Friday, April 15, 2016


"In Russia, farms of online trolls systematically harass democratic voices and spread false information on the Internet and on social media."...Eric Schmidt, CEO of Google/ Alphabet.

Per BuzzFeed:
"Russia’s campaign to shape international opinion around its invasion of Ukraine has extended to recruiting and training a new cadre of online trolls that have been deployed to spread the Kremlin’s message on the comments section of top American websites."
"Plans attached to emails leaked by a mysterious Russian hacker collectivist show IT managers reporting on a new ideological the 
front against the West in the comments sections of Fox News, Huffington Post, The Blaze, Politico, and WorldNetDaily."  

(My two cents: Try to imagine right wing oriented Russian disinformation Re: Putin in the Ukraine resonating with the 
extreme right wing anti-Obama political dogma of WorldNetDialy?
Little wonder that Trump, Giuliani, Pat Buchanan praise Putin's
leadership over their own president.) 
"The bizarre hive of social media activity appears to be part of a two-pronged Kremlin campaign to claim control over the internet, launching a million-dollar army of trolls to mold American public opinion as it cracks down on internet freedom at home."

And no, as per the video, as bad as things are on the Internet, it ain't Gaza, it ain't the Ukranine, Ebola, or Everest Awakening with earthquakes in Nepal.  Needless to say, and counter to Wainwright's lyrics, the US President Obama, drone warfare and all, is far from a "reckless fool."

That said, there are things far stranger and more disruptive than everything in the above
first sentence put together.  Stranger than most fiction.  Difficult to express, impossible to prove,
and close to "unpossible" for me to believe.  The claims made in this blog are not big revelations
but would be very inconvenient if there were even the remotest possibility of making even the slightest difference in anyone's thinking.

This blog is NOT about the Middle East, 911, terrorism, UFO's, revelations from God, Satan,
recycled New World Orders, immanent police states, Fukushima, contagion, RT right wing
financial or theocratic end-times all the time fear and doom.  Nothing about imminent nuclear, asteroidal threat or "rapture of the nerds" climate change which happens to be real.

This is just another minority report about extremes, the nature of things and the bugs
in the machine that makes up reality reflected in media, politics, disinformation, entertainment including and going beyond the cultural divide between blue and red, left and right.

The latter differences are exaggerated and exploited by both major political parties but the
outrageous house, hair and pants on fire rhetoric by right wing media and politicians is and has
always been truly in a class of it's own long before the T-(Trump) Party, or "The Chosen One"
Ted "God Man" Cruz and Fox "News."  Per the lead Eric Schmidt quote, You Tube and the
internet are becoming choked by very sane manipulators of the "Paranoid Style" originating
in and mostly outside the US.  It is not confined to the extensive troll farm disinformation
from Russia or Israeli "hasbara brigades" or the Brit, US versions of same.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016


The most important question is always why?  Simply to erode trust in facts, numbers, 
nuance and government and to force that distrust into so-called mainstream politics and culture.  Mission accomplished.  Just look at what passes for populist right wing politics per the Republican 2016 Trump Cruz campaigns.  Meanwhile...

...the following video by Dr. Michio Kaku does not fit that category.

After land, sea, air, the internet and space, there is another final frontier, another domain of
contention and warfare.  The sixth domain, the human brain and the control of same.   

What better way to approach the brain than through sound in the form of language and by more exotic means.   Controlled frequency combinations which are invisible but can be either invasive
or noninvasive, can be felt or not felt and dwarf such populist and nebulous issues dealing with
mass media, commercialism, consumerism or subliminal advertising.  The latter have little to do
with anything in this blog.

Cognitive dissonance however is hard to avoid.  Proof of claim hard to come by.  
The experts precede me. As in...

...thousands of bogus fear and doom videos and websites pretending to expose 
government sponsored mind control that all but stand on their heads to tell 
viewers the videos are made by Psy-Ops contractor actors intentionally imitating 
paranoia, delusion and "Big Brother" doublethink.

The content of the videos in question are the very thing they pretend to be against.  IOW, videos
and blogs pretending to be fighting mind control and which are in themselves the purest form
of mind control via repetition and shear numbers of disinformation videos, comments, sites, blogs, forums.

Am I suggesting a meta conspiracy whereby the thousands of conspiracy videos are themselves a conspiracy by a single troll farm?   Am I contradicting all the media friendly psychiatrists who say these videos are paranoia by and for paranoids?  Some are, most aren't.

These aren't lunatics imitating each other.  These are pretenders who coincidently use the same
fear and doom style as a few likely very sane westerners mentioned in the paragraph below
doing the same in the name of the American and European right wing.

Never underestimate the power of political PR even from strident pretend fools like Alex "Skull
and Bones" Jones and David Icke who are one step below the National Enquirer.  One step "up" would be right wing Breitbart, Glenn Beck, WorldNetDaily, Drudge and smooth as silk talk
radio or You Tube troll farm salesmen pretending to deliver "alternative" news "that government doesn't want you to hear."

The above are not just opinions that disagree with my own.  If you have a political lie machine as powerful and rich as the Republican Party you automatically generate extreme outliers to prop
up the mainstream and vice versa.   Pretty soon the outliers through their true believer manic
energy become the mainstream. 

Wednesday, December 9, 2015


Secret and commercialized sound weapon systems go by benign as well as provocative science fiction names like Remote Neural Monitoring and Influence", "Voice of God" and V2k or Voice To Skull used on disinformation sites and videos.  That's not including the more officious military lingo.

"Monitoring" and "influence?   How PR nice sounding and unthreatening can you get?

Names and acronyms for commercially supposedly available sound weapons: Magnetic Audio Device, or MAD, and Sound Commander, Hyperspike, Banshee II, Sonic Nausea, Sonic
Devastator, the Inferno Intenso, (The what? I don't believe it) the Shout, the Shriek, the Scream (used by Israel since 2004) induces nausea and dizziness. In combining two low frequencies "knees buckle, the brain aches, the stomach turns...", (oh yes, yes, I'll have what she's having, give me more), the SHOFAR (by the Israeli EORD - "non-lethal" high-power acoustic radiator with 36 acoustic boxes functioning in phase to reach a claimed amplitude of 128 bD at 50 meters), The MOSQUITO by the British company Compound Security Systems (CSS). Under the name of Beethoven you can get "a sound that softens behavior" (said the website slogan before it disappeared).   Claims on corporate websites are always said to be exaggerated never resulting in working real world technology. They do provide an idea as to possibilities.  Old news and also mostly meaningless for the average person like the supposedly serious book on sound weapons called "Extremely Loud." Serious until checking their bogus Comedy Central type websites. 

This video is a Democracy Now commentary on G-20 demonstrations in Pittsburg.  From my POV both sides, the police with their big deal military trucks and crowd dispersal equipment as well as political theater from what's left of the left are pretty sad.  Almost like Orwell's 1984 where Big Brother created his own "underground" opposition and proceeded to attack his own creation.

Bob Dylan used to describe "hippies" walking on the roof of his house in Woodstock.
If he was telling the truth at all there were likely no hippies, no fanatics walking on his roof and it probably wasn't a jazz cigarette induced paranoid auditory hallucination either.  It is likely he did hear sounds coming from the direction of his roof.

How about indulging in some conspiracy. Dylan's wife at that time was named Sara.  A contractor in the field of directed sound weaponry is Scientific Applications and Research Association or SARA Inc which probably didn't exist at the time but the technology for reproducing those sounds at a distance did exist.  The implications however meaningless are most likely true.  Dylan was likely hearing a base sound mimicking boots walking on his roof among other simulated common sounds.  When it comes to the crooked music business...

Sunday, December 6, 2015


The female reporter in the excellent movie Spotlight briefly interviewed an accused former
priest depicted as a Father Panquin who admitted to the reporter everything he was accused of.
The depicted aging priest said he got no pleasure from it.  Before this priest was stopped from
talking he matter of factly mentioned that he also was raped when he was young.  The priest was depicted as forthright and not mentally unhinged.  And what does this topic have to do with anything?

Why was this scene specifically included in the movie?  What was being said?  Was he
describing the Catholic Church's unofficial recruitment of future priests to stem the shortage?
I give them more credit than that.  Were there other motives besides convenient perverted
sexual outlets always available for those taking celibacy vows aided by the increasing availability
of stimulent drugs like meth or cocaine?  Were there other motives besides pedophilic sexual compulsion and dumb mechanical assembly-line methods of making future priests?  Definately.

The Catholic Church as everyone knows reached unprecedented riches in post emigrant America.  Enter the self-imposed karmic police.  Brought down by reporters, lawyers and also by the
institution itself.

The Catholic Church under Pope Francis is still very formidable as it should be.  Pope Francis
has reported that his will be a short rein do to health problems.  The previous Pope, Pope Benedict, was acting as Pope long before his formal election.  Conservatives are very much still in control.

I had a talk with a dying priest, Father Philip in 2006 or 07.  In response to my then feeble
questions he said the following regarding real world methods used by the bagmen of the
Catholic Church, the people who make the real estate deals and come up with large sums
when needed (Knights of Columbus).  "They don't follow any religion."  "They have their
own agenda."  Was this priest talk to pacify me?  Was he medicated or sick?

In one of his last sermons this priest sounded very much in control saying, "watch out for
those who value piety over people."  Watch out for ultra-orthodox regardless of faith or ideology.  Islamic or Christian.  Pius X, Pastor John Hagee or Messianic Zionists.

Conservative defenders to the death of the Catholic Church haven't seen their day come and go
with the emergence of Pope Francis.  Just the opposite.  As always they see themselves as being vindicated and redeemed.

Public ridicule has always been seen by the religious as a badge of honor.  The Church isn't the 
only one operating in this mode.  In other sections I go into my views on institutions and 
celebrities who seem to invite public ridicule.  The Church has done the same.  It sees and 
feeds into geopolitical events that are said to resemble that which occurred before WWI and II. 

Women and minorities both racial and sexual are having their deserved day in and out of the media.
In my view media outlets like the Huffington Post go beyond caricature into the void when it
comes to reporting on Cait Jenner gender politics from Room 101.  Unbelievably since being acquired by AOL this online powerhouse has only just started turning a profit in 2014.  They love clickbait sensationalism and they won't miss my readership in the least.  I'm not the only one.
In times of mixed gender and abortion cultural upheaval, extreme conservatives have taken control
of of the U.S. Congress.  Let's hope Hillary Clinton can upset this right wing winner-take-all scenario.

Friday, December 4, 2015


The previous paragraph regarding the depressing Republican control of Congress can be temporarily offset by Gwen Stefani, The Soggy Bottom Boys, Clooney from the movie, Oh Brother Where Art Thou?

In a system on a chip, peripherals are incorporated into the same integrated circuit as the central processing unit. They are still referred to as "peripherals" despite being permanently attached to (and in some sense part of) their host processor...

A loose description of the post human versions I attempt to described on this page
and throughout.

Now what does William Gibson's SF novel "The Peripheral" have to do with anything? 
And why was he in the same NYC subway car late 2014 standing over me with 
another guy about his age about a month after I bought his book?  Coincidences like that
happen all the time.  Except with some people it happens a little too often.

He just happened to be wearing the same outfit as his photo on the back of the book.
I kept saying what I find myself saying all too often these days, "Is that what's-his-face?
Nah, can't be...too old.  Except that it was his face.  He was doing publicity in NYC
at the time with recorded YT interviews.

Are the people I describe biological machines from the future with uploaded
consciousness as per Gibson's story?  No.  His vechicles are imagination, metaphor,
and allegory.  Mine unfortunately aren't.  The people I'm talking about can be classified
as human++ or, to paraphrase Orwell, double-plus ungood.

Thursday, December 3, 2015


So who, what, when, where, and most importantly, why? Good questions all.  Herein 
lies all the superficial appearances of insanity and madness not to mention contradiction.  

Another question needs to be asked.  Who is this blog addressed to?  Who is likely to believe any of it?  The answer is NO ONE. 

The following is a Wiki entry regarding unwitting volunteer CIA Harvard programs of the 1950's.  IOW, a little context regarding what is now given the dumb name "gang stalking" 
on countless bogus sites and You Tube channels which are the likely troll farm subjects of Eric Schmidt's recent quote on my opening page. 
  •   EDIT

    From the fall of 1959 through the spring of 1962, (Dr.) Murray was responsible 
    for the ethically questionable, CIA-sponsored MK ULTRA experiments in which twenty-two undergraduates were used as research subjects.[3][4] Among other purposes, Murray's experiments focused on measuring people's reactions under extreme stress. 
  • Unwitting undergraduates submitted to what Murray himself called "vehement, sweeping and personally abusive" attacks. Assaults to their egos, cherished ideas and beliefs were the vehicle used to cause high levels of stress and distress. Among them was 16-year-old Ted Kaczynski, who went on to become the Unabomber, a serial killer targeting academics and technologists. [5] Alston Chase's book Harvard and the Unabomber: The Education of an American Terrorist connects Kaczynski's abusive experiences under Murray to his later criminal career. Theodore John Kaczynski, was given the code name "Lawful".

The above was a CIA program, a footnote that might have been expanded beyond the laboratory
into campus life in the case of one, Ted Kaczynski with his 170 IQ.  Even if that wasn't the case
the above wording perfectly describes something that predates the CIA.  It describes a systematic psychological waterboarding assault on the senses.

IOW, the above serves as an approximation of something that is not now and never was
confined to very intelligent but susceptible Harvard crash-test dummy undergraduate
guinnea pigs.  In the version I describe no human could be anything but susceptible
when subject to what is beyond my means of description.

IOW, the stuff associated with madness.  The only "proof" that I am aware of 
cannot even be considered circumstantial.  When context is provided it might not 
be so circumstantial. 

Wednesday, December 2, 2015


Stranger than fiction events are comparable to scenes from the 1990
movie "Jacob's Ladder" minus combat related PTSD or the Hollywood
elements of demons, drugs, flashbacks, exploding cars and the contrived
cop-out "it was all a drug induced dream before death" depressing ending.

The lead character Jacob Singer (Tim Robbins) is a Jewish Army combat soldier in
Vietnam.  He is bayoneted in the stomach by one of his own men who were depicted
as being unwitting lab rats in a CIA drug experiment using something like BZ, a
hallucinatory aggression amplifying drug.  Jacob is found in the jungle with his
intestines outside his body.  Singer is rescued by helicopter to a basecamp hospital.

The movie then picks up on what is supposed to be his post war civilian life.
In my view, all the scenes in this movie, all the flashbacks, everything hallucinatory
are depicted for a reason and meant to stand on their own.  They loosely depicted
events that happened approximately ten years later.  And no, the makers of the film
we're not time travelers or psychic.

In 1985 I had "successful" sternum to pelvic bone resection surgery.  Ten inches of transverse
intestine were removed due to a bleeding pre-cancerous blockage.  I was in my late 30's
which was said to be pretty young by an MD I saw subsequently.  And also means I
should have gotten a second opinion.  This was five years before the movie release.

Unlike the movie I latter experienced a 6 - 8 month marathon of total sleep deprivation
without stimulant prescription or street drugs.  Considered impossible and as close as
anyone wants to get to a living death.  This was after retiring in 2005 from the NY State
job that I started the same year as the above mentioned operation.

At one point the movie shows a civilian Jacob Singer at a crowded NYC apartment
party mixing with friends of his then girlfriend. He is shy and awkward and
has nothing in common with them.  During the party he has his palm read.  The woman
doing the reading says his palm shows him to be already dead.  Singer experiences confusion
and war flashbacks developing into a 106 fever.  His wife, played by the late Elizabeth Peña,
gets him into an ice bath to lower his body temperature.  The shock sends him into delirium, he blacks out and imagines himself with his Jewish ex-wife.  He tells his ex the bedroom they are in feels like 10 degrees mirroring the ice bath.  She replies that the room temperature is no big deal.

Here's how that translates:
In the 1970's I am invited to Brooklyn to "sleep" with a partly Jewish female I'd
been seeing who was always said to be "married."  Her marital arrangement was
slightly unconventional.  My guess now would be she would get pregnant by a male
loosely defined as a "husband" and would then sleep with me in between pregnancies
as dumb and unlikely as that sounds.  Her looks were the very opposite of the Pena movie
character.  (A female I worked with after 911 looked like the Pena character complete
with breast scaring.  And no, I didn't meet her at the Post Office like the movie)

At some point in the night the girl who invited me to an apartment that is normal at first and
then in the middle of the AM feels to be at least 10 degrees below.  She says the heat is turned
off at night.  It is winter but feels colder inside than out.  When I try to touch her she is too hot
to get close to.  She is burning up but notices nothing wrong.  She is too young for hot flashes.
Her body heat was beyond anything sexual or natural.

Awake all night in the cold room I go to work the next morning, and of course, see her
"husband" coming from his night job.  We turn around at the same time as we pass.
He probably knows what's going on but it is all made to seem like high intrigue.  Like
a movie.  The invitation, the room temperate, her temperature and the morning meeting
was a contrived stupid arrangement designed to provoke guilt and confusion about the
the woman I thought I knew.  The room and body temperatures of that night, like the
relationship itself, were not part of anything normal.  I was the only one not in on the joke.

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

JL #2

There are scenes in the movie of insidious crazed doctors with the typical big needles.
This is replaced in reality by "nice guy" smiling student dentists applying unneeded
painful injections into the chin cavity inside my lower gums.  Smiling student Asian dentist
knew I would yell out in a crowded clinic which I haven't done at the hands of dentists
since the sixth grade.  Smiling Asian student dentist denies everything.  Everyone stays in
character except me.

Jacob experiences the extreme guilt that comes with the death of a son in an auto accident.
Apart from anything mentioned here extreme guilt was in play for other reasons.

What I try and fail to describe above and below is all too similar to the shocks
depicted in post war civilian parts of the movie except that the reality is less dramatic.

I never got off at abandoned Bergen Street subway stations in Brooklyn.  The people seen
by Jacob in compressed scenes on subways are comparable to what I see in encounters more
numerous except that none include seeing people or demons with tails (left out of some
versions of the movie).

Ever see a fake subway fight with real people bouncing off seats inside a moving subway car?
I was not involved but I could see the contrived desperation of it unfolding in front of me.
What would be considered extreme is now seen as ordinary.  That's an example of what I
see every time I use the subways of NYC.  Imagination, mood, paranoia or drugs play no
part and never have.

Jacob experiences one visual shock after another.  This extends to the physical as he
is abducted by three men in a moving auto that he escapes only to have his wallet and ID
picked after he hits the ground by a guy in a Santa Klaus suit and beard waving his
bell for donations.  When asked what happened to his ID at a hospital he feels forced
to admit "Santa Klaus" took it confirming the doctors idea of something an insane
person would say.

At one point in April of 2014 in late afternoon I am pined to the floor of a lower
Manhattan bar after being asked to leave for no apparent reason.  I offered but wasn't given
the chance to pay my bill.  There was no trouble, no inebriation in a near empty bar.  A knee
to the back of my leg sends me to the ground with a guy for each leg and one with his knee
on my chest holding down my arms.  He knows his knee is stopping me from breathing and
talking normally.  After being cuffed I call him a moron.  My ID is taken and returned, no
police ID is shown, I am uncuffed.  An ambulance comes and I am driven to to Presbyterian
Hospital where the only people I talk to are uncomprehending blank-faced security.  I sit
down for a few seconds and walk out with my ID. Fortunately no Santa Klaus-type characters.

No medical procedures, no blood pressure taken but the ambulance bills my insurance
for over a thousand dollars.  Routine fraud is the least of it.  I consider challenging the
claim.  I go back to the bar and a different bartender knows nothing.  And who is going
to believe this story even with witnesses.

Monday, November 30, 2015

JL #3

The next day I stupidly see the same guy who kneeled on my chest working behind the
counter at a bakery that I frequent.  He has tattoos running up and down his arms.
His puts his arms together at the elbows martial arts style.  I call him a moron again.
He laughs, says nothing and immediately heads into a back room.  A nonsensical set
of events straight out of a nightmare scenario.

At the end of the movie all events are depicted as happening in compressed time as part of a dream.

Is this blog a bid for attention and trying to make sense of my life by making simpleminded
comparisons to a cult movie?  Sometimes rational explanations sound more contrived
than even the reality which is still happening as I type.

Saw the Jacob's Ladder star Tim Robbins playing street hockey in the park on sixth and
Houston St. in Greenwich Village a few years ago looking bored out of his mind, 6' 7" on his
roller blades, looking nothing close to his age and unrecognized by passersby in
his helmet.  He is currently appearing in movies again.  And wouldn't you know it,
another version of Jacob's Ladder is said to be in the works.  PR for a probable stupid
TV or movie caricature this is NOT.

What is happening to me is completely undetectable, completely unprovable and always
dismissed as automatic default positions of insanity or paranoid delusion.  Are people
in the entertainment industry and Jacob's Ladder screenwriters like Bruce Joel Rubin making
subtle and not so subtle fictional references to a reality that no one is capable of directly acknowledging?  Yes they are.  And no, "they" aren't sending secret clues through the movie
screen that only I can see and interpret.

Automatic reactions like: "now who in the real world is going to go to all that trouble?"
"You must think you're someone special"  "A "center of the world" narcissistic paranoid
persecution complex kind of guy." "Is everyone's in on the conspiracy?"

Saturday, November 28, 2015


Nope.  Not everyone is in on the joke.  No one, including me is laughing.

Upon retiring in 2005 one fat 6' 4" black co-worker made a point of telling me
that I would find out what it was like to be among the "daytime people."  Slackers, stoners,
unemployed, students, those on welfare or, like me, retired.  I will not insult any of the
above by comparing them with those described here.

It's as if I had some kind of extreme audacity to retire after working seventy hour weeks at two
jobs for twenty years.  And no, I did not have a mental break or PTSD after going from 70
hours a week to zero.

I will attempt to describe these completely unnerving, "peripheral" human++ types seemingly
straight out of a horror movie or something from a demented central casting call for Marvel
unitards.  I would say straight out of Comedy Central because that is exactly what this sounds
like.  Except for the fact that I am completely serious and the above two plus marks after the
word human are completely applicable and accurate which is not meant to be a compliment.

Everything described in this blog does not originate in any particular time period
or country.  Manifesting again in the West in the 1960's - 1980's in the following way:

I had no idea at the time but I suspect, without proof, that certain "new age" groups
Macrobiotics, Bioenergetics, Sri Chinmoy, Bubba Free John, Integral Yoga and many
other so-called alternative eastern and western groups were completely serious as far as
their stated intentions and completely rigged after certain points.

By who?  The FBI were probably there reporting to J. Edgar on what would be considered
potential foreign subversives.  The groups themselves didn't care and probably got a bunch
of laughs over anyone they designated as the potential FBI agent.

These alternative groups had excellent PR depending on the image they wanted projected.
From Franklin Jones, aka, Bubba Free John's "miracles" and bad-boy comical radical
beliefs with reported orgies which were likely faked or contrived for the sake of rumor.
Or relatively conservative guru's seemingly following unwritten scripts of getting "caught"
"taking advantage" of female followers while otherwise prescribing celibacy.  IMO, these were apparently deliberately self-provoked falls from "enlightened grace" as an offset to being
objects of worship and fame.  Deliberately arranged fake PR both positive and negative.

IMO, many people, leaders, celebrities like Mel Gibson manufacture deliberate public
humiliation under the guise of sex, mental illness, substance abuse or all three.
Right after he, Gibson, makes a billion dollars depicting the crucifixion of Christ
a series of incidents take place that he blames on alcohol, the Joos, and a bipolar condition.
I don't buy it at all.  Public disgrace is considered a badge of honor and something to
actually strive for in some religious quarters.  Like his for instance.  Like the Catholic
Church for instance.  He's fundamentalist Catholic.  See my impressions of the movie "Spotlight."

Overarching characteristics of the people I am trying to describe:
More extremely tall people of both sexes than I or anyone would consider normal or average.
Women in NYC over 6' 1" in flats are now common.  Males 6' 4" and over (Tim Robbins) are
not just seen now and then but constantly.  The fact of their being tall (not as tall as the video)
does not usually qualify for mention.  I'm six foot and not normally considered short or tall.
(Right in the middle as usual) Normally I could care less.  Each generation gets taller but
even that is a "stretch" compared to what I see.

I briefly spoke to a woman who looked to be in her 70's, easily over 6' 4" who looked
to be related to another woman of average height I worked with and went with after 911
mentioned but not named latter.  The older version was the only one I can remember in
that age group of that height which means, of course, it happens and who cares?  Except that...

...extreme height is but one example of what happens when extremes of every
kind are made to become routine across age groups, genders, races, nationalities, geography.
And it will be said, "well, of course, tall people stand out and are noticed and so what?"

Extremes made mainstream are not just confined to height, tattoos, beards, man-buns, 
or green hair appearances.  They extend beyond my personal projections and opinions 
into the larger society and world and are perfectly reflected in that larger world in many ways.  

Among them, extreme man-made climate change across the earth, extreme right wing politics 
given legitimacy by a Republican Party that has always catered and pacified both
it's real and pretend extremists.  Birtherism is but one example.  Now we are seeing it 
again in the last two years on the left in the area of manufactured gender politics, 
and extremely contrived corrupted (in the biblical sense) hipster and "Indigo"  
appearances and talk. 

Extreme violence includes the nine current simultaneous civil wars in Islamic countries.
Millions of the displaced flowing to Europe and the U.S., extreme economic volitility 
taking oil prices from over $100 to below $30 a barrel.  

Russian's Putin, the oil Republics of Texas and Alaska (talking secession nullification)
and politicians Cruz , Jeb Bush all have deflated oil prices and Christianity in common 
(Birthers take Putin's word that he's a practicing Christian).  For them $75 per barrel 
might be a happy medium.  Incremental war, getting Iranian oil off market, recognizing Jerusalem as the capital of Israel and getting a Republican into the White House for a 
winner take all hat trick might be their way to achieve that unhappy medium.  

Now what is all this "nonsense" about extreme height?

Nephilim?  Is that the next stupid thought in the progression of extremes?
There are biblical Internet depictions of the "sons of God" and "daughters
of men" that supposedly existed before the Deluge of Noah and referenced not
just on biblical sites but on hundreds of rigged bogus fringe sites all but telling 
the viewer, "our way of presentation is deliberately provocative, deliberately insane 
depicting extreme religiosity where the term "Reptilians" and ancient space aliens 
are mentioned every chance we get to make sure we do everything possible to almost 
force you into concluding, "wow, so many bat-crazy insane Internet trolls""

A few are, but in my view the majority of fringe sites and channels are just the opposite.
It is not just one site or video, it is thousands in a deliberate attempt to choke the
Internet with gibberish.  The same people might also account for the number of
toxic internet trolling and bullying directed at women always blamed on those
darned pesky teenagers and "gaming culture" fanatics of all ages.

And are the videos, forums and blogs on the subjects of mind control and so-called
"targeted individuals", chemtrails, aliens, financial and Fukushima eschatological
end-times all the time all by the same few troll farm networks all with the same motive?
No not all.  The vast majority.

Couldn't they be what they appear to be, opinions by true believers that differ
from my own and not some vast conspiracy?  Very comforting and convenient.
Not to mention wrong.  Circumstantially wrong.  Am I am telling my nonexistent
readers that there is not just something wrong with reality but that everything is wrong
above and beyond my personal projections of what should and should not be?

Besides being a retired 6' aging boomer who *of course* looks to be 40 - 50
of average health, no medication, no nose rings or ponytails, no shaved head,
dreads, drugs, man buns, or tattoos on my head or anywhere else.  Pretty dull and
nothing in common with people who look like they're straight out of the Mad Max (future?),
or the "Mad Men" past. (Like the walking monument office staff in that series)

All the negatives in the last paragraph are the programmed constants of visual
extremes experienced day in and day out far in excess of what should be 
characteristic of my or any average big city mixed neighborhood.  My age might 
suggest someone imagining, projecting or having trouble coping with the disruptions 
of changing generations, times, styles and attitudes.

I can take more than occasional crowds, loud music, differences and disruptions
that are part of or exceed the average persons day to day experience.  What I am
describing is "unpossible" except that nothing written about here can be considered
in any way exceptional.  By me anyway.

I am describing NYC in a time warp looking more and more like the NYC of the
1980's without the drug related crime?  Yes.  The city is becoming a dead zone,
an overcrowded graveyard or deadman's party reflective of things not just
strictly subjective but that are part of objective global events.  Disruptions that
cannot be accounted for by official or unofficial U-6 unemployment or by
displaced migrants.  This particular cycle is mirrored in TV and movie entertainment
(Gothem, Walking Dead) but never openly acknowledged except as indicated on
sites that I claim are intentionally deliberately bogus for a bogus Truman Show world.

*Many of those I am trying to describe seem to eat little, sleep little and have no particular
interest in sex apart from procreation unless called upon to take on an outrageous outdated
compulsive 1980's punkish, mood or drug induced, split kneed, sexually suggestive or
ambiguous appearance.  Contrived appearances, contrived outrageousness, contrived gender ambiguity.  Lefty disruptive appearance complimenting extreme conservative contrived
thinking and politics.  The latter reflected on the Internet which is in itself exaggerated.

How are the above seen?

*Whether street people with over-amped musculature, so-called hipster
types covered with tattoos dressed casually in ill fitting tight jeans but
otherwise perfectly uniformed down to off center or backwards rally caps,
the cut of beard with the man-bun growing in the opposite direction, the one
sided shaved head or what used to be called skinhead prison chic now called street style.

*Conversly, obsessive cleanliness might also be a common factor.  When sleeping
very little the immune system might suffer otherwise.

*A contrived overly polite manner also seems to be used to counter any deliberate
gross weirdness in appearance and to enhance the impression of being above reproach.

*Followed by behavioral opposites.  Blindside bumping or grappling one minute
like something from the movie "Fight Club."  Holding doors and smiling excessively
like, "The Truman Show" looking like Jim Carrey waving, "Have a good day, and if I don't
see ya, have a good afternoon, evening and night too"  (Ahah, you knew it, a simple
case of "Truman Show Delusion Syndrome" a media driven variation on "Jumping
Horsemen of the Maine Syndrome." Or just make something up)

Passive aggressiveness on parade, in extremis and nobody notices.  I was shocked
to find out why.

*When ordering in a store in NYC too many caucasian women speak in overly polite
exaggerated pretty please Valley Girl "up-talk" while fishing in their pocketbooks
for their wallets to count out exact change along with clipped tones of "yeah yeh".
Common enough and considered a sign of politeness back in the day.  Way back.

At times too many males take on a deliberately fake vocal fry, mission control
exaggerated macho laughable speech pattern or else the opposite extreme,
gay effeminacy over and above any Google IT, gay or nerd Jim Carrey stereotype.
Like a rehearsed nonstop standup comedy act seen for a few months and then
replaced by something else just as weird.

*Women that I went with in the early 2000's once made a point of licking pasta sauce
from a plate in a restaurant.  Another would put a bare hand into a restaurant buffet.
Or wearing big cleverge in very cold twenty degree weather.  Completely covered
in 80+ degrees.  Contrived public sex was preferred on too many occasions to
something normal, like a nearby house or apartment.  I was always the one to
question the insanity of it even though I didn't protest too much.  "Hey look, is it me
or is that guy staring?"  The unlikely and overly casual answer from the girl, "who cares."
Always disruptive.

The unstated multiple messages from these women:
'I have no need to operate as you do.'  "I am beyond disruptive, average or normal".
"Sex? Take it or leave it, but once I start don't stop me. Don't get too attached.
I have to act this way." "I'm here to do a job..."

And no, they weren't working for any deep dark government agency paid in bitcoins
or any known physical currency.

None of the above was the result of anger, mood change, hot flashes, eccentricity, a joke,
self hate, psychopathy, deficits of intelligence or my imagination.  None of the
DSM or psych-boilerplate cliches apply.  (I know, who cares either way?)

*A kind of routine hyperactivity is emphasized (Hyper++) .  As a guess, not being
in constant motion, constantly busy invites some kind of automatic direct or indirect
negative feedback.  Something like in the Disney movie "Tomorrowland" where too
many nuanced question result not in reflection but in "machine shutdown."

*"They" are big in music, art, entertainment, acting and meditation and at the same time....

* Big on lying and deceit exceeding even psychopathic compulsivity.  The more you
engage them directly the more they are compelled to lie.  Direct queries are a waste of time.

* A "dead air" kind of atmosphere happens on occasion in any given public place or time.
Something like a Maxwell Smart "cone of silence" occurs resembling a negative zero point
focused "dead air" effect.  When with women it had the opposite effect.  Like the brain
coming into sharp zero pinpoint focus.

* Martial arts skills, acting, improvisation, PR, propaganda and manipulation of sound
and language and most especially, street theater of a particular kind.  Very big on skull
Halloween, or Mexican Day Of The Dead iconography and tattoos.  The women
make their own clothes or buy cheap wild, flamboyant or nondescript.  One extreme or another.

Most of which are typical of certain people and not any kind of meaningful smoking gun.

In summery: a 1970's or 80's retro "hipster" appearance, varying degrees of physical deformity: physical anal retention, sliding "on the down low" "soggy bottom" pants like prison garb on guys.
Along with the heavy tattoos described as "demonic" by the religious. No demons are needed.
Like in the previously mentioned  movie, Jacob's Ladder, some form of humanity serves that purpose.

Spastic penguin walk, too many doofy looking addicted appearing white street people
dreadlocked, tattooed, homeless, begging, plastic flamboyant road warriors alternating with
their opposites.  Grossly over developed over-amped military types with arms and chests
so large (like upright turkeys) they are forced to move or pretend to move in stupidly
exaggerate marching styles usually by themselves.  (I say this even considering the gyms
on every corner in this neighborhood and the nearby FIT, Fashion Institute of Technology)

Seen and encountered until replaced by something equally monotonous and monstrous.
Repulsive not in kind but in frequency.  Visual psychological waterboarding.
Both in variety and monotony.  Now that's an accomplishment.

Nothing that I see in public is as it should be but, at the same time, nothing looks
flagrantly out of sync to casual observers.  All can be seen as classic ______(fill in the
symptomatic blanks) or just crotchety old age dementia, evident lack of insight...
DSM language of convenience sounding more comical than what is being described.
I am not talking about people "who don't look like me."  I don't need or want everyone
to look like me or Donald Trump.

I used to think in terms of depression, bad mood, selective attention, particular obsessions,
self centered thinking, intractable delusions or mistakes in perception.  I have low
grade depression, no particular obsessions, compulsions or addictions.  Which means
I've long stopped questioning sanity, senses, or thinking I'm having a bad day,
afternoon, evening, month, year or life.

Thursday, October 2, 2014


Not to change the subject but a New Yorker Václav Havel article struck a chord with me.áclav_Havel
Mr. H., Czeck President, Vaclav Havel in 1990 accepting an honorary degree at Hebrew 
University and comparing his experiences to Mr. K, Franz Kafka.

"One of them is a profound, banal, and therefore utterly vague sensation of culpability, as though my very existence were a kind of sin.  Then there is a powerful feeling of general alienation, both my own and relating to everything around me, that helps to create such feelings; an experience of unbearable oppressiveness, a need constantly to explain myself to someone, to defend myself, a longing for an unattainable order of things, a longing that increases as the terrain I walk through becomes more muddled and confusing."

About the only thing I have in common with Vaclav Havel is that my
last name also begins with H and otherwise nothing in this blog compares
to what what he experienced in prison before the Prague Spring in the
freeing of Czechoslovakia from the Warsaw Pact USSR.

We can easily go from Havel, Kafka and the Prague Spring to Orwell.

Double Plus Un-Good: (Orwellian news-speak describing the two legged
bad guys who run this horror show with some help from their "friends") 
I used to be very smug and very sure that my version of things was "right".
There have always been mentally ill people who believe they are victimized by
whoever he or she believes the enemy or "They" happen to be.  Everything in this blog
can be interpreted in that light.  Understandable but incorrect.  I was completely wrong
in my assumptions and no one could tell me otherwise.

DIRECT EXPERIENCE ON THE RECEIVING END beginning in 1994 and becoming
much more aggressive after 2001which many would contrive to say is some kind of
911 PTSD or some such nonsense.  The following will include the cringeworthy but
accurate explanation as to the source of all that I'm describing.  And no, it has nothing
to do with government or contractor conspiracies.  Any references to same are done for
the sake of context if not clarity.

1) E-distorted scream sound effect inside as well as outside my apartment followed by
vocal and multiple pulsed frequency combinations inducing nausea, skin heating, racing
heart, low key vibrations felt in the kidney adrenals, angina, and total sleep deprivation
for 3/4 of a year and the resulting temporary arthritis and painful physical effects.
These are and are not experimemts.  Sleep deprivation for this amount of time,
normally impossible, is made to be very routine which means keeping a person
alive and totally sleepless for 3/4 of a year doesn't seem to present much of a
problem for those hiding behind the deceisive asset, as Martin Ames would say,
of being beyond belief.

New methods are likely added in pursuit of absolute overwhelming
intimidation, domination and control as if always in a constant
state of war implementing no-touch intimidation with and w/o physical
contact subverting any possible local and federal laws or credible
complaint.  No evidence is apparent, all complaints are dismissed.

Pulsed multi-frequency combinations are invasive, invisible, leave no
incriminating marks and yet are capable of "touching" and causing
extreme physical pain, nausea, heating of the skin or racing heart chest
pain causing the person to keel over.  The latter are all consigned
to something called "anxiety attacks."  No heart ailment was ever found.

2) People on the receiving end are kept alive and relatively healthy in a kind of
functional half-life fog.  Involuntary sleep deprivation and disruption via verbiage, 
sound effects (the old ceiling rapping of horror movies, slamming doors and scrapping chairs) 
focused sound frequency vibrations capable of stimulating or depressing major organs, 
modulating blood flow, sex drive and those famous "precious" body fluids.

3) During that 3/4 of a year sleepless marathon the only external obvious
differences in the immediate home environment besides those mentioned
are a noticeable aerosol chemical smell (external) that probably
had stimulant effects and also an almost constant hissing white-noise-like
sound both in the ears (blood flow?) and, at times, projected into the surrounding
apartment space reaching a crescendo effect around the sleepless endpoint after
nine months and the start of another round of sleep disruption.
This occurs in the person's own living space which was and still is more of an
virtual (v)-prison than a place to live.

4) No third party or doctor can distinguish any of this from classic delusion.
At the mere mention of "hearing voices" doctors, in these hopefully rare cases, can't
be blamed for prescribing useless anti-psychotic drugs because even the individual
on the receiving end has no conception, reason or experience to know what's behind
any of this.  The person will believe what they are told, that they are paranoid
schizophrenic or psychotic and proceed, in these hopefully rare cases, to be
compliant in taking useless prescriptions.

Most people who experience intractable delusion and hallucinations also experience
sleep deprivation and believe, wrongfully, that they are experiencing delusions or
that they are the victims of externally sourced plots.  Everything described here
can be met with fake concern combined with a slow shaking of the head.
("Whoops, room for one more lunatic")

After the months of sleeplessness I assumed, wrongly, that I had a psychotic
break leading to auditory hallucinations and sleeplessness.  It took me years,
and increased sleep, to see things differently.  This can be seen as an attempt
to talk myself out of and change inconvenient reality except for the fact that
I will mention details that are difficult to imagine, copy, contrive or make up.

I can't prove I was completely awake for 3/4 of a year.  A typical response,
"I guess not, staying awake that long is impossible anyway?"  Or "you had to
have been on drugs and forgotten that you slept for brief periods."  Or ,"What's
that? You're being hit by invisible rays by invisible men?  Golly, that's too bad.
Check out some Thorazine flavored Kool-Aid for speedy relief."

All kinds of scenarios can be implied or imagined: Street or prescription stimulants?
Persecution complexes along with a desperate need for attention?  Making the whole
thing up or mixing select truth and fantasy, or, or, or anything but what I'm saying.
Convenient understandable automatic default settings that people always fall back
on because what is being said is inconvenient, repellent, or hilariously dumb sounding.
Or just simply inconvenient.

Total sleeplessness conveniently hinders awareness of what should be obvious.
What proves eventually to be so obvious is an insidious non-imagined 24/7 remote
metaphysical neural hack interference in every aspect of waking and sleeping life.

("What's that you say, metaphysical what?  From victim to mystic.  Where have
we heard that before?")

The above manifested more aggressively in my case around 2002 some months after 911,
while in my fifties.  But was also a continuation of a slightly more subdued series of
personal events starting in 1993-4 coincidentally after the first WTC attack.  There is
no apparent connection and if any exists it is way past my cognitive pay grade.

The more accurate my description of all this the less credible it sounds.  So I should
stop digging the hole deeper, right?  Nope, I'm in over my head and no matter how hard
I dig the hole stays at the same depth.  The level of experience stays the same.  Terrible.


(always projected into "the future")


Photo: Joint Base Lewis McChord / Flickr


IT’S BEEN FASHIONABLE in military circles to talk about cyberspace as a “fifth domain” for warfare, along with land, space, air and sea. But there’s a sixth and arguably more important warfighting domain emerging: the human brain. 

This new battlespace is not just about influencing hearts and minds
with people seeking truth about this final of frontiers. It’s about 
involuntarily penetrating, shaping, and coercing the mind in the ultimate 
realization of Clausewitz’s definition of war: compelling an adversary to 
submit to one’s will. 
"And the most powerful tool in this war is brain-computer interface (BCI) 
technologies, which connect the human brain to robotic systems."

"Where BCIs can provide opportunities for injured or disabled soldiers 
to remain on active duty post injury, enable paralyzed individuals to 
use their brain to type, or allow amputees to feel using bionic limbs
they can also be exploited if hacked. BCIs can be used to manipulate 
or kill for security or humanitarian purposes, the reality is that 
misapplication of such research and technology has significant 
implications for the future of warfare."

"Recently, security expert Barnaby Jack demonstrated the vulnerability of
biotechnological systems by highlighting how easily pacemakers and implantable 
cardioverter-defibrillators (ICDs) could be hacked, raising fears about the 
susceptibility of even life-saving biotechnological implants. This vulnerability 
could easily be extended to biotechnologies that connect directly to the brain,
such as vagus nerve stimulation or deep-brain stimulation."
(Security expert Barnaby Jack died in 2013)

"Outside the body, recent experiments have proven that the brain can control and maneuver quadcopter drones and metal exoskeletons. How long before we harness the power of mind-controlled weaponized drones – or use BCIs to enhance the power, efficiency, and sheer 
lethality of our soldiers?"
The Wired article is not just posing these facts for the sake of drama. 
It is asking the reader to just use some inference, some imagination as to the
actual possibilities.  Methods that mix technology and what was thought to be
something akin to "magic" but is not.

In reality there is no compunction about doing involuntary psychological
experimentation on civilians.  Unless caught all of it is sanctioned and winked at
as no big deal.

The average smug individual like I used to be has little to worry about except getting
all angry at NSA spy overreach on one hand and if we are attacked again getting
understandably angry about that.  The media feels entitled to exploit each in isolation
as if one has nothing to do with the other.  Bounced back and forth by our mainstream
and so-called alternative media, between privacy and security with one political
party having a near monopoly on the manipulation and exploitation of fear and
doom perpetual war at home and abroad.  I don't have to mention the name.
This is the party of endless financial and religious endtime all the time disruption.
The lefty so-called rapture of the nerds of global warming and climate change
disasters in the making doesn't compare.



(Below information is what was made public in a relatively open society.  In closed
societies like Russia and China the following occurs so often as to invite shrugs of
the shoulders what-can-you-do about another relative, blogger or reporter arrested for
"crimes" of "unpatriotic emotion" or subversion against government.)

American Ivy League universities and low paid researchers were able to skim large
amounts from CIA black budgets while believing they were patriots contributing to
some greater cause.

Dr. Sydney Gottlieb, who led the MKULTRA program, apparently found out differently
and eventually said publicly that his work in this program was effectively useless.
For once, and contrary to all published reports, he was probably telling the truth.

Gottlieb, of Jewish-Hungarian parents, was born in the Bronx as Joseph Scheider in 1918. He received a Ph.D. in chemistry from the California Institute of Technology. A stutterer from childhood, Gottlieb also earned a master's degree in speech therapy. He had a club foot, which kept him out of World War II, but did not prevent his pursuit of folk dancing, a lifelong passion.[1]

(Being rejected from the WWII draft was considered the worst that could happen to a draft age male of that time.  That and having an early stutter made for the perfect fanatic by way of over compensation.  From speech therapist to folk dancer to chemist and poison expert to Project Aquatone...)

In 1951, aged 33, Gottlieb joined the Central Intelligence Agency (CIA).  As a poison expert, he headed the chemical division of the Technical Services Staff (TSS). Gottlieb became known as the "Black Sorcerer" and the "Dirty Trickster."[citation needed] He supervised preparations of lethal poisons and drug experiments in mind control.

In April 1953 Gottlieb became head of the secret Project MKULTRA which was activated on the order of CIA director Allen Dulles. In this capacity, he administered LSD and other psycho-active drugs to unwitting subjects and financed psychiatric research and development of "techniques that would crush the human psyche to the point that it would admit anything".[citation needed] He sponsored physicians such as Ewen Cameron and Harris Isbell in controversial psychiatric research including unconsented human subjects research.
A Many people suffered serious adverse effects from research financed by Gottlieb and the Rockefeller Foundation. 

Gottlieb was the liaison to the military subcontractor Lockheed, then working on Project Aquatone for the C.I.A. which would later be known as the U-2 spy plane. In 1953 he procured a Safe House for L.A.S.D. (Lockheed Aeronautics Services Division) which would
have easy egress for secretive affairs.[citation needed]

By 1955 the project had grown so large that a new procurement was needed. At this point subproject 27 was merely a funding subproject which combined all previous subprojects, including those involving LSD, payment to Sandoz, magic and the art of distraction John Mulholland's manual (subproject 15 magic support, Mulholland Supplement) and the procurement of more LSD (subproject 18) but it continues on to include almost 150 known and documented subprojects
including a microwave gun and the search for alternatives to LSD which lead to the later programs like Project MKCHICKWIT, most of which focused on South America and mushrooms.[citation needed]

"Respected" researchers like Henry Murray, Ewen Cameron, "Dr. Green", Sydney Gottlieb of the US 
and Canada probably thought the MKUltra program goals were as stated: behavior
modification to assist in interrogation, torture and control.  They were right and also wrong.
IMO, with few exceptions the entire program might have been an expensive diversion to
compensate for the following....

"The project (MKUltra) began during a period of what Rupert Cornwell described as
"paranoia" at the CIA, when America had lost its nuclear monopoly, and fear of 
Communism (China went communist) was at its height. [23] James Jesus Angleton
head of CIA counter-intelligence, believed that the organization had been penetrated 
by a mole at the highest levels.[23]"   

James Jesus Angleton had regular drinking sessions with high ranking British
spy Kim Philby.  The bad guy was right under his prominent paranoid nose. Philby
later defected to Russia, an apparent traitor.  B-b-but was he?

The above resulted in a CIA manufactured MKUltra "mind control, brainwashing gap"
where Russians and Koreans were, as always, made to appear as way ahead.
Communist Red Scares" before and after Joe McCarthy (based on reality and manufactured hysteria), non-existent "bomber gaps", Sputnik satellite technology
gaps, "missile gaps" and ensuing Cold War paranoia leading to intended increases
to CIA and defense budgets.

Regardless of how it sounds, the people who do this don't sit around asking themselves,
is such an such tactic reasonable, logical or even necessary?  No!  It is just implemented.
The impact and effectiveness within a much larger context is what counts.

THE UPDATED VERSION (NOT the result of any psychosis, sound DEW weapon technology, and not the result of government or contractor mind control conspiracy)
"Non-lethal" acoustic neural weaponry has duel function:
1) remote frequency stimulus or depression of brain and body for 6-8 months of sleeplessness.
2) enabling a one and two way neurohack and scaring the living crap out of the victim.
Then a continuing nightly psychic driving where every word is spoken in textured unison
"driving" an e-filtered mix of simple wordage thousands of times into the brain and psyche.
The latter is done routinely, programmed step by step.  Again, this does not originate with
any government or corporate agency.  It is not the result of any known technology.  It does
mimic technology perfectly.  Clever headfakes had me fooled for months.

Remote, non-local, action at a distance" means directing frequencies that "touch" and that
particular touch may or may be subtle enough to be felt on the skin.  Sound frequencies
can adjust, stimulate, depress specific areas of the brain and body and psyche without,
let me say again, without physical contact and be felt consciously or not.

The implications comprise every paranoid's and public/ private security interrogators 
wet dreams come true.

Looking for on-line proof for this blogs contentions?  Good luck! You will see plenty of YT
PR salesmen imitating seriousness or insanity creating deliberate doublethink smokescreens by
the thousand.  This manufactured confusion is where paid and unpaid contractor actors create, fabricate their own opposition and then attack their own creation and vice versa with 
both sides "winning" both arguments.  

Rent the Matt Damon movie "Promised Land" 
to see how corporate American contractors operate when dealing with average people, 
in that case, on the issue of fracking.  It is amazing to see it unfold. 

"Us", in all too many cases, are people pretending to be freedom loving civil 
libertarian "good guys" in opposition to "Them" NSA or corporate bad guys".
"Us" and "Them" are frequently one in the same when it comes to some on-line 
and real world double-think honey-traps.