what was said to be a pre-cancerous blockage. I was in my late 30's.
Unlike the movie I later experienced a 6 - 8 month marathon of involuntary total sleep
deprivation without stimulant prescription or street drugs. Considered impossible and
as close as anyone wants to get to a living proxy for death.
At one point the movie shows a civilian Jacob Singer at a crowded NYC apartment party.
He experiences confusion and flashbacks which develope into a 106 fever. His wife,
played by Elizabeth Peña, gets him into an ice bath to lower his body temperature.
The shock sends him into delirium, he blacks out and imagines himself in bed with
his Jewish ex-wife. He says the room feels like 10 degrees mirroring the ice bath.
His ex considers the room temperature to be no big deal.
Here's how that translates. In the 1970's I am invited to "sleep" with a partly Jewish female
I'd been seeing who was always said to be "married." My guess being she would get pregnant
by a male loosely defined as a "husband" and would then sleep with me in between pregnancies.
At some point in the night her apartment feels to be at least 10 degrees. She says the heat
is turned off at night. When I try to touch her her body is too hot to get close to. She is
burning up and very casually notices nothing wrong. This happened long before the movie.
Awake all night in the cold I go to work the next morning and, of course, see her "husband"
coming from his night job. We turn around at the same time as we pass. He probably knows
what's going on but it is all made to seem like high intrigue. Like a movie. The invitation,
the room temperate, her temperature and the morning meeting was a contrived stupid
arrangement designed to provoke guilt and confusion about the motivations of the woman
I thought I knew. The room and body temperatures of that night, like the relationship itself,
were not part of anything natural. The room was beyond cold, her body beyond hot. I
was the only one not in on the joke.
There are scenes in the movie of insidious crazed doctors with the usual big needles.
This is replaced in reality by "nice guy" smiling student dentists applying needless
painful injections into the chin cavity inside my lower gums. Smiling student Asian dentist
denied everything. He knew I would yell out in a crowded clinic which I haven't done
at the hands of dentists since the sixth grade. Everyone stays in character except me.
Jacob experiences the extreme guilt that comes with the death of a son in an auto accident.
Apart from anything mentioned here extreme guilt is used for the sake of manipulation.
What I try and fail to describe above and below is all too similar to the shocks
depicted in post war civilian parts of the movie except for the fact that the reality
is less dramatic. No wandering onto subway tracks or getting off at abandoned
Bergen Street stations in Brooklyn. The people seen by Jacob on subways are
comparable to what I see except my encounters are more numerous. Ever see a fake
subway fight with real people bouncing off seats inside a moving subway car?
I was not involved but I could see the contrived desperation of it unfolding in front of me.
Jacob experiences one visual shock after another. He is abducted and escapes
three men in a moving auto. At one point in April of 2014 I am pined to
the floor of a lower Manhattan bar after being asked to leave for no apparent reason.
There was no trouble, no inebriation in a near empty bar. One guy for each leg
and one with his knee on my chest holding down my arms. He knows his knee is
stopping me from breathing and talking normally. My ID is taken, I am cuffed,
no ID is shown to me, an ambulance comes and I am driven to to Presbyterian
Hospital where the only people I talk to are uncomprehending security. I sit down
for a few seconds and walk out.
No medical procedures, no blood pressure taken but the ambulance bills my
insurance for over a thousand dollars.
The next day I stupidly see the same guy who kneeled on my chest working behind the
counter at a bakery that I frequent. He has striped tattoos running down his arms,
he goes into a martial arts stance as soon as I see him with his arms together at
the elbows Shaolin style. I call him a moron. He laughs and immediately heads
into a back room. A nonsensical set of events straight out of a nightmare scenario.
At the end of Jacob's Ladder all events are depicted as part of a dream. To me it
is a dumb waking nightmare. Beyond billing statements there is no evidence.
The intestinal resection surgery might yet lead to immune complications...or not.
Is this a bid for attention and trying to make sense of my life by making simpleminded
comparisons to a cult movie? Sometimes rational explanation sound more contrived
than even the reality still happening as I type.
(Saw Robbins playing street hockey in the park on sixth and Houston St. in Greenwich
Village a few years ago looking bored out of his mind, 6' 7" on his roller blades,
looking nothing close to his age and unrecognized by passersby in his helmet. He is
currently appearing in movies again. And wouldn't you know it? Another version of
Jacob's Ladder is said to be in the works. PR for a probable stupid TV caricature this is NOT.)
What is happening to me is completely undetectable, completely unprovable and always
dismissed by automatic default positions of insanity or paranoid delusion. Are people
in the entertainment industry and screenwriters like Bruce Joel Rubin making subtle
and not so subtle fictional references to a reality that no one is capable of directly acknowledging?
Yes they are. (And no, they aren't sending clues through the movie screen that only I can read)
Automatic reactions like: "now who in the real world is going to go to all that trouble?"
"You must consider yourself someone special" "A "center of the world" narcissistic paranoid
persecution complex kind of guy." "Is everyone's in on the conspiracy?" No, "they" are
not. Upon retiring in 05 one wise guy I worked with made a point of telling me that I would
find out what it was like to be among the slackers, stoners, unemployed, impaired, lazy
"daytime people" who don't work. In no way are the descriptions on this page exaggerated.
In no way are my descriptions in this blog representative of the above groups, or of any
group of people of any given time or place.
I don't consider myself exceptional, don't want to be, don't want attention, and don't
want any part of this page reality.
These completely unnerving, human++ "peripheral" types seem straight out of the
above horror movie or something from a demented "central casting" call. I would
say straight out of Comedy Central because that is exactly what all this sounds like.
I would say that except for the fact that these very high functioning morons
described above and below are completely serious and the above two plus-marks
after the word human are completely applicable and accurate.
USEFUL AND UNUSEFUL CONTEXT:
Everything described in this blog does not originate in any particular time period
or country. (Jazz cigarettes, drugs, or psychosis, are also timeless but are not involved)
It is made obvious again as in the West and in the U.S. in the 1960's - 1980's in the
I had no idea at the time but I suspect, without proof, that certain "new age" movements,
Macrobiotics, Bioenergetics, Sri Chinmoy, Bubba Free John, Sachidananda's Integral
Yoga and many other so-called alternative eastern and western groups were completely
serious as far as their stated intentions and completely rigged after certain points.
By who? Some hybrid of contractors with cooperation from publicly funded security.
The mentioned alternative groups had excellent PR depending on the image they
wanted projected. From Bubba Free John's "miracles", badboy radical beliefs,
reported orgies (likely faked or contrived for the sake of manufactured rumor) or
relatively conservative but with the guru's in question seemingly following a
unwritten script of getting "caught" "taking advantage" of female followers while
otherwise prescribing celibacy. Deliberately provoked falls from "enlightened"
grace, IMO, as an offset to being objects of worship and fame. IOW, deliberately
arranged fake PR both positive and negative.
IMO, many people, leaders, celebrities (Mel Gibson) manufacture deliberate public
humiliation under the guise of sex, mental illness, substance abuse or all three.
Right after he, Gibson, makes a billion dollars depicting the crucifixion of Christ
a series of incidents take place that he blames on alcohol and or a bipolar condition.
I don't buy it at all. Public dishonor, IMO, is considered a badge of honor and
something to actually strive for in some religious quarters. Like his for instance.
Overarching characteristics of the people I am trying to describe: (applicable to any group)
More extremely tall people of both sexes than I or anyone would consider normal or average.
Women over 6' 1" in flats are not unusual. Males 6' 4" and over (Tim Robbins) are not
just seen by me now and then but constantly. The fact of their being tall (not as tall as
in the video) does not qualify for mention. I'm six foot and not normally considered short or tall. Normally I could care less.
I briefly spoke to a woman who looked to be in her 70's, easily over 6' 4" who might
have been related to another woman of average height I worked with and went with.
The older version was the only one I can remember in that age group and that tall which
means, of course, it happens and who cares? Except that...
extreme height is but one example of what happens when extremes of every
kind are made to become routine across age groups, genders, races and
nationalities. And it will be said, "well, of course, tall people stand out and
are noticed and so what?"
Extremes made mainstream are not just confined to appearances. They extend
beyond my personal projections and opinions into the larger society and are
perfectly reflected in that larger society in many ways. Among them, extreme
climate across the earth, extreme right wing politics given legitimacy by a
Republican Party that has always catered to and pacified it's real and
pretend extremists. Birtherism is but one example. Now we are seeing it
again in the last two years on the left in the area of gender politics. Extreme
violence that includes nine civil wars in Islamic countries, 60 million displaced
Middle Eastern war displaced flowing to Europe, extreme economic volitility taking
oil prices from over $100 to below $40. (The Russian and Texas oil economies
do not want a treaty with Iran that might bring Iranian oil on market further
Did I say too many extremely tall people...?
Nephilim? Is that the next stupid thought in the progression of extremes?
These are depicted as biblical offspring, the "sons of God" and "daughters
of men" before the Deluge of Noah referenced not just on biblical sites
but on hundreds of rigged bogus fringe internet sites that all but tell the viewer,
'our way of presentation is deliberately provocative, deliberately insane
extreme religiosity where the term "Reptilians" is always mentioned
to make sure we do everything possible to force you to say, "wow, so
many bat-crazy people on the Internet."
A few are, but in my view the majority of fringe sites and channels are the opposite.
It is not just one site or video, it is thousands deliberately choking the internet.
(The same people might also account for the high number of toxic Internet trolls
always said to be teens or "gamers") And are they all by the same network with
the same motive? No not all. The vast majority.
And how do I know that? Am I as bad as they are with unproven assumptions?
Maybe they're just what they appear to be, opinions by true believers that differ
from mine and not some vast conspiracy? How very comforting and convenient.
Not to mention wrong. Circumstantially wrong.
Double and triple think extreme lying is more popular than ever.
And who am I to call something fringe or absurd when writing something like this?
Besides being a retired 6' boomer who *of course* looks to be 40's - 50's, of average
health, no medication, no nose rings or ponytails, no shaved head, dreds, drugs, man buns,
or tattoos on my head or anywhere else. Pretty dull with nothing in common with people
who look like something straight out of Mad Max (future?), or Mad Men (past).
All the negative aspects in the last paragraph are programmed constants of visual
extremes that I experience day in and day out far in excess of what is characteristic
of my or any average big city neighborhood. My age might suggest someone imagining,
projecting or having profound trouble coping with the disruptions of changing
times, styles and attitudes etc.
I can take more than occasional crowds, loud music, differences and disruptions
that are part of or exceed the average persons day to day experience. What I am
describing is "unpossible" except that nothing written about here can be considered
in any way exceptional. I am describing NYC in a time warp looking more and
more like the NYC of the 1980's without the drug related crime. The city is
becoming a dead zone, an overcrowded graveyard or deadman's party reflective
not only of subjective events but also of larger objective global issues.
*Many of those I am trying to describe seem to eat little, sleep little and have
no particular interest in sex apart from procreation unless called upon to take
on an outrageous outdated 1980's punkish, sexually suggestive or ambiguous appearance.
Contrived appearance, contrived outrageousness, contrived gender ambiguity.
*Whether these are street people, amped or so-called hipster types with
arms covered by tattoos, all perfectly uniformed down to the off center
or backwards rally caps, the cut of beard or the one sided shaved head
or what used to be called skinhead prison chic now called street style.
*Conversly, obsessive cleanliness is also a common factor.
*A contrived overly polite manner (well gee, what's wrong with that?) also
seems to be used to counter any deliberate weirdness in appearance and to
enhance the impression of being average upstanding citizens beyond reproach.
Blindside bumping or grappling one minute like something from Fight Club,
holding doors and smiling excessively the next like scenes from "The Truman Show."
Passive aggressiveness on steroids on parade, in extremis.
*When ordering in a store too many women make a point of speaking in overly polite
exaggerated little girl "up-talk" tempos. Or clipped tones of "yeah yeah". Common
enough and considered a sign of politeness back in the day. Everyday I udder the
words, "incredible, this cannot be happening...and there it is plain as day." This isn't
anything new. I've only just noticed for the last 16 years.
During this time I've noticed too many males take on a deliberately fake vocal fry,
mission control exaggerated macho laughable speech pattern or else the
opposite extreme, gay effeminate mannerisms and speech over and far beyond
any Google IT employee, gay or nerd stereotype. Like a rehearsed nonstop
standup comedy act lasting for a few months and then replaced by something
else just as weird. It gets worse...
*Women that I went with in the early 2000's once made a point of licking pasta sauce
from a plate in a restaurant. Another would put a bare hand into a restaurant buffet.
Another wore big cleverge in very cold, below freezing weather. Completely covered
in 80+ degrees. Public sex was preferred on too many occasions to something normal,
like a nearby house or apartment. I was always the one to question the insanity of it
even though I didn't protest too much. "Hey look, is it me or is that guy staring?"
The answer from the girl, "who cares."
The multiple messages from these women:
'I have no need to operate as you do.' 'I am beyond disruptive.'
'Our relationship won't be average or normal.' 'Sex? Take it or leave it, who cares,
don't get too attached.' 'I have to act this way.' 'I'm here to do a job...'
None of these women ever said as much directly. And no, they weren't working
for any deep dark government agency and weren't getting paid in any known currency.
None of the above was the result of anger, mood change, hot flashes, eccentricity, a joke,
self hate, psychopathy, or deficits of intelligence. It was deliberate. None of the
psych-boilerplate cliches apply. (I know, who cares either way?)
*A kind of routine hyperactivity is emphasized (Hyper++) . As a guess, not being
in constant motion invites some kind of automatic direct or indirect negative feedback.
Something like in the Disney movie "Tomorrowland" (machine shutdown) except I'm not
talking about inter-dimensional robot characters or aliens from a Disneyland new world order.
*"They" are big in music, art, entertainment, movies and meditation and at the same time....
* Big on lying and deceit exceeding even psychopathic compulsivity. The more you
engage them the more they are compelled to lie.
* Martial arts skills, acting, entertainment, improvisation, crossword puzzles, PR, propaganda
and manipulation of sound and language and most especially, street theater of a particular kind.
Most of which are typical of certain populations and not any kind of smoking gun proof.
In summery: a 1960's or 80's retro "hipster" appearance, varying degrees of physical
deformity: physical anal retention, sliding "on the down low" pants, spastic penguin
walk, one foot too short, too many doofy addicted appearing white street people
dreadlocked, tattooed, homeless, begging, plastic flamboyants alternated with their
opposites. Grossly over developed over-amped military types with arms and
chests so large (like upright turkeys) they are forced to move or pretend to move in stupidly
exaggerate marching styles alone or in pairs. (I say this even considering the gyms
on every corner)
Seen and encountered until replaced by something equally monotonous and
monstrously repulsive not in kind but in frequency. Visual psychological waterboarding.
With variety and monotony.
Nothing that I see in public is as it should be but, at the same time, nothing looks
flagrantly out of sync to casual observers. All can be seen as classic ______(fill in the
symptomatic blanks) or just crotchety old age dementia, evident lack of insight...
move to Fla. blah blah blah.
I used to think in terms of mood, selective attention, particular preoccupations,
mistakes in perception or individual dislikes. I have long since stopped questioning
my sanity, senses, or thinking I am having a bad day, month, year or life.