Friday, April 15, 2016


"In Russia, farms of online trolls systematically harass democratic voices and spread false information on the Internet and on social media."...Eric Schmidt, CEO of Google/ Alphabet. 

NPR podcast intro to the NYT article regarding Sept. 11, 2014 Russian Troll Farm manufactured news of explosions and Ebola rumors in the US leading up to the
Nov. 2014 Congressional elections.

Per BuzzFeed:
"Russia’s campaign to shape international opinion around its invasion of Ukraine has extended to recruiting and training a new cadre of online trolls that have been deployed to spread the Kremlin’s message on the comments section of top American websites."
"Plans attached to emails leaked by a mysterious Russian hacker 
collectivist show IT managers reporting on a new ideological 
front against the West in the comments sections of Fox News, Huffington Post, The Blaze, Politico, and WorldNetDaily."  
"The bizarre hive of social media activity appears to be part of a two-pronged Kremlin campaign to claim control over the internet, launching a million-dollar army of trolls to mold American public opinion as it cracks down on internet
freedom at home."

And no, as bad as things are on the Internet, it ain't Gaza, it ain't the Ukranine, 
Ebola, or Everest Awakening with earthquakes in Nepal.  Yet.

That said, there are things far stranger and more disruptive than everything in the above
sentence put together.  Difficult to express, impossible to prove and close to "unpossible"
for me to believe.

That said, this blog is NOT about the Middle East, 911, terrorism, UFO's, revelations from God, Satan, Illuminutty New World Orders, immanent police states, Fukushima, contagion, right
wing financial or theocratic end-time fear and doom.  Nothing about imminent nuclear, asteroidal
threat or very real climate change reality.

This is a minority report about encroaching extremes, the nature of things and the bugs
in the machine that makes up reality reflected in media, politics, disinformation, entertainment including and surpassing the cultural divide between blue pills, red pills, left and right.

The latter differences are exaggerated and exploited by both major political parties but the
outrageous house, hair and pants on fire always at war rhetoric by right wing media and
politicians is and has always been truly in a class of it's own long before the T - (Trump)
Party, or the Trump alternative, Fox "News" and Ted Cruz.

Per the lead Eric Schmidt quote, You Tube and the internet are becoming choked by very
sane manipulators of the "Paranoid Style" originating in and mostly outside the US.  It is not
confined to extensive troll farm disinformation from Russia or Israeli "hasbara brigades"
or the British or NSA versions of same.  This blog is an unacknowledged wave of the hand
and wag of the finger to all the hired morons who clog up the world with disinformation
while admitting and being well aware of my own cognitive dissonance.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016


The most important question regarding the claims in my first post is always why?  Simply to 
"nudge", erode, manufacture doubt and trust in facts, numbers, nuance, governments 
and to force that distrust into so-called mainstream politics and culture.  Just look 
at what passes for populist right wing politics in the U.S.?  Meanwhile...

...the following video by Dr. Michio Kaku does not fit that category.

After land, sea, air, the internet and space, there is another final frontier, another domain of
contention and warfare.  The sixth domain, the human brain and the control of same.   

Cognitive dissonance however is hard to avoid.  Proof of claim hard to come by.  
The experts precede me.  As in...

...thousands of bogus fear and doom disinformation videos and websites 
pretending to expose government sponsored mind control that all but stand 
on their heads to tell viewers that all these channels, sites, blogs are made by 
Psy-Ops contractors imitating paranoia, delusion and "Big Brother" doublethink.

As mentioned, most "mind control", gangstalking fear and doom websites
are made by fake PR salesmen/ play-actors who add a "Doublethink" twist.
Contrary to Doctor Vaughan Bell and the NY Times link below, only a few
of these sites are by the mentally ill.  But how do I know/ prove that?
I can't.  It is therefore advisable for media friendly professionals like Dr. Bell
to safely come to the easy conclusion that all these videos are to be dismissed
as paranoia by and for paranoids and nothing more.

He would say I'm projecting or seeing what I want to see.  Or that I'm claiming
that conspiracy channels are a meta conspiracy of conspiracies.  He would never
say I'm seeing them for what they are and not for what they all but say they are.

The content of the videos in question are the very thing they pretend to be against.  IOW, videos
and blogs pretending to be fighting mind control and which are in themselves the purest form
of mind control via repetition and shear numbers of videos, comments, sites, blogs, forums.

Am I suggesting a meta conspiracy whereby the thousands of conspiracy videos are
conspiracies of conspiracies?  Am I contradicting all the media friendly psychiatrists like Dr. Vaughan Bell who say these videos are paranoia by and for paranoids?  Some are, most are not.

These aren't lunatics imitating each other.  These are pretenders and or bots who coincidently
use the same fear and doom style as a few likely very sane westerners mentioned in the
paragraph below who act in the name of the American and European fringe radical right wing
while pretending to be beyond political or ideological binary constructs of right and left.

Never underestimate the power of political PR even from strident pretend fools like Alex "Skull
and Bones" Jones and David Icke who are one step below the National Enquirer.  One step "up" would be right wing Breitbart Blogs, Glenn Beck's The Blaze, WorldNetDaily, Drudge, talk
radio or You Tube internet radio troll farm salesmen pretending to deliver "alternative" news
"the government doesn't want you to hear."

The above are not just opinions that disagree with my own.  If you have a political lie machine as powerful and rich as the Republican Party you automatically generate extreme outliers to prop
up the mainstream and vice versa.   Pretty soon the outliers through their true believer fanatic
manic energy become the mainstream.  How many of them actually believe their own nonsense?
How many are in on the joke that is their political ideology?  Doesn't matter but the answer is
relatively few.  All they have to do is keep repeating the the same decades old themes adapted
to present day events which then become either true or pretend belief.  And the right has my
counterpart contriving a right wing Alex Jones version of Orwell's 1984.  And probably
doing a better job.  Conservatives have very legitimate points many of which I agree with.

Wednesday, December 9, 2015


Secret and commercialized sound weapon systems go by benign as well as provocative science fiction names like Remote Neural Monitoring and Influence", "Voice of God" and V2k or Voice To Skull used on disinformation sites and videos.  That's not including the more officious military lingo.

"Monitoring" and "influence?   How PR nice sounding and unthreatening can you get?

Names and acronyms for commercially supposedly available sound weapons: Magnetic Audio Device, or MAD, and Sound Commander, Hyperspike, Banshee II, Sonic Nausea, Sonic
Devastator, the Inferno Intenso, (The what? I don't believe it) the Shout, the Shriek, the Scream (used by Israel since 2004) induces nausea and dizziness. In combining two low frequencies "knees buckle, the brain aches, the stomach turns...", (oh yes, yes, I'll have what she's having, give me more), the SHOFAR (by the Israeli EORD - "non-lethal" high-power acoustic radiator with 36 acoustic boxes functioning in phase to reach a claimed amplitude of 128 bD at 50 meters), The MOSQUITO by the British company Compound Security Systems (CSS). Under the name of Beethoven you can get "a sound that softens behavior" (said the website slogan before it disappeared).   Claims on corporate websites are always said to be exaggerated never resulting in working real world technology. They do provide an idea as to possibilities.  Old news and also mostly meaningless for the average person like the supposedly serious book on sound weapons called "Extremely Loud." Serious until checking their bogus Comedy Central type websites. 

This video is a Democracy Now commentary on G-20 demonstrations in Pittsburg.  From my POV both sides, the police with their big deal military trucks and crowd dispersal equipment as well as political theater from what's left of the left are pretty sad.  Almost like Orwell's 1984 where Big Brother created his own "underground" opposition and proceeded to attack his own creation.

Bob Dylan used to describe "hippies" walking on the roof of his house in Woodstock.
If he was telling the truth at all there were likely no hippies, no fanatics walking on his roof and it probably wasn't a jazz cigarette induced paranoid auditory hallucination either.  It is likely he did hear sounds coming from the direction of his roof.

How about indulging in some conspiracy. Dylan's wife at that time was named Sara.  A contractor in the field of directed sound weaponry is Scientific Applications and Research Association or SARA Inc.  The implications however meaningless are most likely true.  Dylan was likely hearing a base sound mimicking boots walking on his roof among other simulated common sounds.  The crooked music industey?  Government or police harassment using early stage sound technology?  Possibly.  Or something much stupider
and at the same time more real and much more insidious.

Sunday, December 6, 2015


The female reporter in the excellent movie Spotlight briefly interviewed an accused former
priest depicted as a Father Panquin who admitted everything he was accused of.  The depicted
aging priest claimed he got no pleasure from molestating boys.  Before this priest was stopped
from talking further he matter of factly mentioned that he also was raped when he was young.
The actor depicted the priest as forthright and not mentally unhinged.  And what does this
topic have to do with anything?

Why was this scene specifically included in the movie?  What was being said?  Was he
describing the Catholic Church's unofficial recruitment of future priests to stem the shortage?
I give them more credit than that.  Were there other motives besides convenient perverted
sexual outlets always available for those taking celibacy vows aided by the increasing
availability of stimulant drugs like pot, meth or cocaine?  Were there other motives besides
suppressed sexual compulsion and dumb mechanical assembly-line methods of making
future priests?

The Catholic Church as everyone knows reached unprecedented riches in post emigrant
America.  Enter the self-imposed karmic police.  Brought down by reporters, lawyers,
by the institution itself and by something else.

The Catholic Church under Pope Francis is still very formidable as it should be.  Pope Francis
has reported that his will be a short rein do to health problems.  The previous Pope, Pope
Benedict, was acting as Pope long before his formal election.  Conservatives are unfortunately
still very much still in control.

I had a talk with a dying priest, Father Philip in 2007.  In response to my then feeble
questions he said the following regarding real world methods used by the bagmen of the
Catholic Church, the people who make the real estate deals and come up with large sums
when needed (Knights of Columbus?).  "They don't follow any religion."  "They have their
own agenda."  Was this priest talk to pacify me?  Was he medicated or sick?  The latter.

In one of his last sermons this priest sounded very much in control saying, "watch out for
those who value piety over people."  IOW, watch out for ultra-orthodox regardless of faith or ideology.  Islamic or Christian.  Pius X, Pastor John Hagee or Messianic Zionists.

Conservative defenders to the death of the Catholic Church haven't seen their day come and go
with the emergence of Pope Francis.  Just the opposite.  As always they see themselves as being vindicated and redeemed.

Public ridicule has always been seen by the religious as a badge of honor.  The Church isn't the 
only one operating in this mode.  In other sections I go into my views on institutions and 
celebrities who seem to invite public ridicule.  The Church has done the same.  It sees and 
feeds into geopolitical events that are said to resemble that which occurred before WWI and II. 

Women and minorities both racial and sexual are having their deserved day in and out of the media.
In my view media outlets like the Huffington Post go beyond caricature into the void when it
comes to reporting on Cait Jenner gender politics from Room 101.  They love clickbait sensationalism and they won't miss my readership in the least.  In times of mixed gender and
abortion cultural upheaval, extreme conservatives have taken control of of the U.S. Congress.
Imagine a President Trump or any other Republican leading a Republican Congress and SCOTUS? Hillary Clinton is the only one who can upset this impossible right wing winner-take-all scenario.

Friday, December 4, 2015


No Doubt, the previous paragraph regarding the depressing Republican control of Congress and right wing trolls can be temporarily offset by
Gwen Stefani, The Soggy Bottom Boys, George Clooney and the movie,
Oh Brother Where Art Thou?

Summer of 2016 I'm walking past Lincoln Center on my way to see "Genius" at the Lincoln
Plaza.  I pass a political writer on the street I recognize but I'm very bad with names.  I sit
down in the theater to watch the coming attractions.  An upcoming film about autism,
"Life Animated" had the name Ron Suskind in the credits.  He's the father of the subject
of the film with autism.  Of course it was Suskind I had just passed on the street.

The movie "Genius" is about Thomas Wolfe and his editor Maxwell Perkins who also was the
editor for Hemingway and F. Scott Fitzgerald.  Wolfe's first book, "Look Homeward Angel"
played a large role in the movie.  Previously I knew nothing about Wolfe except that he was a
writer whose photo I'd seen at the Whitehorse Tavern downtown.  I had no plans to see the
movie but I happened to play this Steve Young (who died this year) video the night before:

Stuff like that happens all the time and no big deal.  When I played the video I
completely missed the part about "my old friend Thomas from Ashville North Carolina."
Genius was an amazing film about two Americans played by two British actors.  All the
better because the Brits, with a sense of history and context, really know how to make
movies.  Wolfe at 6' 6" was not the sad depressed writer I associated with the photo.

"In a system on a chip, peripherals are incorporated into the same integrated circuit as the central processing unit. They are still referred to as "peripherals" despite being permanently attached to (and in some sense part of) their host processor..."  A loose description of something I attempt to described on this page and throughout.

Now what does William Gibson's SF novel "The Peripheral" have to do with anything? 
And why was he in the same NYC subway car late 2014 standing over me with 
another guy about his age about a month after I bought his book?  Coincidences like that
happen all the time.  Except with some people they happen just a little too often.

He just happened to be wearing the same outfit as his photo on the back of the book.
I kept saying what I find myself saying all too often these days, "Is that what's-his-face?
Nah, can't be...too old.  Except that it was his face.  He was doing publicity in NYC
at the time with recorded YT interviews.

Are the people I describe biological time traveling humanoid machines from the future
with uploaded conscious personalities as in Gibson's story?  His vechicles are imagination,
metaphor, and allegory.  Mine unfortunately aren't.

Thursday, December 3, 2015


So who, what, when, where, and most importantly, why? Good questions all.  Herein 
lies all the superficial appearances of insanity and madness not to mention contradiction.  

Another question needs to be asked.  Who is this blog addressed to?  Who is likely to 
even pretend to believe any of it?  The answer is nada, NO ONE. 

The following is a Wiki entry regarding unwitting volunteer CIA Harvard programs 
of the 1950's.  IOW, a little context regarding what is now given the dumb name 
"gang stalking" on countless bogus sites and You Tube channels which are the likely 
troll farm subjects of Eric Schmidt's recent quote on my opening page. 
  •   EDIT

    From the fall of 1959 through the spring of 1962, (Dr.) Murray was responsible 
    for the ethically questionable, CIA-sponsored MK ULTRA experiments in which twenty-two undergraduates were used as research subjects.[3][4] Among other purposes, Murray's experiments focused on measuring people's reactions under extreme stress. 
  • Unwitting undergraduates submitted to what Murray himself called "vehement, sweeping and personally abusive" attacks. Assaults to their egos, cherished ideas and beliefs were the vehicle used to cause high levels of stress and distress. Among them was 16-year-old Ted Kaczynski, who went on to become the Unabomber, a serial killer targeting academics and technologists. [5] Alston Chase's book Harvard and the Unabomber: The Education of an American Terrorist connects Kaczynski's abusive experiences under Murray to his later criminal career. Theodore John Kaczynski, was given the code name "Lawful".

The above was a CIA program, a footnote that might have been expanded beyond the laboratory
into campus life in the case of one, Ted Kaczynski with his 170 IQ.  Even if that wasn't the case
the above wording perfectly describes something that predates the CIA.  It describes a systematic psychological waterboarding assault on the senses.

IOW, the above serves as an approximation of something that is not now and never was
confined to very intelligent but susceptible Harvard crash-test dummy undergraduate
guinnea pigs.  In the version I describe no human could be anything but susceptible
when subject to what is beyond my means of description.

IOW, the stuff associated with madness.  I will attempt to provide the only "proof" 
that I am aware of which can barely be considered circumstantial.  When context is 
provided it might be slightly more than circumstantial.  It might provoke the question, 
"what the hell is going on here?"  If there's anyone left with enough curiosity to even ask. 

Wednesday, December 2, 2015


Stranger than fiction events comparable to scenes from the 1990
movie "Jacob's Ladder" minus combat related PTSD or the Hollywood
elements of demons, drugs, flashbacks, exploding cars and the contrived
cop-out "it was all a drug induced dream before death" depressing ending.
The lead character Jacob Singer (Tim Robbins) is a Jewish Army combat soldier in
Vietnam.  He is bayoneted in the stomach by one of his own men who were depicted
as being unwitting lab rats in a CIA drug experiment using something like BZ, an
hallucinatory aggression amplifying drug.  Jacob is found in the jungle with his
intestines outside his body.  Singer is still alive and taken by helicopter to a basecamp hospital.

The movie then picks up on what is supposed to be his post war civilian life.
In my view, all the scenes in this movie, all the flashbacks, everything hallucinatory
are depicted for a reason and meant to stand on their own loosely depicting iconic
events that happened before and after the movie was made.  And no, the makers of
the film we're not time travelers or psychic and could care less about me.

In 1985 I had "successful" sternum to pelvic bone resection surgery.  Ten inches of
transverse intestine were removed due to a bleeding pre-cancerous blockage.  I was
in my late 30's which was said to be pretty young by an MD I saw long afterward.
Which means second opinions are always in order.  The operation was five yearsbefore the movie release and has no particular meaning because plenty of these
operations take place all the time.  Like they did for my mother.

Unlike the movie I latter experienced a 6 - 8 or 9 month marathon of total sleep deprivation
without stimulant prescription or street drugs.  Considered impossible and as close as
anyone wants to get to a living death.  This was after retiring in 2005 from the NY State
job that I started the same year as my operation, 1985.

At one point the movie shows a civilian Jacob Singer at a crowded NYC apartmentparty mixing with friends of his then hyspanic girlfriend. He is awkward and has
nothing in common with them.  During the party he has his palm read.  The woman
doing the reading says his palm shows him to be already dead.  Singer experiences confusion
and war flashbacks developing into a 106 fever.  His wife, played by the late Elizabeth Peña,
gets him into an ice bath to lower his body temperature.  The shock sends him into delirium,
he blacks out and imagines himself with his Jewish ex-wife.  He tells his ex the bedroom they
are in feels like 10 degrees mirroring the ice bath.  She replies that the room temperature is no
big deal.

Here's how that translates:
In the 1970's I am invited to Brooklyn to "sleep" with a partly Jewish female I'd
been seeing who was always said to be "married."  Her open marital arrangement was

slightly unconventional.  My guess now would be she would get pregnant by a male
loosely defined as a "husband" and would then sleep with me in between pregnancies.
Her looks were the very opposite of the Pena movie character.

The Brooklyn apartment is normal at first and then in the middle of the AM feels to be
at least 10 degrees below.  She says the heat is turned off at night.  It is unnaturally cold.
When I try to touch her to warm up she is too hot to get close to.  She is burning up but
notices nothing wrong.  She is too young for hot flashes.  Her body heat was beyond
anything sexual or natural.  But considering what we just did it did serve a purpose
even if it was beyond her control.

Awake all night in the sub-freezing cold room I go to work the next morning, and
of course, see her "husband" coming from his night job.  We turn around at the same
time as we pass.  He probably knows what's going on but it is all made to seem like high
intrigue.  Like a movie.  The invitation, the room temperate, her temperature and the morning meeting was a contrived stupid arrangement designed to provoke guilt and confusion about the
the woman I thought I knew.  The room and body temperatures of that night, like the
relationship itself, were not part of anything normal.  I was the only one not in on the joke.

Tuesday, December 1, 2015


There are scenes in the movie of insidious crazed doctors with the typical big needles.
This is replaced in reality by "nice guy" smiling student dentists applying unneeded
painful injections into the chin cavity inside my lower gums.  Smiling Asian "student"
dentist knew I would yell out in a crowded clinic which I haven't done at the hands of
dentists since the sixth grade.  Smiling Asian student dentist denies everything.  Everyone
stays in character except me.

Jacob experiences the extreme guilt that comes with the death of a son in an auto accident.
Apart from anything mentioned here extreme guilt was in play for other reasons.

What I try and fail to describe above and below is all too similar to the shocks
depicted in post war civilian parts of the movie except that the reality is less dramatic.

Unlike Singer, I never got off at abandoned Bergen Street subway stations in Brooklyn.
The people seen by Jacob in compressed scenes on subways are comparable to what I
see in encounters more numerous except that none include seeing homeless with tails
left out of some versions of the movie.

Ever see a fake subway fight with real people bouncing off seats inside a moving subway car?
I was not involved but I could see the contrived desperation of it unfolding in front of me.
What would be considered extreme is now seen as ordinary.  That's an example of what I
see every time I use the subways of NYC.  Imagination, mood, paranoia or drugs play no
part and never have.

Jacob experiences one visual shock after another.  This extends to the physical as he
is abducted by three men in a moving auto that he escapes only to have his wallet and ID
picked after he hits the ground by a guy in a Santa Klaus suit and beard waving his
bell for donations.  When asked what happened to his ID at a hospital ER he feels forced
to admit "Santa Klaus" took it confirming the doctors idea of something an insane
person would say.  When wheeled on a gurney through the hospitals winding corridors
the audience and Jacob sees his ex curled on the hospital floor, his chiropractor behind a
glazed window and his girlfiend as one of the nurses.  This could be the result of a
concussion received in the speeding car but, as mentioned previously, also represents
something else.  Similar disjointed events not so dramatic things happen routinely in real life.
The fact that none of it answers to logic soon becomes and is beside the point.

At one point in April of 2014 in late afternoon I am pined to the floor of a lower
Manhattan bar after being asked to leave for no apparent reason.  I offered but wasn't given
the chance to pay my bill.  There was no previous trouble, no inebriation in a near empty bar.
No trouble until three guys enter from the back meeting me as I come out of the men's room.
One puts a knee to the back of my leg sending me to the ground with a guy for each leg
and one with his knee on my chest holding down my arms.  He knows his knee is stopping
me from breathing and talking normally.  While down I manage to call him a moron.  I am
cuffed, ID is taken and returned.  No police ID is shown, I am uncuffed.  An ambulance
comes and I am driven to to Presbyterian Hospital in lower Manhattan where the only
people I talk to are uncomprehending blank-faced security.  I sit down and walk out after
30 seconds.  No blow to the head, no Santa Klaus characters.

No medical procedures, no blood pressure taken but the Presbyterian Hospital ambulance
bills my insurance for over a thousand dollars.  Routine fraud is the least of it.  I consider
challenging the claim.  I go back to the bar and a different bartender knows nothing.  And
who is going to believe this story even with witnesses.  Nada, no one.

Sunday, November 29, 2015


On my last day at work in 2005 one 6' 4" black on the fat side co-
worker made a point of telling me that I would find out what it was
like to be among "daytime people."  Slackers, stoners, hipsters,
unemployed, students, or, like me, retired.  I won't insult any of
the above by comparing them with what is described here except
for the "hipster" brigade who don't legitimately exist except on Fox News. 

It's as if I had some kind of extreme audacity to retire after working seventy hour
weeks at two jobs for twenty years with nothing to show for it.  And no, I wasn't
effected by working 70 hours weeks to zero.

I will attempt to describe these completely unnerving, "peripheral" human++ types seemingly
straight out of a horror movie or something from a demented central casting call for Marvel
unitards.  I would say straight out of Comedy Central because that is exactly what this sounds
like.  Except for the fact that I am completely serious and the above two plus marks after the
word human are completely applicable and accurate which is in no way a compliment.

Everything described in this blog does not originate in any particular time period
or country.  Manifestly obvious in the 1980's in the following ways: I had no idea
at the time but I suspect, without proof, that certain "new age" groups like Macrobiotics, Bioenergetics, Sri Chinmoy, Bubba Free John, Integral Yoga and many other so-called
alternative eastern and western groups were completely serious as far as their stated
intentions and completely rigged after certain points.

By who?  Not the FBI who were probably there reporting to J. Edgar's successor
on what might be considered potential foreign subversive infiltration.  The groups
themselves didn't care and probably got a bunch of laughs over the designated potential G-Man.

These alternative groups had excellent PR depending on the image they wanted projected.
From Franklin Jones' and his "miracles" and bad-boy reported orgies which were likely
faked or contrived for the sake of rumor.

Or relatively conservative East-Indian mediation teachers seemingly following unwritten
scripts of prescribing celebracy until, one after the other, getting "caught" seducing
female followers. We're these deliberately self-provoked falls from "enlightened grace"
as an offset to being objects of worship and fame?  Deliberately arranged and welcomed
fake PR both positive and negative.

IMO, many people, leaders, celebrities like Mel Gibson manufacture deliberate public
humiliation under the guise of sex, mental illness, substance abuse or all three.
Right after he, Gibson, makes a billion dollars depicting the crucifixion of Christ
a series of incidents take place that he blames on alcohol, "the Joos", and a bipolar condition.
I don't buy it at all.  Was he actually DWI? Involved with porn actresses etc etc.  Most
likely yes.  All real and faked and it doesn't really matter in his case.  Public disgrace is
considered a badge of honor and something to actually strive for in some religious quarters.
Like his for instance.  Like the Catholic Church for instance.  He just happens to be
fundamentalist Catholic.  Which goes back to my impressions of the movie, "Spotlight"
and indirectly, with the depicted interview in the movie with the older ex-priest.

Saturday, November 28, 2015





More extremely tall people of both sexes than I or anyone (not as tall as the videos) does not
usually qualify for mention.  I'm six foot and not considered short or tall.  In the middle as usual.  Each generation gets taller and all that but what I see is over and above.

I briefly spoke to a woman at the Chelsea Market who looked to be in her 70's, easily over
6' 4" who looked to be related to another woman of average height I worked with and went
with after 911.  The older version denied she had a daughter, was the only one I can
remember in that age group of that height which means, of course, it happens and who cares?

...extreme height is but one example of what happens when extremes of every kind 
are made to become routine across age groups, genders, races,  nationalities, geography.

And it will be said, "well, of course, tall people stand out and are noticed and so what?"
I spoke about all the extremely tall women I was seeing with my sister in late 2015.  On the
first day of her arrival in NYC we met in an Irish bar close to 34th Street on 8th Ave.  A tall transvestite drew fake whistles from the crowded bar.  On her last day in town in a restaurant
a woman came in who had to be as tall as anything in the video.  My sister's jaw dropped in
amazement at the sight of a 6' 11" female who just happened to coincidently drop by.

*Many of those I am trying to describe seem to eat little, sleep little and have no particular
interest in sex apart from procreation unless called upon to take on an outrageous outdated
compulsive 1980's punkish, sexually suggestive or ambiguous appearance.  One extreme to
another.  Contrived appearances, contrived outrageousness, contrived gender ambiguity.

*Whether street people with over-amped musculature, so-called hipster
types covered with tattoos, looking completely wrong or perfectly uniformed
down to off center or backwards rally caps, long beards with man-buns growing
in the opposite direction, one sided shaved head or what used to be called skinhead
prison chic now called street style.  Or just make something up.  It turns out this is
not confined to only generational changes.

*Conversly, obsessive cleanliness might also be a common factor.  When sleeping
very little the immune system suffers otherwise.

*A contrived overly polite manner is used to counter any deliberate gross weirdness
in appearance such as bleached white hair on both sexes or black dyed and yellow
tipped hair or dyed blond beards on brown skinned males.  How many guys are
going to want to maintain dyed hair past their teens?  Too many.

*Behavoral opposite extremes: Blindside bumping or grappling one minute
like something from "Fight Club."  Holding doors and smiling excessively
like from "The Truman Show" with Jim Carrey waving in faux friendliness,
"Have a good day, and if I don't see ya, have a good afternoon, evening and night too"
(Ah hah, you knew it, a simple case of "Truman Show Delusion Syndrome" a media
driven paranoid variation of "Jumping Horsemen of the Maine Syndrome." Or just make
something up)

Passive aggressiveness on parade, in extremis and nobody notices.

* Too many caucasian women speaking in overly polite exaggerated pretty please
Valley Girl "up-talk" in NYC while fishing in their pocketbooks for their wallets
to count out exact change along with clipped tones of "yeah yeh".  Common enough
and considered a sign of politeness back in the day.  Way back.

* For several months guys take on a deliberately fake vocal fry, mission control
exaggerated macho laughable speech pattern...

or else the opposite extreme, gay effeminacy over and above any Google IT, gay
or nerd stereotype.  A rehearsed nonstop standup comedy act seen for a few months
and then replaced by something else going from dumb to_____.

*Women that I went with in the early 2000's once made a point of licking pasta sauce
from a plate in a restaurant.  Another would put a bare hand into a restaurant buffet.
Or wearing big cleverge in twenty degree weather.  With the same person covered
except for a burka in 80+ degrees.  Contrived public sex when a nearby house
or apartment was available.  I was always the one to question it, "hey look, is it me
or is that guy staring?"  The unlikely and overly casual answer from the girl, "who cares."

IOW a mix or mostly normal behavior with rare extreme fake disruptive behavior.
The unstated multiple messages from these women: "I have no need to operate as you do."
"I am beyond disruptive, crazy, average or normal".  "Sex? Take it or leave it, but once I compulsively start don't try to stop me."  "Don't get attached AND I will make sure that
you do."  "If questioned I might even deny what I just did."

They weren't working for any deep dark government agency, no getting paid in bitcoins
or any other physical currency.  None of the above was the result of anger, mood change,
hot flashes, menopause, eccentricity, a joke, self hate, psychopathy, deficits of intelligence
or my imagination.  None of the DSM or psych-boilerplate cliches apply.

*A kind of routine hyperactivity (Hyper++) .  As a guess, not being in constant motion
and constantly busy invites some kind of automatic direct or indirect negative feedback.
Something like in the Disney movie "Tomorrowland" where too many nuanced questions
resulted in a pretend "machine shutdown" to stop the line of questioning.
* Big on non-traditional careers, music, art, entertainment, acting, meditation and
at the same time....
* Big on lying and deceit exceeding even psychopathic compulsivity.  The more you
engage them directly the more they are compelled to lie.  Direct queries are a waste of time.
* Fighters fluent in martial arts
* acting, improvisation, PR, propaganda and a speaking in tongues
gibberish mixed with actual language.  Most especially a synchronized smart mobbing
in public.
* Very big on "Dia De Los Muertos" skull tattoos and imagery on shirts and hats.
*They make their own or buy cheap wild, flamboyant or nondescript clothes.
One extreme to the another.  Compulsive disruption on steroids.

Reasonable people might see this as typical of certain people and not any kind of
meaningful smoking gun.  They would be right.  But there is nothing reasonable
about any of this.

A "dead air" kind of atmosphere is felt on occasion.  Something like a Maxwell
Smart "cone of silence" negative zero point "dead air" effect.  When with certain
females there is the opposite effect.  Like the brain coming into sharp zero point focus.

* Spastic penguin walk, addicted appearing street people dreadlocked, tattooed,
homeless, begging, flamboyant road warriors looking like users and stretched out
on the street with the newer replacements for heroine pain killer derivatives.

* Grossly over developed over-amped military types with arms and chests so large
(like upright turkeys) they are forced to move or pretend to move in stupidly
exaggerate marching styles usually by themselves.  As of mid-year 2016 a more
conservative amphed style has been added to the mix.

Seen and encountered until replaced by something equally monotonous and monstrous.
Repulsive not in kind but in frequency.  Visual psychological waterboarding both
in variety and monotony.  Quite an accomplishment.

Nothing that I see in public is as it should be but, at the same time, nothing looks
flagrantly out of sync to casual observers.  All can be seen as classic ______(fill in the
symptomatic blanks) or just crotchety old age dementia, evident lack of insight...
DSM language of convenience sounding more comical than what is being described.
Neither is this about about "people who don't look like me."  I don't need or want everyone
to look like me or my overachieving opposite, Donald Trump, the man with the spray-on
saffron hair and tan.

Wednesday, November 25, 2015


Don McLean dedicated this song on a live video to all those who live in NYC full-time.

The perfect intro to:
* Extreme man-made climate change across the earth. 
* Extreme violence including nine simultaneous civil wars in Islamic countries.
* Extreme right wing resurgent politics worldwide with Trump birtherism as just one example.
Millions of displaced flowing into Western and Easten Europe and the Americas. 
* Extreme economic volatility from the Great Recession of 2008 to the collapse of oil 
prices from over $100 to below $30 a barrel.  

Now what is all this "nonsense" about extreme height?
I don't see 6' 5" women every time I go out.  But close to it.  Are they all models, college
or pro athletes?  Nephilim?  Is that the next stupid thought in the progression of extremes?
There are internet sites and videos about "sons of God" and "daughters of men" that supposedly existed before the Noah referenced not just on biblical sites but on hundreds of rigged bogus 
fake blogs and videos whose fake presentation is deliberately provocative.  Where the terms 
"Reptilians" and "ancient space aliens" are repeated over and over to convince those not in 
on the joke that the internet is teaming with nuts.

A few are by and for the insane but the majority of fringe sites and channels are by people (or by
algorithm) who are just the opposite of insane.  It is not just one site or video, it is thousands in a deliberate attempt to choke the internet with redundancy.  The same troll farms also account for
toxic internet trolling and threats directed at women always blamed on teenagers and male gaming
fanatics of all ages.  (Well isn't that exactly the thing I'm bitching about, unproven conspiracies?)

And are the videos, forums and blogs on the subjects of mind control and so-called
"targeted individuals", chemtrails, aliens, financial and Fukushima eschatological
end-times-all-the-time all by the same few loosely defined troll farm networks all
with the same motive?  No, not all.  The vast majority.

Am I am telling my nonexistent readers that there is something wrong beyond my personal
projections of what people should look like, think like or what should and should not be?

Besides being a retired, lazy, 6' aging boomer who *of course* looks to be a 40 - 50 year old
grey hair of average health, no medication, no nose rings or ponytails, no shaved head,
dreads, beard, drugs, addictions, tattoos or man buns.  Pretty dull and nothing in common
with humanoids who look straight out of the meth amphetamined "Mad Max" future or the
"Mad Men" past, ie: the walking monument office staff.  Which seems to be their point.
That there is no future, at least not for them.

And There's Always Room For Just One More:

All the negatives in the last paragraph are constants of visual extremes experienced day 
in and day out far in excess of what should be characteristic of my or any average big 
city mixed neighborhood.  My age could be said to be an advert for someone imagining, projecting or having trouble coping with the disruptions of old age, changing generations, times, styles and attitudes.

I can take more than occasional crowds, loud music, differences and disruptions that are part of
or exceed the average persons day to day experience.  What I am describing is "unpossible"
except that nothing written about here can be considered in any way exceptional.  Except by me,
a left behind kind of guy, who still can't believe his lying eyes and was not invited to the party.

I am describing NYC in a time warp looking more and more like the NYC of the 1980's without
the drug related crime.  Yet.  The city is becoming a dead zone, an overcrowded graveyard or deadman's party reflective of Oingo Bongo things not strictly subjective but that are part of and
apart from global events.  Disruptions not accounted for by official or unofficial U-6 unemployment or displaced migrants.

This particular cycle is mirrored in TV and movie entertainment industry (Gothem, Walking Dead) but never openly acknowledged except as indicated on sites made to be intentionally
ridiculous.  Lies designed to uphold a concensual illusion that wants to be seen like the theme
from the painting "The Scream" only in reverse.  (Schrei or Schreber who had his 1st psychotic "episode" in 1893, the same date as the Munch painting)

A screaming comes across the sky. It has happened before, but there is nothing to compare it to now....Thomas Pynchon, Gravity's Rainbow. 

Friday, November 20, 2015


Not to change the subject but a New Yorker Václav Havel article struck a chord with me.áclav_Havel
Mr. H., Czeck President, Vaclav Havel in 1990 accepting an honorary degree at Hebrew 
University and comparing his experiences to Mr. K, Franz Kafka.

"One of them is a profound, banal, and therefore utterly vague sensation of culpability, as though my very existence were a kind of sin.  Then there is a powerful feeling of general alienation, both my own and relating to everything around me, that helps to create such feelings; an experience of unbearable oppressiveness, a need constantly to explain myself to someone, to defend myself, a longing for an unattainable order of things, a longing that increases as the terrain I walk through becomes more muddled and confusing."

About the only thing I have in common with Vaclav Havel is that my
last name also begins with H and otherwise nothing in this blog compares
to what what he experienced in prison before the Prague Spring in the
freeing of Czechoslovakia from the Warsaw Pact USSR.

We can easily go from Havel, Kafka and the Prague Spring to Orwell.

Double Plus Un-Good: (Orwellian news-speak describing the two legged
bad guys who run this horror show with some help from their "friends") 
I used to be very smug and very sure that my version of things was "right".
There have always been mentally ill people who believe they are victimized by
whoever he or she believes the enemy or "They" happen to be.  Everything in this blog
can be interpreted in that light.  Understandable but incorrect.  I was completely wrong
in my assumptions and no one could tell me otherwise.

DIRECT EXPERIENCE ON THE RECEIVING END beginning in 1994 and becoming
much more aggressive after 2001which many would contrive to say is some kind of
911 PTSD or some such nonsense.  The following will include the cringeworthy but
accurate explanation as to the source of all that I'm describing.  And no, it has nothing
to do with government or contractor conspiracies.  Any references to same are done for
the sake of context if not clarity.

1) E-distorted scream sound effect inside as well as outside my apartment followed by
verbal and multiple pulsed frequency combinations inducing nausea, skin heating, racing
heart, stim vibrations felt in the kidney adrenals, angina, and total sleep deprivation
for 3/4 of a year and the resulting temporary arthritis and painful physical side effects.
These are and are not experimemts.  Sleep deprivation for this amount of time,
normally impossible, is made to be very routine which means keeping a person
alive and totally sleepless for 3/4 of a year doesn't seem to present much of a
problem for those hiding behind the decisive asset, as Martin Ames would say,
of being beyond belief.

New methods are likely added in pursuit of absolute overwhelming
intimidation, domination and control as if always in a constant
state of war implementing no-touch intimidation with and w/o physical
contact subverting any possible local and federal laws or credible
complaint.  No evidence is apparent, all complaints are dismissed.

Pulsed multi-frequency combinations are invasive, invisible, leave no
incriminating marks and yet are capable of "touching" and causing
extreme physical pain, nausea, heating of the skin or racing heart chest
pain causing the person to keel over.  The latter are all consigned
to something called "anxiety attacks."  Nothing was wrong with my heart.
Also no government plot, no technology or invisible microwave DEW beams.

2) People on the receiving end are kept alive and relatively healthy in a kind of
functional half-life fog.  Involuntary sleep deprivation and disruption via verbiage, 
sound effects (the old ceiling rapping of horror movies, slamming doors and scrapping chairs) 
focused sound frequency vibrations capable of stimulating or depressing major organs, 
modulating blood flow, sex drive and those famous Strangelovian "precious body fluids."

3) During that 3/4 of a year sleepless marathon the only external obvious
differences in the immediate home environment besides those mentioned
are a mild external aerosol chemical smell that probably that probably had
stimulant effects and also an almost constant hissing white-noise-like
sound both in the ears (blood flow due to contracted blood vesicles?)
and, at times, projected into the surrounding apartment space reaching
a crescendo effect around the sleepless endpoint after approximately nine
months and the start of another round of sleep disruption.
This occurs in the person's own living space which was and still is more of an
virtual (v)-prison than a place to live.

4) No third party or doctor can distinguish any of this from classic delusion.
At the mere mention of "hearing voices" doctors can't be blamed for prescribing
useless (in this case) anti-psychotic drugs because even the individual on the
receiving end has no conception, reason or experience to know what's behind any of this.
The person will believe what they are told, that they are psychotic and proceed to be
compliant in taking useless prescriptions.  Lately the mental health profession
see's psychosis on a spectrum.  Functional to disfunctional.  **Will wonders never cease?**

Most people who experience intractable delusion and hallucinations also experience
sleep deprivation and believe, usually wrongfully, that they are the victims of externally
sourced plots.  Everything described here can be met with looks of fake concern
combined with the usual slow shaking of the head, as in, "whoops, there's always
room for one more comedian on the funny farm.

After the months of sleeplessness I assumed, wrongly, that I had a psychotic
break leading to auditory hallucinations and sleeplessness.  It took me years,
and increased sleep, to see things differently.  This can be seen as an attempt
to talk myself out of and change inconvenient reality except for the fact that
I will mention details that are difficult to imagine, copy, contrive or make up.

I can't prove I was completely awake for 3/4 of a year.  A typical response,
"I guess not, staying awake that long is impossible anyway?"  Or "you had to
have been on drugs and forgotten that you slept for brief periods."  Or ,"What's
that? You're being hit by invisible rays by invisible men?  Golly, that's too bad.
Check out some of Schreber's Thorazine flavored Kool-Aid for speedy relief."

(In Schreber's day it was opium and physical fitness for overworked judges)

All kinds of scenarios can be implied or imagined: Street or prescription stimulants?
Persecution complexes along with a desperate need for attention?  Making the whole
thing up or mixing select truth and fantasy, or, or, or anything but what I'm saying.
Convenient understandable automatic default settings that people always fall back
on because what is being said is inconvenient, repellent, or hilariously dumb sounding.
Or just simply impossible.

Total sleeplessness conveniently hinders awareness of what should be obvious.
What proves eventually to be so obvious is an insidious non-imagined 24/7 remote
metaphysical neural hack interference in every aspect of waking and sleeping life.

("What's that you say, metaphysical what?  From victim to mystic.  Where have
we heard that before?")

The above manifested more aggressively in my case around 2002 some months after 911,
while in my fifties.  But was also a continuation of a slightly more subdued series of
personal events starting in 1993-4 coincidentally after the first WTC attack.  There is
no apparent connection and if any exists it is again way past my pay grade.

The more accurate my description of all this the less credible it sounds.  So I should
stop digging the hole deeper, right?  Nope, I'm in over my head and no matter how hard
I dig the hole stays at the same depth.  The level of experience stays the same.  Terrible.

Thursday, November 19, 2015


(always projected into "the future")


Photo: Joint Base Lewis McChord / Flickr


IT’S BEEN FASHIONABLE in military circles to talk about cyberspace as a “fifth domain” for warfare, along with land, space, air and sea. But there’s a sixth and arguably more important warfighting domain emerging: the human brain. 

This new battlespace is not just about influencing hearts and minds
with people seeking truth about this final of frontiers. It’s about 
involuntarily penetrating, shaping, and coercing the mind in the ultimate 
realization of Clausewitz’s definition of war: compelling an adversary to 
submit to one’s will. 
"And the most powerful tool in this war is brain-computer interface (BCI) 
technologies, which connect the human brain to robotic systems."

"Where BCIs can provide opportunities for injured or disabled soldiers 
to remain on active duty post injury, enable paralyzed individuals to 
use their brain to type, or allow amputees to feel using bionic limbs
they can also be exploited if hacked. BCIs can be used to manipulate 
or kill for security or humanitarian purposes, the reality is that 
misapplication of such research and technology has significant 
implications for the future of warfare."

"Recently, security expert Barnaby Jack demonstrated the vulnerability of
biotechnological systems by highlighting how easily pacemakers and implantable 
cardioverter-defibrillators (ICDs) could be hacked, raising fears about the 
susceptibility of even life-saving biotechnological implants. This vulnerability 
could easily be extended to biotechnologies that connect directly to the brain,
such as vagus nerve stimulation or deep-brain stimulation."
(Security expert Barnaby Jack died in 2013)

"Outside the body, recent experiments have proven that the brain can control and maneuver quadcopter drones and metal exoskeletons. How long before we harness the power of mind-controlled weaponized drones – or use BCIs to enhance the power, efficiency, and sheer 
lethality of our soldiers?"
The Wired article is not just posing these facts for the sake of drama. 
It is asking the reader to just use some inference, some imagination as to the
actual possibilities.  Methods that resemble what was thought to be
something akin to "magic" but is not.

In reality there is no compunction about doing involuntary psychological
experimentation on civilians.  Unless caught all of it is sanctioned and winked at
as no big deal.

The average smug individual like I used to be has little to worry about except getting
all angry at NSA spy overreach on one hand and if we are attacked again getting
understandably angry about that.  The media feels entitled to exploit each in isolation
as if one has nothing to do with the other.  Bounced back and forth by our mainstream
and so-called alternative media, between privacy and security with one political
party having a near monopoly on the manipulation and exploitation of fear and
doom perpetual war at home and abroad.  I don't have to mention the name.
This is the party of endless financial and religious endtime all the time disruption.
The lefty unimagined rapture of the nerds global warming and climate change
disasters in the making don't compare. When combined the effect is similar.