Wednesday, September 28, 2016


"The church will become small and will have to start afresh 
more or less from the beginning."...Father Joseph Ratzinger
AKA Pope Benedict XVI, 1969: 

The female reporter in the excellent movie Spotlight briefly interviewes
an accused former priest named Father Panquin.  Panquin calmly admits
everything he was accused of.  The depicted aging priest claims he got
no pleasure from multiple molestations.  Before he was stopped from
talking further he matter of factly and mechanically mentions that he
was also raped when young.  And what does that scene and this topic
have to do with anything?

Why was this scene specifically included in the movie?  What was
being said?  Was it merely dramatic Hollywood provocation describing
an unofficial method of recruitment?   It certainly went beyond easy
answers like the availability of stimulant drugs pot, meth,
amphetamines and cocaine.  Beyond suppressed sexuality and
dumb occult-like mechanical methods of recruitment.

The Catholic Church as everyone knows reached unprecedented
riches in post emigrant America.  Enter a self-imposed karmic
wheel that included reporters, lawyers and the institution itself at all levels.

The Catholic Church under Pope Francis is still very formidable
as it should be.  Pope Francis has reported that his will be a short
reign due to health problems.  Hope not.  The previous Pope,
Pope Benedict, was acting as Pope long before his formal election.
Conservatives are unfortunately still very much still in control.

I had a talk with a dying priest, Father Philip around 2009.
He seemed to know me.  In response to feeble questions about
the Knights of Columbus he said the following regarding real
world methods used by the bagmen of the Catholic Church, the
people who make the real estate deals and magically come up
with large sums when needed.  Here was his response as a
veteran priest: "They have their own agenda that has nothing
to do with religion."

Some weeks later in one of his last sermons: "watch out for
those who value piety over people."  IOW, watch out for ultra-
orthodox regardless of faith or ideology.  Islamic or Christian.
Pius X, Pastor John Hagee or Messianic Zionists.  The latter
two seem to be enjoying a political ideological merger of convenience.

Conservative defenders to the death of the Catholic Church haven't
seen their day come and go with the emergence of Pope Francis.
Just the opposite.  As always they see themselves as being vindicated
and redeemed.  Conservatives in the U.S. now count themselves as
among the persecuted.  Persecuted by whom?  They are persecuted and
offended by everything.  No one should have to endure Rod Dreher's
public sufferings in the Pat Buchanan’s, TAC.  Just in time for winner-
take-all-RAY-publican control.

In summery, public ridicule and persecution, has always been seen by 
the religious as badge of honor.  The Church isn't the only one operating 
in this mode.  In other sections I go into my views on institutions and 
religious celebrities who in my view deliberately invited public ridicule.  
The Church has done the same.  It sees and feeds into geopolitical 
events that are said to resemble that which occurred before WWI and II. 

Women and minorities both racial and sexual are having their day in
and out of media.  Media outlets like the Huffington Post go beyond
caricature into the void when it comes to reporting on transgender
Republican, Cait Jenner's Room 101 gender bending politics.
Clickbait political identity sensationalists of the right or left won't
miss my readership.  HuffPo political ravings are only a vague
description of the real world or real world politics.  At the same time
they're head and shoulders preferable to their right wing counterparts
in the fear and doom always at war lock and load NRA cliché departments.

In times of mixed gender and abortion cultural upheaval, extreme
reactionaries have taken control of of the U.S. Congress and at the
same time do everything but stand on their heads in attempts to portray
themselves as being among the religious and ideologically oppressed
from all sides not in Syria or Iraq but in this country.

Imagine a President Trump or ANY Republican POTUS leading a
Republican Congressional majority and appointing Sen. Ted Cruz to
fill a SCOTUS spot?  We don't have to imagine.  Hillary Clinton was
the only one who could upset this impossible to conceive right wing
political scenario.  She would also have endured non-stop comittee
and impeachment hearings and possible political blackmail by
Republican majorities.

Someone like the right wing Bishop Fellay (great name) of Canada 
probably longs for the 1940's and 50's with the world digging out of
WWII when people like him and the infamous Father Coughlin ran 
the (radio) show.  He and the Church would routinely get away 
with neurosis passing for truth. 

The Bishop probably remembers 1955 like it was yesterday 
for a "good old fashion" Old Testament dropping the big one 
devastation and do-over for that time honored reborn renewal. 

Fellay, like Mel Gibson, probably invites public ridicule.  Maybe he, 
like so many right wing extremists, longs for a drugged up Air Force 
Missileer (as happened) or drunken Russian pressing the red button 
doing God's will" upstaging the Iranians and giving Islamists and
Christian fundamentalists everywhere their final hair trigger
"bombs away" Dr. Strangelove moment of eschatological release.

It makes no difference if you actually believe what you say, just keep
repeating repeating and do what you're told.  Do what you're told.
Do what you're....even if you don't have to be told.  It would be funny
if the unpossible turned out true.  That they're all taking on assigned
roles and are all the same post-human ungodly gestalt.  Truly terrifying.
Thank goodness that's one thing "we", don't have to worry about.
What a relief.  And guess what?  Mel Gibson is back and approaching
Hollywood respectability in an era of manufactured Trump reality.

Thursday, September 22, 2016


No Doubt, the previous entries regarding the depressing Republican
control of Congress and right wing trolls can be temporarily offset by
Gwen Stefani, The Soggy Bottom Boys, George Clooney and the
movie, Oh Brother Where Art Thou?  (Big Brother in all his guises.)

Summer of 2016 I'm walking past Lincoln Center on my way to see
the movie "Genius" that had been playing for some time at the Lincoln Plaza.
I pass a political writer on the street I recognize but I'm very bad with names.
I sit down in the theater to watch the coming attractions.  An upcoming
documentary about autism, "Life Animated" had the name Ron Suskind
in the credits.  His son is the main subject of the film.  Of course
it was Suskind I had just passed on the street.

The movie "Genius" is about Thomas Wolfe and his editor Maxwell Perkins
who was also editor for Hemingway and F. Scott Fitzgerald.  Wolfe's first book,
"Look Homeward Angel" played a large role in the movie.  Previously I had
vague notions about Wolfe and his books.  I knew him from the photo I'd
seen at the downtown White Horse Tavern.  I had no plans to see the movie
but I happened to play this Steve Young (who died this year) video the night before:

Non-events like that happen to people all the time.  When I played the
Look Homeward Angel video I completely missed the part about "my
old friend Thomas from Asheville, North Carolina."

"Genius" was an amazing film about two Americans, Thomas Wolf and
Maxwell Perkins played by two British actors.  All the better because the
Brits really know how to tell a story.  The real Wolfe at 6' 6" was not the
sad depressed writer I associated with the White Horse Tavern photo.
Just the opposite.  Amplified and larger than life in more ways than one.
Look Homeward Angel was published two days before the start of Great
Depression and stock market crash of 1929.  Just his luck.

They are still referred to as "peripherals" despite being permanently
attached to (and in some sense part of) their host processor..."

Now what does William Gibson's SF novel "The Peripheral" have to do 
with anything?  And why was he in the same NYC subway car late 
2014 standing over me with another guy about his age about a 
month after I bought but still hadn't read his book?  Coincidences 
like that happen all the time.  Except with some people they 
happen just a little too often.

He just happened to be wearing the same outfit as his photo on 

the back of the book.  I kept saying what I find myself saying all 
too often these days, "Is that what's-his-face?  Nah, can't be... 
Except it was his face.  He was doing publicity in NYC at the 
time with recorded YT interviews.  His book is has been made 
into a TV series for 2018.  How will they ever do it? 

Are the people I refer to as posthumans biological 

interdimenscional drone humanoids from the "future" with 
uploaded consciousness as in Gibson's story? 

Friday, August 26, 2016


Stranger than fiction events comparable to scenes from the 1990
movie "Jacob's Ladder" minus combat related PTSD or the Hollywood
elements of demons, drugs, flashbacks, exploding cars and the contrived
cop-out "it was all a drug induced dream before death" depressing ending.
The lead character Jacob Singer (Tim Robbins) is a Jewish Army combat soldier in
Vietnam.  He is bayoneted in the stomach by one of his own men who were depicted
as being unwitting lab rats in a CIA drug experiment using something like BZ, an
hallucinatory aggression amplifying drug.  Jacob is found in the jungle with his
intestines outside his body.  Singer is still alive and taken by helicopter to a basecamp hospital.

The movie then picks up on what is supposed to be his post war civilian life.
In my view, all the scenes in this movie, all the flashbacks, everything hallucinatory
are depicted for a reason and meant to stand on their own loosely depicting iconic
metaphysical events that are timeless.

In 1985 I had "successful" sternum to pelvic bone resection surgery.  The operation was
five years before the movie.  I was in my late thirties.  Nothing iconic or metaphysical
about it but there is something going on regarding wounds or surgery in that particular area.

Unlike the movie I latter experienced a 6 to 9 month marathon of total sleep deprivation
without stimulant prescription or street drugs while in my 60's.  Considered impossible and
as close as anyone wants to get to a living death.

At one point the movie shows a civilian Jacob Singer at a crowded NYC apartment party
mixing with friends of his then Hispanic girlfriend. He is awkward and has nothing in
common with them.  As shown in the trailer, he has his palm read during the party.
Singer, shown with a wine bottle in his hand experiences confusion and war flashbacks
developing into a 106 fever.  His wife, played by the late Elizabeth Peña, gets him into
an ice bath to lower his body temperature.  He yells out that he's dying.  The shock sends
him into delirium.  He blacks out and imagines himself with his Jewish ex-wife.
He tells his ex the bedroom they are in feels like 10 degrees mirroring the ice bath.

Here's how that translates:
In the 1970's I am invited to Brooklyn to "sleep" with a partly Jewish female I'd
been seeing who was always said to be "married."  Her open marital arrangement was
more than slightly unconventional.  My guess now would be she would get pregnant by
a male loosely defined as a "husband" and would then sleep with me in between pregnancies.
Her looks were the very opposite of the Pena movie character.

The Brooklyn apartment is normal at first and then in the middle of the AM feels to be
at least 10 degrees below.  She says the heat is turned off at night.  It is unnaturally cold.
When I try to touch her to warm up she is too hot to get close to.  She is burning up but
notices nothing wrong.  She is too young for hot flashes.  Her body heat was beyond
anything sexual or natural.  But considering what we just did it did serve a purpose.

Awake all night in the sub-freezing cold room I go to work the next morning and
of course see her "husband" coming from his night job.  We turn around at the same
time as we pass.  He probably knows what's going on but it is all made to seem like high
intrigue.  Like a movie.  The invitation, the room temperate, her temperature and the
morning meeting was a contrived stupid arrangement designed to provoke guilt and
confusion about myself and the the woman I thought I knew.  I was the only one not in on the joke.

Thursday, August 25, 2016


There are scenes in the movie of insidious crazed doctors with typically big needles.
Replaced in reality by "nice guy" smiling student dentists applying unneeded painful
injections into the chin cavity inside my lower gums.  Smiling Asian "student" dentist
knew I would yell out in a crowded clinic which I haven't done at the hands of dentists
since the sixth grade when I got minor cavities filled without painkiller.  Smiling Asian
student dentist denies everything.  Everyone stays in character except me.  I complain
and am switched to a female Asian dentist.  Her first words to me?  "Will you cooperate?"

What I try and fail to describe above and below is all too similar to the shocks
depicted in post war civilian parts of the movie except that the reality is less dramatic.

Unlike Jake Singer, I never got off at abandoned Bergen Street subway stations in Brooklyn.
The people seen by Jacob in compressed scenes on subways are comparable to what I
see in encounters more numerous except that none include seeing homeless guys with tails
left out of some versions of the movie.

I did witness a fake subway fight with real people bouncing off seats inside a moving subway.
I was not involved but I could see the contrived desperation of it unfolding in front of me.
That's an example of odd events I see every time I use the subways of NYC.  Imagination,
mood, paranoia or drugs play no part.  But...

...Jacob experiences one visual shock after another that he attributes to demons.
No demons.  Singer is abducted by three men in a moving auto that he escapes only to
have his wallet and ID picked after he hits the ground by a guy in a Santa Klaus suit
and beard waving his bell for donations.  When asked what happened to his ID at a
hospital ER he admits that "Santa Klaus took it" confirming the movie doctors idea of
someone insane.

When wheeled on a gurney through Bellevue hospital's winding corridors the audience
and Jacob sees a woman resembling his ex-wife curled up on the hospital floor.  See's
his "good guy" chiropractor vaguely behind a glazed window.  His "girlfriend" Jessie
mysteriously shows up as one of the Bellevue nurses seen to be the result of a concussion
received in the speeding car but, as mentioned previously, also representing something else.

Similar disjointed events not so dramatic happen routinely in my real life version.  The fact
that none of it answers to logic soon becomes beside the point.  Ex-girlfriends that I knew
for years are seen inches away in public who ghost me in public.  Common enough.

In the 1970's what looks like an East Indian male is seen climbing my fire escape at
4:30 AM, barefoot and dressed only in a sackcloth.  This occurred coincidently during
the first time I had a girl sleep over at my apartment.  The guy climbing the ladder showed
up years later in contexts so different I could never conceive of connecting the two events.

An event analogous to the fictional Jacob Singer car scene happened to me in April of 2014.
I am pined to the floor of a Soho bar around 4PM after being asked to leave by 3 guys
emerging from a back door for no apparent reason.  I offered to pay my bill but wasn't
given the chance.  There was no previous trouble, no inebriation in a near empty bar.
A knee to the back of my leg sends me to the ground with a guy for each leg and one with
his knee to my chest while holding down my arms.

He knows his knee is stopping me from breathing and talking normally.  While down I
manage to call him a moron.  I am cuffed, ID is taken and returned.  No name tag, no police
ID is shown, I am uncuffed.  An ambulance arrives and drives me to to Presbyterian Hospital
ER across town.  The only people I see are uncomprehending blank-faced security.  I sit down,
and choose to walk out after 30 seconds.  No blow to the head, no Santa Klaus characters, no
missing ID.

No medical procedures, no blood pressure taken but the Presbyterian Hospital ambulance
bills my insurance for over a thousand dollars.  Routine fraud is the least of it.  I consider
challenging the claim.  I go back to the bar and a different bartender.  And who is going
to believe this story even with witnesses.  Nada, no one.  The guy compressing my chest
with his knee shows up the next day in circumstances so completely different as to be almost
comparable to Jacob watching helplessly while Santa Klaus picks his pocket.  There are other
implications associated with the movie version that I don't even want to touch.

Friday, August 5, 2016


Everything described in this blog does and doesn't originate in any particular time or country.
Manifesting in the 1960's - 1980's in the following ways: I had no idea at the time but
"new age" groups like Macrobiotics, Bioenergetics, Sri Chinmoy, Bubba Free John,
Integral Yoga and many other so-called alternative eastern and western groups were
completely serious as far as their stated intentions and completely rigged.

By who?  Not the FBI who were probably there reporting to J. Edgar and his successor
on what might have been considered to be potential subversive foreign infiltration.
The groups themselves didn't care and probably got a bunch of laughs over who the
special agent G-Man infiltrator was.

These alt groups had excellent PR depending on the image they wanted projected.
I never followed Franklin "Adi Da" Jones' " and his naughty reported hippy orgies which
were likely faked or contrived for the sake of rumor.  Or relatively conservative East-
Indian mediation teachers seemingly following unwritten scripts of prescribing celebracy
until, one after the other, getting "caught" seducing female followers.  One was described
as preforming mechanically, in/ out laughably animatronic sex seemingly getting nothing out
of it.  IOW, asexual, as if doing a job.  Like the priest from Spotlight.  And fulfilling
deliberately self-provoked falls from "enlightened grace", a karmic offset to being objects
of worship and fame.  Deliberately arranged and welcomed PR both positive and negative?

IMO, many people, Catholic religious leader, Marcial Maciel Dellogado, famous politicians
like Sen. Larry Craig, actor Mel Gibson who manufacture deliberate public humiliation under
the guise of sex, mental illness, substance abuse or all three.  Right after he, Gibson, makes a
billion dollars depicting the Crucifixion of Christ a series of incidents are blamed on alcohol,
"the Joos" or a bipolar condition.  Was he actually DWI?  Yes.  Involved with porn actresses?
Most likely.  All real and all faked.  Public disgrace is considered a badge of honor and
something to actually strive for in some religious quarters.  Like his for instance.  Like the
Catholic Church for instance.  Gibson just happens to be fundamentalist Catholic.

Monday, August 1, 2016


Yudkowsky considers the many worlds interpretation of quantum mechanics to be trivially obviously
true,[31] and anything that could happen does happen in some quantum Everett branch[32]
(modal realism[wp] is true[33]).Per Yudkowsky's conception of continuity of identity, copies of you in
these branches should be considered to exist (and be you) — even though you cannot interact with them.[34]áclav_Havel Not to change the subject but a New Yorker Václav Havel article struck a chord with me. 

Mr. H, Czech President, Vaclav Havel in 1990 accepting an honorary degree at Hebrew 
University and comparing his experiences to Mr. K, Franz Kafka.

"One of them is a profound, banal, and therefore utterly vague sensation of culpability, as though my very existence were a kind of sin.  Then there is a powerful feeling of general alienation, both my own and relating to everything around me, that helps to create such feelings; an experience of unbearable oppressiveness, a need constantly to explain myself to someone, to defend myself, a longing for an unattainable order of things, a longing that increases as the terrain I walk through becomes more muddled and confusing."

About the only thing I have in common with Vaclav Havel is that my
last name also begins with H and otherwise nothing in this blog compares
to what what he experienced in prison before the Prague Spring in the
freeing of Czechoslovakia from the Warsaw Pact USSR.

I can easily go from Havel, Kafka and the Prague Spring to Orwell.

I used to be very smug and very sure that my version of things was "right".
There have always been mentally ill people who believe they are victimized by
whoever he or she believes the enemy or "They" happen to be.  Everything in this blog
can be interpreted in that light.  Understandable but incorrect.  I was completely wrong
in my assumptions and no one could tell me otherwise.

DIRECT EXPERIENCE ON THE RECEIVING END beginning in 1994 and becoming
much more aggressive after 2001which many might contrive to say is some kind of
911 PTSD or some such nonsense.  The following will include the cringeworthy but
accurate explanation as to the source of all that I'm describing.  And no, it has nothing
to do with government or contractor conspiracies.  Any references to same are done for
the sake of context if not clarity.

1) E-distorted scream sound effect from outside my apartment followed by
verbal and multiple pulsed frequency sound combinations inducing nausea,
skin heating, racing heart, an adrenal rush felt in the kidney adrenals, in the heart
as angina and total sleep deprivation for 3/4 of a year and resulting temporary arthritis,
painful upper back and neck side effects.  (The sound frequencies I heard were seemingly
meant to mimic the previously mentioned commercially available sound weaponry)
Sleep deprivation for this amount of time, normally impossible, is made to be very
routine which means keeping a person alive and totally sleepless for 3/4 of a year doesn't
seem to present much of a problem for those hiding behind the decisive asset, as
Martin Ames would say, of being beyond belief.

New methods are likely added in pursuit of absolute overwhelming
intimidation, domination and control as if always in a constant
state of war implementing learned helplessness with and w/o physical
contact.  No evidence is apparent, all complaints must be dismissed.

Pulsed multi-frequency combinations are invasive, invisible, leave no
incriminating marks and yet are capable of "touching" and causing
extreme physical pain, nausea, heating of the skin or racing heart chest
pain causing the person to keel over.  The latter are all consigned to tactile
hallucinations or "anxiety attacks."  Nothing was wrong with my heart
but neither were these imagined.  Also no government plot, no technology
or invisible microwave DEW beams.  (The angina pain was a heart jump-
start during prolonged sleep deprivation and disruption)

2) People on the receiving end of sleep deprivation are kept alive and relatively
healthy in a kind of functional half-life fog.  Involuntary sleep deprivation and
disruption via verbiage, sound effects (the old base sound ceiling rapping of 
horror movies, slamming doors and scrapping chairs) sound frequencies 
stimulating or depressing major organs, modulating blood flow, sex drive 
and those famous Strangelovian "precious bodily fluids."  

3) During that 3/4 of a year sleepless marathon the only external obvious
differences in the immediate home environment besides those mentioned
were a mild aerosol chemical smell in the apartment that probably had stimulant
effects and also an almost constant hissing white-noise-like sound both
in the ears (blood flow due to contracted blood vesicles?) and, at times,
projected into the surrounding apartment space reaching a crescendo
effect around the sleepless endpoint after approximately nine months
and the start of another round of sleep disruption.
This occurred in my living space which was and still is more of an
virtual (v)-prison than a place to live.

4) No third party or doctor can distinguish any of this from classic delusion.
At the mere mention of "hearing voices" doctors can't blame themselves for
prescribing useless (in this case) anti-psychotic drugs because even the individual
on the receiving end has no conception, reason or experience to know what's behind
any of this.  The person will believe what they are told, that they are psychotic and
proceed to be compliant in taking useless prescriptions.  Lately the mental health
profession see's psychosis on a functional to dysfunctional spectrum.  This is considered
something of a breakthrough in the mental health field.  Breakthrough's are rare
but millions of research papers keep pouring forth.

Most people who experience intractable delusion and hallucinations also experience
sleep deprivation and believe, usually wrongfully, that they are the victims of externally
sourced plots.  Everything described here can be met with looks of fake concern
combined with the usual slow shaking of the head, as in, "whoops, there's always
room for one more comedian on the funny farm."

After the months of sleeplessness I assumed, wrongly, that I had a psychotic
break leading to auditory hallucinations and sleeplessness.  It took me years,
and increased sleep, to see things differently.  This can be seen as a typical
attempt at talking myself out of inconvenient reality except for the fact that
I will mention details that are difficult to imagine, copy, contrive or make up.

I can't prove I was completely awake for 3/4 of a year.  A typical response,
"I guess not, staying awake that long is impossible anyway?"  Or "you had to
have been on drugs and forgotten that you slept for brief periods."  Or ,"What's
that? You were being hit by invisible rays by invisible men?  Golly, that's too bad.
Check out some of Schreber's Thorazine flavored Kool-Aid for speedy relief."

(In Schreber's day it was opium and fresh air physical fitness for upper class
overworked judges claiming to be mystics)

All kinds of scenarios can be implied or imagined: Street or prescription stimulants?
Persecution complexes along with a desperate need for attention?  Making the whole
thing up or mixing select truth and fantasy, or, or, or anything but what I'm saying.
Convenient understandable automatic default settings that people always fall back
on because what is being said is inconvenient, repellent, or hilariously dumb sounding.

Total sleeplessness conveniently hinders awareness of what should be obvious.
What proves eventually to be so obvious is an insidious non-imagined 24/7 remote
metaphysical neural hack interference in every aspect of waking and sleeping life.

"What's that you say, metaphysical what?  From victim to mystic.  Where have
we heard that before?"  (Metaphysical is my word for it beyond the usual meaning
of the word.  Better than supernatural or spiritual.  It is anything but spiritual.)

The above manifested more aggressively in my case around 2002 some months after 911,
while in my fifties.  But was also a continuation of a slightly more subdued series of
personal events starting in 1993-4 coincidentally after the first WTC attack.  There is
no apparent connection and if any exists it is, again, way past my pay grade.

The more accurate my description of all this the less credible it sounds.  So I should
stop digging the hole deeper, right?  Nope, I'm in over my head and no matter how hard
I dig the hole stays at the same depth.  The level of experience stays the same.  Terrible.

Saturday, July 30, 2016


Looking for on-line proof for this blogs contentions?  Good luck! You will see plenty of YT
PR salesmen imitating seriousness or insanity creating deliberate doublethink smokescreens by
the thousand.  This manufactured confusion is where paid and unpaid contractor actors create, fabricate their own opposition and then attack their own creation and vice versa with 
both sides "winning" both arguments.  

Rent the Matt Damon movie "Promised Land" to see how corporate contractors operate 
when dealing with average people, in that case, on the issue of fracking.   Natural gas 
contractors operating as environmental activists pushing intentionally false information
or disinformation and then exposing their own fake facts to discredit environmentalists.
It is ingenious. 

The information that follows is what is made public in a relatively open society.
In closed societies like Russia and China the following occurs so often as to invite
shrugs of the shoulders as in, hey-what-can-you-do about another relative, blogger or
reporter arrested, beaten or killed for "crimes" of "unpatriotic emotion" or subversion
against government.

In the 1950's American Ivy League universities and low paid researchers were able to
skim large amounts from CIA black budgets while making themselves believe they were
serving a greater cause.

Dr. Sydney Gottlieb, who led the MKULTRA program, apparently found out
differently and eventually said publicly that his work in this program was
effectively useless.  For once, IMO, and contrary to all published reports, he was
probably telling the truth.
Researchers from US and Canada probably thought the MKUltra program goals
were as stated: behavior modification to assist in interrogation, torture and control.
They were right and also wrong. IMO, with few exceptions the entire program
might have been an expensive diversion to compensate for the following....
"The project (MKUltra) began during a period of what Rupert Cornwell 
described as "paranoia" at the CIA, when America had lost its nuclear
monopoly, and fear of Communism (China went communist) was at its 
height. [23] James Jesus Angletonhead of CIA counter-intelligence, 
believed that the organization had been penetrated by a mole at the 
highest levels.[23James Jesus Angleton had regular drinking sessions
with high ranking British spy Kim Philby.  The bad guy was right under
his prominent paranoid nose. Philby later defected to Russia, an
apparent traitor.  B-b-but was he?

The above resulted in a CIA manufactured MKUltra "mind control,
brainwashing gap" where Russians and Koreans were, as always, made
to appear as way ahead.  "Communist Red Scares" before and after
Joe McCarthy (based on reality and manufactured hysteria), non-existent
"bomber gaps", Sputnik satellite technology gaps, "missile gaps" and
ensuing Cold War paranoia leading to intended increases to CIA and defense budgets.

THE UPDATED VERSION (NOT the result of any DEW weaponry or technology
or the result of government or contractor mind control conspiracy)
1) remote frequency stimulus or depression of brain and body for 6-8 months of

2) enabling a one and two way neurohack and scaring the living crap out of the victim.

3) Then a nightly psychic driving where e-filtered child-like words are "spoken" in
textured stereo unison staccato "driving" thousands of times into the brain and psyche.
Again, this does not originate with any government or corporate agency.  It is not
technology.  It's not by Satan or space aliens.  It's not delusion or psychosis.  It is
nasty and has nothing to do with the spiritual or with "God."  It mimics technology perfectly.

Remote, non-local, action at a distance means directing frequencies that "touch" and that
particular touch may or may be subtle enough to be felt on the skin.  Sound frequencies
can adjust, stimulate, depress specific areas of the brain and body and psyche without,
physical contact and be felt consciously or not.  A slight needle like sensation is felt
hitting the neck area in the area of the thyroid or larynx for minutes at a time.  The
next day the person feels unusually talkative.  He realizes a direct cause and effect.
Nothing painful, no microwave DEW laser effect and dismissable as a tactile hallucination.

The implications comprise every paranoid's and public/ private security interrogators 
wet dreams come true.  "Us", in all too many cases, are people pretending to be 
freedom loving civil libertarian "good guys" in opposition to "Them" NSA or FSB
or corporate oil klepto Russian bad guys".  "Us" and "Them" are frequently one 
in the same when it comes to some on-line and real world double-think honey-traps
now given the label "fake news" as if some kind of revelation.  When used to 
manipulate an election it finally gets some serious and WaPo coverage where media
of record news outlets pretend it's a big deal and unheard of.   The entire Russian
and Chinese government sponsored "news" media has used it for generations. 

Friday, July 29, 2016


(always projected into "the future")


Photo: Joint Base Lewis McChord / Flickr


"IT’S BEEN FASHIONABLE in military circles to talk about cyberspace as a “fifth domain” for warfare, along with land, space, air and sea. But there’s a sixth and arguably more important warfighting domain emerging: the human brain."

This new battlespace is not just about influencing hearts and minds
with people seeking truth about this final of frontiers. It’s about 
involuntarily penetrating, shaping, and coercing the mind in the ultimate 
realization of Clausewitz’s definition of war: compelling an adversary to 
submit to one’s will. 
"And the most powerful tool in this war is brain-computer interface (BCI) 
technologies, which connect the human brain to robotic systems."

"Where BCIs can provide opportunities for injured or disabled soldiers 
to remain on active duty post injury, enable paralyzed individuals to 
use their brain to type, or allow amputees to feel using bionic limbs
they can also be exploited if hacked. BCIs can be used to manipulate 
or kill for security or humanitarian purposes, the reality is that 
misapplication of such research and technology has significant 
implications for the future of warfare."

"Recently, security expert Barnaby Jack demonstrated the vulnerability of
biotechnological systems by highlighting how easily pacemakers and implantable 
cardioverter-defibrillators (ICDs) could be hacked, raising fears about the 
susceptibility of even life-saving biotechnological implants. This vulnerability 
could easily be extended to biotechnologies that connect directly to the brain,
such as vagus nerve stimulation or deep-brain stimulation."
(Security expert Barnaby Jack died in 2013)

"Outside the body, recent experiments have proven that the brain can control and 
maneuver quadcopter drones and metal exoskeletons. How long before we harness 
the power of mind-controlled weaponized drones – or use BCIs to enhance the power, 
efficiency, and sheer lethality of our soldiers?"
The Wired article is not just posing these facts for the sake of drama. 
It is asking the reader to just use some inference, some imagination as to the
actual possibilities.  Methods that resemble what was thought to be
something akin to "magic" but is not.

In reality there is no compunction about doing involuntary psychological
experimentation on civilians.  Unless caught all of it is sanctioned and winked at
as no big deal.  Imagine Russian, Chinese or N. Korean labor camps with
the usual in-house fanatical patriots turned loose on prisoners serving life
terms.  Those prisoners who've kept their major organs from being sold
off on the black market to the enrichment of some warlord general.

The average smug individual like I used to be has little to worry about except getting
all angry at NSA spy overreach on one hand and if we are attacked again getting
understandably angry about that.  The media feels entitled to exploit each in isolation
as if one has nothing to do with the other.  Bounced back and forth by our mainstream
and so-called alternative media, between privacy and security with one political
party having a near monopoly on the manipulation and exploitation of fear and
doom perpetual war at home and abroad.  I don't have to mention the name.
This is the party of endless financial and religious endtime all the time disruption.
The lefty rapture of the nerds global warming and climate change disasters in the
making don't compare.

Saturday, July 23, 2016


It looks like being *stressed* really is "desserts" spelled backwards...

In 2009, it was shown that the amount of telomerase activity significantly 
increased due to psychological stress.  Across the sample of patients 
telomerase activity increased by 18% one hour after the end of the stress. 
Telomerase activity was examined in peripheral blood mononuclear cells 
showing high telomerase activity than in controls after a three month
meditation retreat.

And here is Dr. K again to make things more believable and less stressful. 

From the Martin Amis novel "Zone of Interest", chapter titled "Brown Snow".
(The reason behind the color of the snow can and cannot be imagined)
Auschwitz prison camp Commandant Paul Doll (Rudolf Höss) ruminating on how to
handle the next trainload of Jewish humanity as smoothly as possible and without incident. Occupants stuffed in train after train up till that time were always told they were "settlers"
merely being transferred to work teams in eastern territories with a "stopover" for hygienic
reasons at a bath "spa".

Camp Commandant Paul Doll: "The people in the target communities are drawing their own
conclusions from an obvious and irrefutable truth: Nobody Has Ever Come Back.  Thus
they've put 2 and 2 together, and we have lost the "element of surprise."  All right,
I'll phrase that slightly differently: in the matter of what awaits these "settlers" in the eastern territories, we no longer have the advantage of being unbelievable.  The decisive asset of being beyond belief."

That last sentence by Martin Amis...IOW, people catch on.  And are forced to believe the unbelievable.  Intractable delusion can't be invoked when convenient.  And it's invoked
all the time in serious and unserious attempts at lying and "gaslighting."

Nothing in this blog is in any way comparable to the horror of Auchwitz.
Operators of another sort of malevolence still hide behind "being beyond belief"
regarding something that also operates in plain sight.  Updated versions of
Commandant Höss (Doll) exist on the periphery of vision, in rumor and in conspiracies
so numerous that no one would want to conceptualize or acknowledge the reality
without invoking cringeworthy automatic default settings of embarrassed laughs,
eye-rolls and nervous disbelief.  IOW, none of the claims in this blog are a threat
to anyone or anything.  They are all easily dismissed and explained away.

A video segment from a 60 Minutes broadcast regarding a camp survivor:

Friday, July 22, 2016


Lawyers Guns And Money, the late Warren Zevon


"At least one subproject of the MK Ultra project was about the electronic control of human  behaviour (subproject 119). Subproject 119 whose purpose was to provide funds for a study to make a critical review of the literature and scientific developments related to the recording, analysis and interpretation of bio-electric signals from the human organism, and activation of human behaviour by remote means.  The survey encompassed five main areas: techniques of activation of the human organism by remote electronic means, bio-electric sensors, recording, analysis and standardization of data."

IN SUMMERY: (I suspect this underplayed subproject preceded the program)
"...scientificdevelopments related to the recording, analysis and interpretation of bio-electric signals from the human organism, and activation of the human behavior by remote sensors, recording, analysis and standardization of data"

IOW, I am guessing the above was much further along in the 1950's then indicated, was
certainly commercialized decades later starting in the 1990's and post 911.  That said,
the pulsed multiple frequencies used on me resulting in complete sleep deprivation,
brainwashing, stim of multi-vital organs to keep them functioning for many months
while keeping me alive, looking reasonably fit (actually in a dazed depressed half life)
and controlled without physical marks or evidence and without lasting negative physical
or psychological effects is completely beyond any known technology of today.

Sleep deprivation is seldom mentioned on deliberately bogus mind control internet sites
designed as if for the IQ 80 crowd.  Putting certain difficult to believe truthful hints blended
with erroneous government plots so that they can't be told apart is meant to discredit the
part that is truthful.  This strategy also preemptively discredits anyone who tries to describe it.
The mature attitude is: it can't be proved, there's no there there, don't even try to describe it.

The shear numbers of bogus videos are made in order to discredit the entire internet and:
1) manufacture doubt in any government authority or any non-theocratic objective fact.
2) by shear repetition directing nonsense rumors to receptive minds with twitchy trigger fingers.
(Glenn Beck used to yell out, "stop the hate!" to break the trance of previous word bombs
and the shedding of tears at the state of his/ our country on impressionably receptive minds.)
3) These sites and videos wrap themselves and their ridiculous message in God and flag
regardless of where they originate.
4) Sounding exactly like but deflecting blame from established populist right wing conservative propaganda by blaming nebulous "New World Orders", the Illuminati, Satan, NWO, "libtards" (elevated conservative humor), gays, always missing the actual culprits...themselves.
5) Start reasonable, accuse bankers, oligarchs, government CFR NWO Boho Grove "elites."

The name Rockefeller is mentioned derisively but never the sacred name of oil.
Something Russians and Republicans in states like Alaska and Texas have in common.

While done to some extent everywhere, what happens when an entire oil kleptocratic state
apparatus including worldwide RT, including political party's like Republicans exist solely
in the service of mixing truth with lies and false equivalence in connection with Western 
big government?  With *pure unspoiled Christian" mother Russia resisting fascists, the CIA and Islamic terrorists from all sides.*. IOW, systems of government and politics functioning beyond sarcasm, satire or belief.

Closed societies have the propaganda advantage over open societies.  Which means
Russians, N. Koreans, Chinese go crazy over CIA MKUltra, FBI COINTELPRO, 45 year old assassinations of the 60's in the US.  Ignoring Stalin, Mao, the gulags, the work camps, the
murder of millions of their own people making the worst of the CIA and FBI look tame. 
Propaganda is the passive aggressive version of New Cold War while cyber/ financial and
actual combat are waged below the surface.

Saturday, July 9, 2016


The supernatural reality behind the farce of what is called government
brainwashing and torture has little to do with government and nothing to
do with any secret or known technology or weaponry.  The following
is context using technology as a metaphor because the real thing makes
a point of mimicking directed energy microwave and acoustic sound
weapons for very practical reasons.  It enables an entire industry creating
and feeding off of manufactured or "alternative news" trying hard to
manufacture their own reality now falsely labeled a post fact reality.
IOW, the industry of Russian, Israeli and Religious Right troll farm
propaganda.  Next level up is computer hacking and subverting elections
or sabotaging infrastructure, trucks or drones.  The next level up from that?
Hacking the neural extended energy field whereby the so-called elites rich,
military, politicians, CIA, FSB, DHS, MOD, FBI do as they're told.


"Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic"...Arthur C. Clarke

Regarding post WWII human experiments at Harvard described earlier:
Per Susan Jacoby:
While the Vietnam War and draft were the impetus behind the 1960's student 
demonstrations another cause was the knowledge by facility and certain students 
that entire university departments were funded and controlled and dumbed down 
by the Pentagon and CIA since the end of WWII. 

Imagine Russian gulag and Chinese work camp equivalents making these U.S. programs 
look almost comical by comparison.  Back in the bad old Stalin and post Stalin era 
millions of those deemed subversive were "purged" or killed.  IOW, it was always 
Purge Night back in the day.  Imagine Putin's East German "glory days" of KGB and Stasi?
Now in "liberalized" post perestroika Russia the killing of journalists and political 
opponents still gets noticed even after the Russian government sponsored TV news gets 
through spinning the story.  

Replace the following substances and materials with good old fashion total sleep deprivation,
verbal and e-frequency sound combinations including "psychic driving" in the following 
17 stated goals of CIA MKUltra Programs giving anyone not in on the joke a feel for how 
these entities "think": 

  • Substances which increase the efficiency of mentation and perception.
  • Materials which will cause the victim to age faster/slower in maturity.
  • Materials which. will promote the intoxicating effect of alcohol
  • Materials which will produce the signs and symptoms of recognized diseases in  a reversible way so that they may be used for malingering, etc.
  • Materials which will cause temporary/permanent brain damage and loss of memory
  • Substances which will enhance the ability of individuals to withstand privationtorture and coercion during interrogation and so-called "brain-washing"
  • Materials and physical methods which will produce amnesia for events preceding and during their use.
  • Physical methods of producing shock and confusion over extended periods of time and capable of surreptitious use.
  • Substances which produce physical disablement such as paralysis of the legs, acute anemia, etc.
  • Substances which will produce a chemical that can cause blisters.
  • Substances which alter personality structure in such a way that the tendency of the recipient to become dependent upon another person is enhanced.
  • A material which will cause mental confusion of such a type that the individual under its influence will find it difficult to maintain a fabrication under questioning.
  • Substances which will lower the ambition and general working efficiency of men when administered in undetectable amounts.
  • Substances which promote weakness or distortion of the eyesight or hearing faculties, preferably without permanent effects.
  • A knockout pill which can surreptitiously be administered in drinks, food, cigarettes, as an aerosol, etc., which will be safe to use, provide a maximum amnesia, and be suitable for use by agent types on an ad hoc basis.
  • A material which can be surreptitiously administered by the above routes and which in very small amounts will make it impossible for a person to perform physical activity
  • MKUlt Substances which will promote illogical thinking and impulsiveness to the point where the recipient would be discredited in public.  (This blog can easily be made to be seen as exhibit A) 

  • Note #3, materials or substances which will cause the victim to age faster/ 
    slower in maturity.  Or acoustic sound combination delivery systems capable
    of stimulating, depressing and causing pain at a distance.  Within the limits of present day technology penetrating solid materials or construction with 
    directed sound weaponry is not easily implemented.  This is conveniently 
    ignored in thousands of bogus You Tube videos depicting government 
    sponsored (always implying the U.S. government) so-called "electronic 
    harassment" subjecting untold numbers worldwide.  The reality is almost
    as nasty.  Big Gov cooperates and does what it's told. 

    While MKUltra programs spent millions on volunteers and non-volunteers, very 
    little of the above, then or now, (besides #1, and a few others) were accomplished 
    efficiently through the use of "materials", "substances" or chemical hallucinogens
    like LSD discovered in 1937 and scopolamine well known from the days of the OSS.

    LSD was probably very well known by a few in the post WWII CIA.  CIA program 
    chief chemist, Sidney Gottlieb would drop overdoses in the drinks of people he 
    disliked (which he did) or take it himself in safer amounts.  Undetectable 
    poisons were known from the days of the OSS, the CIA predessessor, and were 
    always sought after and used with or without Cuba's Fidel Castro as evil subversive 
    enemy incarnate.  The U.S. recently reopened an embassy in Cuba to predictable 
    derisive right wing populist panic. 

    So-called "Manchurian Candidate" brainwashing is not accomplished by ridiculous 
    Las Vegas playing card pendulum hypnosis.  Extended extreme sleep deprivation in itself 
    with psychic driving renders subject victims confused and suggestible enough to believe
    just about anything.

    The trick is to keep the victim alive and functioning past ten days.  Besides continuous
    sleep disruption accompanied by loud noise: frequency stim to major organs felt as 
    energy streaming into the kidney adrenal area.  The heart needs to be periodically
    jump-started and raced to to the point of causing victims to keel over to their knees.
    A humbling bending of the knee, learned helplessness and induced close to death panic.
    Repeated skin heating feels like a blowtorch from an overhead direction terrorizes and
    paralyzes thinking causing fight/ flight reflexes to go into full alert.  No burning
    results and the victim never stays around long enough to find out if actual burning results.
    Induced projectile nausea is how internal organs and digestion are stimulated and kept functioning.

    Digestion of food and drink become impossible and are always the first body systems
    rendered disfunctional during induced sleep disruption making it impossible to work a job.
    In my case, after a period of years, I was forced to retire.  But of course insomnia is
    implicated in all the usual DSM default cliches for defined and undefined "nervous
    disorders", delusion, psychosis.  Induced sleeplessness is rarely mentioned on previously
    mentioned disinformation sites blaming government and elaborate technology.  It's rarely
    mentioned for a reason.  It's the basis for everything that follows.  Sleep is viewed as
    the enemy.

    After a period of approximately seven years sleep is allowed but restful healthy sleep
    occurs only two or three times a year.  A luxury grudgingly provided so at least the
    "free loading" retiree who doesn't work knows what the real thing is like. 

    Sleep deprivation terror as perfectly depicted in the movie based on a 
    childs storybook, "The Babadook".  Eliminate the evil spirit boogeyman 
    and the special effects and you have a rare depiction of sleep deprivation beyond
    difficult child single motherhood.  One brief scene depicts her attempt at seeking
    help from an outside source, the police.  Big mistake.  What she sees in the police
    station on the coat rack is the outfit worn by the malevolent spook that's been
    torturing her and her son.  On one level this is seen as delusion and hallucination
    from stress and sleeplessness.  Actually it's used as the perfect metaphor showing
    that outside agencies will not help.  IOW, the perfect depiction of upside-down
    reality as it really functions in reality.  Police are thought to be a first resort but
    in fact are the last to go to for actual help in these cases.  Sleep deprivation
    not the result of mental illness, not the result of any government program makes
    people very desperate for relief.  There is no relief.  There is a gradual winding
    down of the intensity. 

    The entertainment industry, particularly TV and movies exploit, trivialize
    all the themes in this blog.  Zombie "Walking Dead" themes (no zombies
    but plenty of real people stretched out around the subway stops on 23rd Street), 
    dystopian novels and planted National Enquirer FEMA martial law Texas 
    Jade Helm conspiracy stories.  Dystopian movies like Mad Max focus on the
    young adult demographic not to mention dystopia on steroids in the science
    fiction gaming industry.

    The focus remains on government as all-purpose bad guy.  Here's how they
    function in reality: Government, police and politicians carry out their usual
    proscribed functions for better or worse.  Their function and the function of all
    governments are subject to forces described in the blog. 

    From the time of the 60's with Nixon subsidizing police departments and 
    the Reagan 1980's when security work was contracted out to civilians and
    the pre and post 911 army of 800,000 civilian contractors plus another army
    of NSA, DHS, Fusion police government security concentrated mostly in
    Southern states.  Enough to bankrupt any government.  The one month jobless
    statistic before President Obama took office was 850,000.  The minute he took
    office the word most often used by Republicans in the US and throughout the
    world was "austerity" and balanced budgets and scary scary debt figures.
    Without irony.  Will the Democratic Party be around to mitigate any of this?
    I must be kidding.  Since 1933 their main job is to use up all their time and
    political capital doing economic and military cleanup.   Along the way they've
    managed to push through Social Security and imperfect ACA healthcare.

    President Obama is called socialist by the party that presided over two
    government bailouts in 1989 (S/L Crisis and Bush 41) and the 2008
    Great Recession.   The GOP were saddened when there was no double
    dip recession in 2011 but still swept Congress in 2014 with plenty of help
    from the Ebola scar.  How many US citizens died in this country of Ebola?
    None.  Zero.  CNN's Wolf Blitzer high pitched hyperbolic voice notwithstanding.

    Did someone say the NSA was out of control?  How could they not be?
    I should now ignore which "small government" political party hired most of them.
    Ignore the fact that this same Republican Party presents itself as the first line of
    civil liberty defense privacy and security.  Reintroducing NSA's PRISM in 2007.
    Ignore that the party of small government is the embodiment of government
    as long as it's their kind of "deficits don't matter" economic trickle down defense
    contracting that has become a way of life particularly for those in and around
    the DC beltway.

    All of which is pretty bad but then imagine the monstrosity of the Russian FSB
    and how their centralized government functions internally in a ridiculously
    dysfunctional corrupt closed society?  And yet oil klepto Russia draws false
    equivalence in their disinformation propaganda by inflating the faults of much
    more open Western societies.  Their dysfunctional always in transition government
    is the embodymemt of centralized chaos manifesting in many forms: in an army
    of right wing troll farms locally and on the www.  In another army of hackers as
    forces of autocratic disruption worldwide and in the U.S.  Closed society hacking
    and propaganda manipulation on the part of the right wing has distinct advantages
    when millions of displaced migrants are migrating into open societies of Europe
    and the Americas.  Combining the internet with the inferiority complex derived
    from the utter backwardness of their government, how can you blame Putin for
    trying to stem the tide of western culture by steadily jamming up the internet
    with Psy-Ops MKUltra COINTELPRO distortions that open societies make public.
    And then try to influence foreign politics through hacking their systems and
    ramping up what is called "alternative" usually right wing news that makes Fox
    News look fair and balanced.

    From the macro back to the individual: 
    Pulsed sound frequency combinations can be made to remotely race the heart, 
    heat the skin, induce nausea, induce learned helplessness, cause hair to 
    stand on end and generally scare the living shit out of average people. 
    This is not done on spy's, the poor, prostitutes, prisoners, addicts, terrorists 
    migrants or whistleblowers.  It is done on average people who worked non-security
    low level jobs in my case, local state government.  

    Sound DEW weaponry is mimicked.  Their is no known or secret technology
    that functions as described here.  Technology is used as a headfake so that
    victims first impulse is to blame everything on any and all government agencies.
    At which point they start sounding like every other paranoid lunatic who ever lived.

    And now ex-Special Forces, ex-CIA, ex-NSA contractor 
    Ed Snowden is forced to live in the autocratic oil klepto
    capital of the world, Russia.  Steroids for their propaganda effort. 

    Making matters worse is Mr. Conservative, Punching 
    Pat Buchanan extolling autocrat Vladimir Putin in early 
    2014 as an example of Christian morality over and above 
    his own President in the media outlet he started, 
    The American Conservative.   What can Daniel Larison
    do but cringe.  He is now propped up as the sane reasonable 
    star of TAC to counter Rod Dreher and Buchanan. 

    The party that lost the popular vote in 2000 and needed
    SCOTUS for legitimacy now promotes Trump's birthers 
    who question President Obama's Christianity, his country of 
    origin and patriotism not to mention thwarting his ability to 
    govern over and above what is expected of partisan oppositions 
    or so say Republican moderates Mann and Ornstein.   

    And Trump supporters are the ones who want Hillary Clinton 
    executed for treason?  This is the political party that thinks they 
    are entitled to rule and are so rich that no mainstream media 
    publicly questions their legitimacy as a political entity.   Catering 
    as they have to their real and pretend in-house extremists 
    for the past 60 years.